That night Gray couldn't sleep. When she closed her eyes, she remembered the moment when Reines kissed Toru. Somehow she imagined how Reines smiled mischievously, as if she was looking to take Toru away from her.
"It bothers me...", she wailed, hiding under the sheets. As she wriggled wriggling all over the bed, she remembered that, after Reines left, she too left the room without saying anything to Toru.
She couldn't even look Toru in the eye. She just fled the place as if she had lost something important.
"It bothers me so much..."
But what bothered him the most was the fact that Toru didn't follow her. He stood frozen in the same place where Reines kissed him.
"It hurts me so much..."
-???-
'Everything has become so boring...'
Toru's voice echoed in that white void.
Sakura took him by the hand to join him, but he didn't even change his way of looking at things. He kept looking at the sky with dull eyes, with a soft dull breath; tired....
Just at that moment something happened...
It was a memory that came up again to torture Toru. It was the memory of a rainy day on the roof of one of Amegakure's tall metal buildings.
In front of Toru stood Itachi.
"I forgive you", was what Toru said after witnessing the massacre of the Asahi Clan. It was what he said after hearing his mother's last words and it was the last thing he said before leaving Itachi alone.
Sakura had already seen that memory, only this time, the scene changed to Itachi's corpse. Next to the man was Sasuke, his younger brother.
Two brothers fought and only one of them survived.
'Death is something that is always with me', Toru whispered from the field of white flowers. 'Wherever I am there is nothing but death and suffering. No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try to change, I always get the same result.'
Alek's World, Toru's family and his Akatsuki friends. Toru was present at most of those events and, imprisoned by his memories, he let the scars form in his mind.
"Can someone with such a shattered mind still live?", wondered Sakura. She squeezed Toru's hand, waiting for an answer, but what she got was a deep silence.
The first wish Toru had before he was summoned was to die, and that wish changed to something completely opposite. Toru was then summoned by Sakura, but he had already lost all the will he had left. He was just a boy with an empty heart.
"Let me save you..."
That was Sakura's wish. Even though no one could hear her, she wanted to save Toru.
"Let me heal all your wounds..."
And for that, she was going to use these memories. She will use all of Toru's past to her advantage, not only to save him, but to make him fall in love with her.
Toru is a person who, by nature, desires the love of someone, whoever, because in his first life he didn't know what it means to love and be loved. And above all that, Toru never knew the meaning of happiness.
She knew it was too selfish and cruel a desire. She is taking advantage of this situation to win Toru's love. She's practically using the boy, but....
"There's nothing else I can do other than that. So, please wait for me. Wait for me and I'll be able to love you like no one else has. I will make you happy, even if it means sacrificing everything I have left. And I won't let anyone snatch you from my arms."
Whoever dared to try to conquer Toru, Sakura already knew what she had to do. With a sinister look, she sighed wearily.
Yeah... she was going to hurt whoever came near Toru.
-London. At Waver's house-
After everything that happened the day before, Toru found himself sitting on the stairs. Next to him was Add.
"This is the third time I've asked this, but did you understand anything about what happened yesterday? Because I don't", Toru said.
Add sighed in response.
"I'll also tell you a third time. I don't know. It just happened. Considering your ability to react, I'm surprised you didn't realize what she wanted to do to you. Hah... You already know, I think, but I can feel what Gray feels. At that moment she felt very confused and scared. That's the only thing I can explain to you, because there are things even I don't understand."
"I see, thank you. Gray has been locked in her room ever since. I'd like to say something to her, but I can't think of anything."
"Ah, yes. You can go to where she is without saying anything to her. I'm sure she'll make you think of something."
"Hm... that makes sense. Then, let's go over there."
Toru grabbed Add's cage and headed for the basement. When he opened the door to Gray's room, he noticed that she was hiding under the covers. Judging by her breathing, she was awake.
"Gray..."
Hearing Toru's voice, Gray's breathing stopped. She closed her eyes with all her might to eliminate any unwanted presence, but it was impossible. Gray felt as Toru took a seat at the foot of the bed.
"Good morning."
"Get up, girl! It's morning already! How long do you plan to sleep!", yelled Add, jerking inside the cage.
Apparently, Gray didn't show enough will to even look Toru in the eyes, so she continued to hide under the covers.
"Aah... we have no choice. Assassin, do it."
