I waited patiently for her to wake up... pulling her to my side and rubbing her hair her beating chest finally calm down.
It was normal now but I know deep down she isn't She scared... I can feel it
"I'm so sorry Violet! I hope you'll forgive me!"
Making sure all the incense are gotten rid off. Sleep took over before I could blink one more time.
"Zatan... you're crushing my waist!" I heard her whining voice.. but I was too sleepy to let go till I felt a smack on my arm
"That stings!" ....she laughed at my pitiful expression. At least it's good that I can make her laugh despite her horrific experience before.
"How long have I been out?" She asked...
"For hours... I couldn't keep count since I fell asleep too!"
"Well I slept just fine. Thank you!" She won't thank me if she knows I'm the cause of her nightmare.
"Dress up... I want to fess up about something!" I need to do it now. The more I chicken out of it,the more problematic it will become later.
She tipped her head over, looking so curious. Then she plastered it with a smile
"Okay! You're getting good with suprises lately!" .... it's a surprise alright... but not in the good way.We took a stroll around the garden first, something to lighten up her mood before the big drop
"Are you sure about this?" Lax muttered to me
"Definitely. I'll take whatever consequences that follows!" A part of me hesitated but I know what's right and I'll go by it
"Where are we going again?" Her cheesy smile calls for me
"Somewhere... somewhere secrets are born!" Guilt rushed through me as I couldn't look into her eyes
"Is everything okay?" She held my face up in her tiny palm... I'm so bewitched by this woman I didn't want to reveal more than I have to...
I walked her into the room. Slow and steady to the cupboard...and I brought out what she dread the most
"Oh my goodness... is he here... he's threatened you right...? That's why you want me to go home to my father?" I wasn't expecting this but I wasn't relived... I dread more in guilt
"Say something Zatan!" Her eyes were moist... that's not what I wanted
"No! He didn't because I'm him!"Her confused expression....she doesn't understand
"I was the reason for your sister's death. I have a huge long time grudge on Zuma. He took something precious to me by force. He made my soul and spirit die.
I was blinded by anger and revenge I couldn't see you... even after the ordeal I didn't know it was you until you told me about it.
There's no excuse for whatever I've done... I just want you to forgive me...if you ever can! Hatred is a deep feeling too... I can take that as well!"I was to feel relived... but I didn't...her silence pierced me more as I saw her eyes...
gone back, trying to remember that day...that night! It's over...! I collapsed on my knees... just between her feet... hoping for nothing more than a smack,a punch or curses!
But her arms wrapped around me begs to differ
"Can I go home tomorrow morning?" ... it's entirely finished...she won't come back to me. I'm the cause of this I could only nod as words couldn't make it self in my mouth. Our walk back to the room was silent.
She walked slowly to the shower room and I'm definitely sure tears went down in there but I can be wrong again!
She swiftly changed and slept on the bed,her back turned to me and I knew it can't be the same
"What you said to me before....how true is it?"....she finally spoke to me, but she's in doubt of everything I felt for her
"They are as true as the sun daily sets,and and real as my now beating heart. I'm so sorry Violet!" ...
her body shook violently in tears... I was helpless... I couldn't pull her close... I couldn't do anything...!