I can't swallow the bitter truth... finally I put two pieces together. Reason why I suddenly found him familiar,reasons why I was scared and ended up like this. His powers makes me submit at the very least.
That night...now fresh in my memory... I couldn't sleep a wink.
I didn't want to take anything along with me...it would only hurt me more than I already am right now.
Space....that is all I need!
I didn't talk to him...he didn't either. We're both helpless. Here I am standing in front of my sister's killer and I'm unable to do anything
Why....?
I've I become soft...or have I...?
The ride was ready sooner than I expected and soon I'll be out of these walls for good. He accompanied me silently like a shadow, scared to say a word to me and so am I.
Anger, revenge, pain... that's not what is in my heart now...what exactly am I to feel in this kind of situation?
Having load the truck with gifts... I have to look one last time ..
"Zatan....!" I finally called...his gaze was sad and broken... I couldn't hold back my tears anymore
"Don't cry...your tears hurt me more than you know!" He finally hugged me.. I dig deep into his neck filling my head with his scent
"Take care...!" .... I peaked him one last time.. silence reads our heart better..not a blink or a sigh. Unsaid words were quite understood but I guess he misunderstood mine
"Live well Violet!" ...his last words hurts compared to he truth. His back turned to me as he walked in slow strides back in
How can he leave? Why wouldn't he beg and cry and ask for forgiveness a thousand times?
Why can't he hold me captive again and not let me go back...?
Why is he giving me my freedom?
I wasn't the same woman anymore
I'm a different woman now...a different and softer version!
The ride back home was silent...my mind clear... nothing fills it in. Not even the thoughts of my father. But one thing does...
Revenge!
"His Majesty has grown soft of you. He isn't perfect but he's trying to be the best to make you happy. It's so sad he figured it out late. Please keep good memories of him in your heart!"
His so called trusted guard said to me...
Soft for me uhn...?
I'll think about that later...
Loud music, trumpet and petals everywhere... I should have trusted my father to make a big deal out of this.. but I'm not in the mood for celebrations.
"Welcome back my wonderful daughter!" His hugs were the same but more fuller than before.. I couldn't resist crying...
"Violet... what's wrong with the tears...?" His face filled with worries
"I just miss you so much father!" ... I didn't actually lie.. but it's all the same
It was a grand feast, people were happy I was back... but I wasn't until some havoc was caused.
"Can I have your attention everyone?"
Happy gazes were on me and finally the eyes I've been waiting to see finally showed up.
"I know for a fact everyone is happy to have me here. But I want to rule out publicly the unhappy ones! Cannery come forth!"
Murmurs filled the hall and one look from me made them realize I wasn't in the mood for it
"Yes... sister!".... shaking in fear uhn... that's more like it
"Back in my time in Anthill... I have a strong reputation of
crushing my enemies...and if that includes you sister I'll definitely put you in your place.
I have no obsession with the throne whatsoever,all I want is the love I never had all my life. Was that too much to ask? You turned my maid against me, poisoned me and sold me off...!!!! What else shall I add to your sins dearest sister?"
I can feel rage in my voice at the moment.
I won't be at peace if someone doesn't get punished!
"I believe your silence is all I need. If you have more to say please discuss it with the guards! Guards...take her away!"
She didn't expect my judgement...no one did. But the pleasing smirk from my father was all the validation I need. And if I didn't get it I don't care.
The party wrapped up quickly... and I was getting more and more frustrated
"Violet dear!" .....the good old queen is here...
"Yes your highness!" ....i intend not to forget my manners
" I want to appeal to you...have mercy on my child. She's mannerless, uncultured and savage,at the decisive mercy of her criminal lover. Please... show leniency!" Father gave the whole case for me to handle and I didn't expect her begging this sooner...
"Oh really... but then again I could have died right..from the poison!" Thinking about it made my blood boil the more..
"It would be better to leave me while my sanity is is order your highness