"Do what, take the sheet off her?"
"Yes. Do it."
Gray's eyes widened after hearing Add say that. She held the sheets tightly in response, but Toru only needed one hand to lift the sheets.
Because Gray also possesses strength beyond that of normal humans, she was lifted up with everything and sheets. She now looked like a cat whose claws were caught in a curtain, hands clutching the sheets and kneeling on the bed.
Gray instinctively looked away. She didn't want to see Toru. Even though what happened yesterday wasn't this boy's fault, she was angry at him. Seeing his face might increase that anger she had in store.
"Are you angry, girl? How pathetic you are."
Gray ducked her gaze.
"Shut up... You two... get out of here."
Add sighed after what Gray said. "Is that why you left me out all night? You wanted to be alone? Huh. You look like a little girl throwing a tantrum."
...
"Gray... I don't understand your anger. I really don't get it."
That was normal for a guy like Toru. He doesn't relate women's reactions to such a strange emotion as love. For him there's always room for doubt, and that's why he didn't understand what Gray felt.
"How can you not understand me? After what you did..."
No. Toru didn't do anything, but Gray wanted to find a culprit for the emotions that are hurting her. While she is angry, she is also sad. Remembering the moments together with Toru, thinking about how romantic it was to be together with him and looking back at a day before, she felt frustrated, as if all those moments were thrown away because of a stupid mistake.
Besides...
"After what you did...", she slowly let go of the sheet and dropped her hands to her thighs. With her eyes on the bed, she could barely see Toru's knees.
She looked up to see him, but as she met the boy's eyes, again that unpleasant image of Reines kissing him came to her mind. Anger increased and, from one moment to the next, she raised her hand and slapped Toru.
Toru opened his eyes in surprise. He was now looking to the left after the recoil from the blow. His cheek turned red rather quickly and a soft burning pain ran through his skin.
"Hey, hey, hey. why did you hit the boy?", Add was very confused, but since he has a strong connection with Gray, he could understand all those mixed emotions in that girl. 'I see... it's about to happen.'
Gray's emotions are finally overflowing like water in a glass.
When Gray lowered her hand after hitting Toru, tears began to stream down her little face. She knew Toru wasn't guilty of anything. Yesterday was just another one of Reines' cruel games, but still Gray was angry and sad. Seeing how another woman took Toru hurt her so much. All that trust she had in Toru crumbled right then and there. She felt betrayed; she felt she had lost something important and that was the answer to the tears that at that moment were shed.
Love...
"Why do I feel this way, why does it hurt so much, why do I feel this way when I'm with you", Gray said, through her tears. She clenched her fists tightly around the sheets. "It's all your fault. This all happened because you're here. If you weren't here I'd..."
Add interrupted. "If he wasn't here, you'd still be the same gloomy, depressing girl you've always been. Assassin Boy, can you let me out? I think you two need a moment alone."
"Are you sure?"
"Sure. Besides, you seem to already know how to handle the situation, or am I wrong?"
"... You're not wrong. Thank you."
As Gray cried, Toru opened the door and set Add outside on the floor. Closing the door, he sat back down across from Gray.
"Don't cry," he said, putting his hand on Gray's head.
"I can't... I can't..."
"Yes you can. Haven't you done harder things than that? I think you can."
Gray looked up. This time, instead of remembering what happened yesterday, she saw a subtle smile on Toru's face.
Toru doesn't show his smile easily to others. And if he does, it will always be a fake smile. This time, Toru was smiling as if he was talking to a little sister who accidentally fell and scraped her knee. Now that little girl was crying from the pain and needed a big brother to comfort her. Only, at this moment, it's not about two blood relatives. It's a boy and a girl, alone in a room.
"Why are you doing this, why are you always like this with me?"
"... I seem to remember you asked me that question before. But I'll answer you again."
Toru took Gray's hand and, inside his mind, the image of a child that no one saved appeared. Toru saw a resemblance between Gray and that child. He saw how they both sank into darkness with no one able to save them.
He doesn't do this out of compassion or pity. It is much worse than that and Biserka's soul reminded him of it many times. He tries to be happy through the happiness of others, like a leech sucking blood for pure selfish gain. Toru is that kind of person, but he is not as evil as he seems. Even if his intentions are those, he's not going to deny that he also feels something more for this girl.
