My first time with Sidon was a mess and now the same thing with Lucca. How unlucky can a human being be? My aura must have been the darkest. I surely needed salvation. I went full heartbroken girl mode. Locking myself up in the house and sobbing with my sad playlist. Two days after the previous incident at the store, August rang me and informed me that she had told Lucca I was sick and he was headed to our place. That did put a smile on my face. Immediately she hanged up, there was a knock at the door. Knowing who it was I didn't respond immediately. He knocked again before I proceeded to open the door
Hey baby, I heard you were sick and I came to see you immediately. I looked at him without saying a word or hugs and I went back to bed. Is something wrong? He asked. I was quiet all this time and once I got to bed I covered myself to the head. I was in a black shirt and blue short. He uncovered me and began to caress my thighs. I had to talk. "I'm in this situation thanks to you.' He asked what wrong he had done. There was no way I was telling him it was because of the thumbs up emoji or that I was hiding when he came to the store and didn't bother to ask for my whereabouts. That would be evident that I was the pettiest human being alive
'Ever since we happened you have been ghosting me.
He explained himself, he was busy studying for the mid semester examinations, and going to shoots, he never had the time to come by and check up on me. "Just do you... You will hit me up when your busy live is over. Close the door on your way out' I said and covered myself smilingly but I ensured he didn't see the smile. The cold treatment made him retrieve his hand from my thighs and walk away frustrations written all over his face. When I heard him close the door I tossed my blankets, threw my sweatpants and hurriedly walked to the store. I wanted to deliver the breaking news in person. How happy I was one wouldn't I had spent two days indoors, sobbing. Perhaps this guy was my doctor's prescription something like Set eyes on him once every day.
Did you talk? August asked immediately I walked in. I sent him away, I replied smilingly. What! They exclaimed loudly in unison.
No one gets to come into my life and do I dirty.' I said and went on to explaining what transpired. Both girls were amazed but perhaps happy at the same time. On having afterthoughts I realized what I had done wasn't the best after all. That very evening he came to buy some breadsticks and butter. We were at the counter with Anne, August had just stepped out. He stood there like any other customer. He didn't utter a word, just buried on his phone as he awaited his goods to be packed. The silence was a bit awkward. With Anne moving around, serving him made me dizzy. 'Quit moving around!' I said with gritted teeth as I repeatedly cracked my fingers. She looked at me shaking her head in disbelief as she handed him his goods and walked away. I couldn't bear the silence so I followed him to ask for forgiveness. 'Wait up! I shouted as he closed the door. I ran and stood in front him. 'Stop acting like we are not acquainted. I know I stooped so low earlier on, but I'm sorry, okay? 'Okay,' he said moved aside and he kept walking. 'Really?' turning to where he was headed to with my tongue on my teeth. Something I did when I was pissed off. 'I'm out here in the cold trying to ask for forgiveness and…..? "….and what Naya? Huh! He interjects as he yells in my face. 'You think you're the Centre of the world? And everything revolves around? He kept yelling still in my face this time round attracting the attention of the passers-by. Anne who was inside I'm sure she clearly heard everything. His index finger tapping sluggishly but with a lot of force on his chest he recklessly said with gritted teeth 'I have a life, get one. I owe no one an explanation, no one and not you especially.' He left me stranded pensively. My tear bags almost full with tears. They didn't let me down, they immediately cascaded down.
I wasn't going to act all vulnerable and walk back inside like some stupid girl. With a lot of rage I wiped those tears and stormed back in to pick my phone and sweater. 'What the fuck just happened?" Anne asked as she had clearly had the yelling. Have you seen Arnold or Aziz anywhere? Anne shook her head. 'But for real what happened?' 'Just Lucca being a dick. Nothing new.' I said storming out of the store. 'Where are you going?' She asked in as much as I didn't answer I really wanted to tell her I was following the advice I never really asked for 'Getting a life.'
I headed to Arnold's place. He was playing the loudest of music and he wasn't alone. I heard deep voices laugh. Knocking wouldn't be of help so I decided to bang the door.
Bang! Bang! I went the first time i bit my lower angrily and nervously as I awaited him to open. He never heard clearly. I banged the second time, but this time continuously. Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang! 'He turned down the volume. Jiiiiz! Don't break my door I'm coming,' he opened only to find it's me. I pushed him and walked in. 'Naya!' he said closing the door and followed me to where our other friends sat, Aziz and Lennox. Not only were we friends but also classmates. Both of them were talkative like Arnold. We used to drink together, get high and attend parties. I had become part of the small gang
'Naya!' they enthusiastically shouted on seeing me. "Our girlfriend.' Aziz kept talking smilingly. I walked passed them and threw myself on the couch without saying a word.-What's up? The two asked in unison. Why do you seem sullen? Aziz asked. They were seated on the floor playing FIFA. Seeing I wasn't going to answer them they kept on playing. Arnold was kinder reasonable than the two so he sat beside me trying to find out what was wrong. I didn't tell him anything as well. Instead I asked 'Do you have some weed?' They looked at me in unison smilingly( if that's a thing at all.
'We don't know what's wrong with you right now, but we highly appreciate the illegal substance vibe you came with,' Lennox said as he stood up, pulled me up and we headed to the rooftop. That was our spot when it came to smoking weed. Arnold went for the joints in his room where he usually keeps them while we arranged the place for our session. There were always four deckchairs with some old blankets. We would sit facing the sky, mood and stars. When we were high, laughing hysterically we could tell each other our problems and what we wanted for the future. Every time we talked of the future it was like "I want us to remain in each other's life's,' or 'I can't wait to be the DA, one of us a judge and the other the prosecutor, after the court session we are headed to the Wines.' I can't forget what we all said at one point "I want all of us to be successful.' Some nights I can reckon sleeping out in the cold.
He lit it up five of them and handed each one of us a joint. I knew the night was somehow about to turn epic. I took in four puffs. Every fiber of my body accepted the fact that something profound had happened to it. A whispery sensation from the marijuana spiraled gently through my body, drawing a veil through the passages of my brain, settling softly on my nerve, calming and soothing. I felt so peaceful that even my most angry thoughts dissolved. Laughing hysterically I thought I should get up. No I'd like to lie down; no I'd like to get up immediately. I am going to phone Lucca and give him a piece of my mind; no I'm not going to phone him. But I really must. No I definitely won't. I'm going to lie down.
My whole body was tense. A weird feeling of apprehension swept over me and suffocated me. Turning to my left, I realized it was Arnold who was caressing my face and neck tenderly. 'Don't worry, I won't let anything bad happen to you,' he assured me in a slow-motioned echo. I started laughing hysterically at his words. They sounded absurd. He pulled my head to his chest, as I watch the stars literally move. I tried to share my imaginations with everyone else but my words came out soggy. I tried to stand up, but I tripped almost falling down but Arnold helped me find my balance as the others laughed at me. I wanted to tell every one of my thoughts but all I could was laugh or the words that I used had nothing to do with my thinking. This wonderful, priceless and true thing in my head was slipping out of my grasp. I felt terrible and finally I couldn't talk at all. I slumped back into the deckchair and closed my eyes till the next morning.