This was the guy she had imagined naming their future dog with. The one she slow-mo watched on the soccer field. The one she secretly doodled in her lyric journal.
And yet, as soon as she walked away, something in her chest felt… empty.
"I can't believe you did that ".
"I didn't agree Jane " Raye said tiredly for once she wasn't in the mood to joke or anything . She was sprawled on her couch tired and too lazy to argue .
Jane wasn't either as she said .
"You better not ".
"I will though " Raye said watching jane glare at her she stood up slowly from the couch before saying " Jane whether you agree to it or not , I need to come to term with my feeling for Joshua ".
"Mhms you mean infatuation ".
Raye gave a short laugh her face still serious as ever " anything you call it , but I know it was there and I need to get over it ".
"For goodness sake , anything could happen at that dinner he might kiss you and you would go over the whole thing again ".
Raye stared at Jane who was clearly angry and also worried about her .
She gave a long sigh running her hands through her short hair before saying .
"That won't happen , believe me Jane am starting to feel nothing for Joshua , I am now seeing him the way you see him ...a liar ", Raye said the last part barely audible before she continued . " And I need to go over there and end it , I won't fall for anything ".
Jane stared at her friend , she was serious she thought .
Not like she didn't trust her but it's the boy she didn't trust , that guy was a walking lady flirt .
" Why are you looking like someone who is confused about life "
Raye sighed laying back down on the couch.
"Cause I am , I am confused _ I expected something even if it was a little blush , a thug something but all I felt was nothing ... " Raye stared at Jane before saying softly . " Jane , I don't see him that way like before ".
The way she said it made something thug in Jane heart as muttered an aww before she joined Raye in the couch hugging her .
"Don't mind me saying , but that's you being mature it's a good thing you moved on ".
Raye smiled at Jane as she released from the hug " yeah that and partly because of that guy ...Jane I think I might like him and at the same time I also feel foolish cause he might be someone that doesn't exist too ".
"Yeah that mystery guy , if we ever find him _ which we would I would give him a punch on his face for making you feel like this ".
Raye smiled softly "thank you ".
"Mhm you are welcome , but what you need now is fresh air ..follow me for shopping ".
"What are we shopping new clothes " Raye asked with a small frown standing up slowly.
"Na just groceries we are out on stock ".
"Oh _ why didn't you tell me I would have added some money too ._ ..and as... I said that I realize I am broke ".
"Mhm that why I didn't ask cause ,you spent your whole money on a new oven also I told you this morning but maybe your forgot , ".
Raye muttered an o before smiling softly .
She did tell her she was going for shopping today ,infact that was the excuse she gave Joshua for not staying for that lesson .
"Alright let me change into something else before we go ".
"Hurry up " Jane yelled watching Raye run to the room , she sighed tiredly with a small smile
Silly girl .
Jane and Raye were walking out of the groceries store when Raye suggested they get ice cream since she still had little money.
After buying the ice cream , Jane and Raye where walking when Jane caught something.
"Isn't that Joshua ,".
"Where " Raye asked following Jane line of sight she saw him _ in a black hoodie standing close to a vending machine .
With a girl .
Jane turned to Raye clicking her tongues .
"This guy is soo going to get a piece of me ".
"That won't be necessary " Raye said stopping Jane by pulling her back ,holding her hoodie . " It's not like I care or anything "
Jane stared at Joshua and then back at Raye who had a bored face like it didn't matter to her anymore .
"So that means you aren't going for the date ??" Jane asked adjusting her hoodie which had folded to the side when Raye pulled her back .
"Who said it was a date , it's just a coffee between two friends "Raye said chuckling softly she continued . " Look I can't give Joshua the benefit of the doubt by acting all no I don't want that , I would just look jealous , I would go as friend the guy is pretty disgusting as you said Jane ....and it took me time to notice it ".
"I don't want to say this right now but am still going too ...I told you so ".
"I deserve that , Joshua needs to be taught a lesson, that not all girls like him or fancy his stupid smug grin ".
"You did though ".
"Shut up Jane , you are pushing it " Raye said glaring at Jane who laughed out as they both stopped a cab before hopping in .
After shopping Raye stayed in her room ,just curled up under her blanket with headphones and sad indie music.
She heard the sound of her phone ding loudly killing the silence as she quickly rushed picking it from the side table .
A small smile formed on her lips as she saw who it was .
Finally she thought after a long silence after so many days she had gotten a reply from him .
Raye laughed out , a sense of relive washing over her _ she never once thought she would be eager to receive a person's message ...ever .
Mystery texter :
"Just so you know… I was proud of you today."
Raye :.
"Because I survived your long silence or what .
Mystery texter :.
Sorry about that been busy , but I'm still proud of you ...you are growing up .
Raye couldn't stop the stupid smug grin on her face which spread wider everytime she read the message .
He was busy , not too busy to check on her and still watch her _ it was thoughtful in a very weird kind .
Raye :
Good night stalker .
Mystery texter :.
LOL . Good night, trouble .
She turned off her phone.
What was she even doing .
Her stomach did an embarrassed flip-flop .
Oh.
Oh.
Oh .
"I am doomed " Raye muttered using a pillow to cover her face hiding her heated cheeks .