"I want to see you smile."
It was a completely different answer this time. Gray was surprised. She looked at Toru's silver eyes to confirm if those words were true. Even deep down, though her confidence was crumbling, she understood that Toru wasn't lying.
Gray knows Toru somewhat superficially, and she understood that Toru is a great liar, but at this moment that doesn't apply. Why? Well, because Toru opened his heart to Gray. She could feel what he felt. Aside from sadness and pain, there was a slight captivating emotion subtly throbbing in Toru's heart.
"Smile... me?"
Toru nodded.
In the past, these words would have offended Gray. Her smile doesn't belong to him. This body didn't belong to her. But as she had heard many times before, physical appearance is only the shell of a human being. What's on the outside doesn't matter as long as the inside is beautiful in the eyes of others.
She felt that Toru could see what others could not. But she was still angry. She couldn't shake the fact that another woman had been in Toru's arms. Thinking about it made her angry, not only at Reines, but at Toru. Gray felt like she wanted to punch him to calm these outrageous emotions, but instead of doing that, because she had already done that moments ago, she walked over to Toru.
"I still can't smile...", she slowly put her hands behind Toru's neck and brought her face close to his. Gray looked into his eyes. "Because I have to purify you first", and she kissed him as Reines had done before.
As she did this, Gray had the childish thought that she could purify the kiss Reines gave Toru. Once this was done, she could regain her confidence and think as she always had.
She was ashamed to admit it. She is ashamed to admit that she wants Toru all to herself. Any other woman is forbidden to go near Toru. Even looking at him was already a death sentence.
At this selfish thought, Gray intensified their kiss and slowly pushed Toru back against the bed.
She had heard it a few times before in her village. To conquer a man there are different methods, one more cruel than the previous one. Men are simple beings, of course. They can be captivated by a woman's beauty or by a plate of food, there are many ways to conquer them. But there was one method that Gray found quite cruel: Getting pregnant to force the man to marry. That was out of the question.
Yes, these emotions are still confusing, but Gray can no longer repress them. Panting and moving her tongue inside Toru's mouth, Gray's body began to heat up. It was a reaction she already knew, so she simply decided to let herself go.
The day before she had witnessed another woman want to take her man away from her. That detonated all kinds of competitive feeling in Gray, and consequently, she's doing this.
After a long adult kiss, she looked up at Toru. He was underneath her, lips moist after that kiss. Gray for a second saw Toru's collarbone and a bit of his chest muscles under the kimono.
'A man's body...'
It was the first time she had seen so much in a man. Being a teenager discovering her sexuality, she slowly approached Toru's neck.
"Uh, Gray?", even Toru was confused. After seeing how Gray looked at him, Toru recognized the expression on her face.
With flushed cheeks and heavy breathing, a blank stare and a vague expression....
'It's just like Konan...', because Konan was making the same excited expression that night....
And before he could shake Gray off, she stuck out her tongue and started licking Toru's neck. With that Toru felt a shudder and squirmed on the bed.
"Ah-", he let out a soft gasp that reached Gray's ears.
Hearing Toru's voice come out in such a strange way, Gray felt her crotch tingle. She clung to Toru with both hands, holding him tightly by the cape. In fact, she felt that there was something hard touching her. It was Toru's leg, which was between Gray's legs.
Feeling her body so warm, Gray began to rub herself on Toru's leg.
She didn't know what she was doing. Her body was moving on its own. It was an instinct that was hidden deep in her mind, budding like a flower in spring.
Feeling Gray's warm tongue touching his neck, Toru also felt strange. He hadn't felt like this for a long time. Besides, something down there was waking up. Come on, any man who considers himself a man would react to a similar situation, it's not something strange.
"Gray, wait a minute. No-"
Gray was out of control. As soon as Toru opened his mouth, she pounced on him to kiss him. Her hands gently caressed Toru's chest.
'This... something's not right... something strange is happening to me', this girl thought. She could no longer control her body. Rubbing her crotch against Toru's thigh felt strangely pleasurable.
It was a sensation that gave her shivers, something that ran through every corner of her body and raised her body temperature. She began to sweat without realizing it, and that place between her legs became wet.
'I can't stop...'
At first she thought of making Toru forget his kiss with Reines, but now Gray was thinking of other things.
