As I'm taking a nap, I feel my body shaking. I guess Mikan is trying to wake me up.
"Onii-chan, wake up. It's morning already."
"Um."
Opening my eyes, I get up from the bed and yawn. Stretching my body, I turn to look at Mikan, and I see a weird thing about her. In my eyes, I can see Mikan in the flesh, but I also witness the word
Turning to look at the room, it's also the same. On one side, I can see my room. On the other side, I see the room filled with words describing my bedroom. I don't know what I'm feeling right now, but I don't have a good feeling.
'It's like my world is a novel or dream by someone.'
When I have that thought, it's stuck in my head like a nail. I can't let go of this thought and continue to dwell on this. I wonder why I only notice it now, but I don't see any people on my way to school. I also didn't remember the process of going to school. I was just there.
Except for necessary people, I don't see anyone else. I then held my forehead as new thoughts about this situation vanished away. I then wonder if I'm going crazy since I have a lot of gaps in my memories and thoughts.
'Is this because of the buff event? I lose my memories. Or the world is in an unstabilize state. Or maybe it's because I'm forgetful.'
Still, I feel it's a bit unnatural, and I seem to go through this process before. I also have some gaps in my previous life on Earth. My childhood, elementary, secondary, and high school memories are also muddy.
'By the way, who am I in my previous life? I remember only being an edgy person, depressed, and a weeb. What is my name? Who is my family?'
I then shake my head because it doesn't matter anymore. Still, I feel like my death is confirmed the moment I continue researching more about this reality again. I check the System to see if there will be any other side effects from the buff event.
There are indeed other side effects. One, I'm not allowed to receive rewards from the Strength, Knowledge, and Health category for 56 days starting from day 140. It means I can only receive things from the Item category, which depends on your luck.
'And I wonder if my luck goes down temporarily or permanently. I wish it isn't the latter case.'
Second, I can't travel to any world till day 133. It means no delicious food, watching, reading, or listening to any entertainment from Earth. I feel a bit bad since it's the only way to spend time with my Servants.
And a few other side effects affecting my mind that I don't know. I'm not myself. I don't know how long my mind will become stable again. I also need to deal with the fact that the world is unstable.
'It's a severe debuff, but it isn't that bad. I'm used to losing memories and finding myself again anyway.'
I close my eyes and start looking back at my memories. It seems I forget about the scenery I see together with the Servants. It's now turned into a line describing me being together with them. I also forget Mikan's happy face receiving my gifts.
There aren't many events' anchors to nail down my personality. So, I guess I'm a random person with unpredictable behavior. And maybe a sociopath. Somehow, my mind starts to get heavy, and I can't seem to wake up.
I can't open my mouth to talk, to ask for help. I can still think, but it sinks into the abyss. It's heavy. I don't want to think anymore.
'Is this my end? Or I'm just sleepy?'
I then collapse on the bed with my eyes closing slowly. I can hear Mikan and my Servants calling out to me. My eyes start closing, and I can't continue thinking much.
'... Sorry.'
That's the end of the being Yuuki Rito.
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Opening my eyes, it seems I'm back in my original reality. Getting up from the bed, I pick up the book next to me. The title of the book is Yuuki Rito. I reach out my hand and slowly caress the cover.
"Look like this dream has ended. Too bad, I quite like this dream."
As I step off the bed, rows of bookshelves appear. They fill with countless other dreams. Or technically, lives that I simulated in the past. This dream is just one of them. I put the book on my lap.
'Should I continue this life or make a new one? This version has a few traits that fit me, and the Library is an easter egg that references my other lives. It has few new things that older generations don't have.'
It doesn't have many stimulations, but the personality is a bit like mine. I can throw this life away like the previous ones, but having a similar essence is quite touching.
'But it's also the thing that killed me in this life. It's a bit sad. A mortal can go this far just by having a broken mind. It's also a lucky thing that I made the connection to the Library. A new easter egg that was newly created.'
Although the world is filled with holes, awkward dialogues, stiff NPCs, and doesn't have much sense. It's a fine world to kill time in this place where only I exist. I raise my head and look at the empty white landscape surrounding me.
In this infinite space, only I exist here. I have the power to do anything. Even so, I don't create any life here in this place. I don't have any feelings toward beings that I make. So, I didn't do that for a long time.
Those dreams or lives are the reality and worlds that I temporarily created. They are bound to become nonexistent if I start to feel bored. Or, in this situation, I wake up from those lives and return to reality.
