Three years have passed today. I have started going to college now. Time has flown by like a bird that what can I say? I made some school friends and lost them. Now I have friends in college and they will also be lost. I know people will call me crazy why I haven't friended anyone, but I don't want to aggravate my wounds. And if I made someone my best friend, he would also be killed by my fate. Then why should I make friends?
I know my thought is wrong, but I am afraid now. Grandma passed away two months ago. The brother now went to Canada after studying. And it has been a year and nine months since he called me. By the way, I wasn't his real sister then how he would remembered me. Well,
I love all the time I spend with my family or traveling alone.
I still go to uncle Aafan's shop. He has now hired three employees to work in his shop. Everything has changed.
No matter what happened, no matter how time passed, I got everything I wanted.
'Living alone in a house built on a mountain, cycling to school or college and traveling the world.'
But what should have been found, was not found and that was happiness. Perhaps I should say 'not found yet' because life is still there. And it is not known when and how it will take u-turn.
I don't regret the decision to leave my family, I just feel sad that even after doing so much, I didn't find true happiness.
"Why is there no one in this crowded world who can be with me?" Finally, only one thing is understood:
"Some people are destined to live alone in this world."
Only my girlhood is over now. Maybe a life partner will come in my life, but I will never wait for him hoping for that. Waiting for someone will be more painful than all the sorrows of my past life.
Thinking this, an unusual smile spread on my face.
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