When she ran out of oxygen, she pulled her lips away from Toru's and breathed heavily. Suddenly, she felt something that made her eyes widen in surprise. There was something warm, hard and throbbing touching her abdomen.
Realizing what was happening, Gray whispered.
"It's so big... This... Is this my fault?", with an embarrassed and blushing expression, she looked Toru in the eyes.
It was completely crazy for Toru to hear the shy Gray say that. She is not a naughty girl, as she is just discovering this kind of indecent acts. Still, she was saying the right words to flip Toru's switch.
"Kya!"
Suddenly, an overwhelming force pushed Gray against the bed. She looked Toru in the eyes, he was breathing softly, quite calm for what was about to happen. Neither his eyes nor his face showed emotion, but the subtle flush on Toru's skin sent shivers down Gray's spine.
"I haven't felt like this in a long time", Toru whispered. "I'm simply going to ask you one thing. Once we start, I'm not going to stop. Even if you beg for me to stop, I won't. I'm sure you know what's going to happen. So I want to know, do I have permission to continue?"
Feeling Toru's strength, Gray's belly shuddered. Her legs were wet because that strange liquid coming out of that place was dripping down her skin. How she was wearing pajamas, that is, that old-fashioned white dress, you could see how wet she had gotten.
No shame now, just uncontrollable sexual desire. Two teenagers with raging hormones were not a combination anyone wanted to deal with.
So, feeling Toru struggle to control himself, Gray whispered.
"It's my first time... So... be gentle..."
...
...
There was no room for gentleness at this point. Completely untied, it only took Toru one hand to remove Gray's clothes. Though he simply removed her dress, Gray was wearing nothing but adorable light blue panties with rather innocent decorations. After that, nothing else covered Gray's beautiful body.
Her breasts, so subtle and youthful, were on full display. They weren't large, but they weren't small either. If there was a way to explain the size of Gray's breasts it would be that, on that smooth pale skin, two medium-sized hills rose, where the sun illuminated two pink places. Her skin was so white and clean that there was no impurity on it.
She was like the perfect maiden. Although, very ironically, Gray's appearance is the same as that of a perfect being who is full of imperfections.
"Don't look at me so much...", the girl said, covering her chest with both hands.
By covering herself in this way, she really only looked more beautiful and sensual than usual.
Toru had a rather common perception of Gray. To him, Gray is a very quiet and shy girl. She wasn't the type of woman who would do something so intimate with another person. Even the guy who created a star with the limitations of being human can be wrong from time to time.
Then...
Toru brought his lips together with Gray's once more and kissed her like he always did. He slipped his tongue into her and savored her, flooded with that guilty pleasure that exists between the two of them.
"Umh... Ahg... An... Hm..."
Gray could only let out little choked moans that teased Toru.
He slowly worked his way down as he kissed her. As a small revenge for earlier, Toru gave Gray little kisses on her neck. And the further he went down, the closer he got to that forbidden place, but before that, he encountered two small obstacles.
"Ah-?"
A whimper that was cut off at once was heard. Toru put his lips to Gray's pink nipple and gently caressed it with his tongue. He first used the tip of his tongue to stimulate the tip of Gray's nipple, while he used his left hand to massage Gray's left breast. After a few brief seconds, he changed the way he moved his tongue, now running along the edges of Gray's nipple.
Gray continued to moan subtly as she touched her lips with her knuckle, as if trying to keep her voice from coming out.
Judging by Gray's reaction, she wasn't that sensitive in this part of her body. Although she is reacting to the stimulation, it was still a little while before she felt a stronger arousal.
In and of itself Gray was already aroused enough to want to do this with Toru, but she also allowed herself to do this because it is just Toru who will do it.
Up to this point, Gray could no longer deny how she felt about Toru. Her body was quite reactive to Toru's caresses.
So, Toru kept moving down, placing little kisses on Gray's abdomen until he reached that place. It was a border of no return, a bounded field more dangerous than any other and Toru knows it. Once he touched the border, there would be no turning back and he couldn't stop.
So, he held Gray's panties by the ends and began to lower his hands.
Gray was nervous. Not one person had ever seen her naked. And Add doesn't count because he's like a pet.
She followed Toru's movements. As he removed her panties, she just lifted her legs to make the job easier. And, when she felt that she was stripped of the last article of her clothing, her breath trembled.
To be continued...