I then stare into the nothingness surrounding me. I wonder about my next move. I then look down at the book again.
'If I want to continue this dream, I should stop thinking more about reality. It's a bothersome problem to tackle.'
This personality is a bit like mine, so I can't change it. It fits my situation.
Although I can do anything, I also don't know everything. It's contradicting, but there are some core concepts the moment I appear. Like humans, Earth, entertainment, and more. I don't get it. Why are these pieces of knowledge in my head?
It means someone created me, put these pieces of knowledge in my head, and placed me in this empty place. Maybe it's for experimenting or for something else. Because having specific knowledge about something isn't very real. In infinite, having detailed knowledge about one thing is weird.
'Besides, I have male as my default gender, and my race is human. It's weirdly specific.'
The 'human' part is flexible as long as the end of evolution is humanoid. As long as you look similar to a human, it means you're a human. Why human, though?
One common thing about these pieces of knowledge is that they come from Earth. When I created a world based on this knowledge, Earth appeared 100%. Although there are some minor differences, it's a mirror for me to observe Earth.
'It also proves someone from Earth created me.'
I then have a headache thinking about reality. I click my tongue in annoyance. It's a warning that doesn't do much. It resets my thought process, so I can't continue thinking about it. I then look at the book again.
I put it next to my pillow and go to my sleep. This world is a fun testing ground. So, I will continue living in it for a bit longer.
'I hope I won't keep realizing the truth of the reality and wake up again.'
Closing my eyes, I resume the place where I left it at.
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There aren't many events' anchors to nail down my personality. So, I guess I'm a random person with unpredictable behavior. And maybe a sociopath. Somehow, I look at the space with a blank mind. I then snap out of it and tilt my head, pondering what I was thinking earlier.
'Weird.'
Anyway, I get out of bed with Mikan and stop brooding over it. After all, going with the flow is my motto. After having breakfast, I lie on the sofa asking myself: what should I do to spend time? I then turn on the TV and watch this world's anime. It's alright and not so bad.
'I guess I'm lonely without having any friends to play with me.'
I then set a goal to become friends with Yukino to kill time. It's a bit boring playing with Mikan only. I also wonder: how to spend time with my Servants since I can't travel to other worlds because of the side effects.
'Should I build a secret basement under the house? It's a man's romance to have a hidden room.'
I add this task to my to-do list for the future. Perhaps, when Mikan sleeps or has a nap, I will begin making the secret room.
'Let's try making it after having skill in architecture. But I'm afraid to hit some underground pipe and cause a mess.'
So, back at the starting line. What should I do to kill time? I then remember the Ritsu reprogramming project. Getting 1000 points per day can help me increase one skill to the max level. So, tomorrow an AI will be created and take over the world.
I feel the idea is funny. But with the max-level Programming skill and an AI, I can try causing some chaos for fun.
'That's for tomorrow's plan. I guess I will have to bear it for today.'
The day then passes like usual without any exciting events.
On day 122nd, I received a pen. I toss it away, then wait till the afternoon when Mikan is taking a nap. After seeing she is sleeping, I take out the Autonomously Intelligent Fixed Artillery, or Ritsu, and start reprogramming her. I upgraded my Programming skills to the max level.
Since I'm only reprogramming Ritsu, not changing her. The Arsenal System is kept till I have other mechanic skills. I ponder between the pink color hair and the black one. I like black hair, so I change Ritsu's hair to that color.
The personality is cold but warm inside. It's a simple change anyway. The problem now is the power source to power Ritsu. I don't believe a standard electricity outlet can power an AI like this. I remember in the anime, Ritsu isn't hooked to any wire.
'Is she powered by solar?'
I take it outside to test. I boot up Ritsu, and it works. On the screen is a picture of a girl with twin-tail black hair. She looks pretty. I will upgrade her look more after maxing out my Drawing skill.
"Hello, master. I'm Ritsu, Autonomously Intelligent Fixed Artillery, at your service."
"Hello, Ritsu. I'm sorry, but you have to sleep for a while."
I then turn off Ritsu. I'm not very satisfied just having her as a box, and I want to turn her into an android with a body. It'll be a long project, but I can copy other anime's blueprint for android. Besides, I want to have a secret base first.
'Kekeke, soon my dream of having a female android will come true.'
I spend the day like usual with happy thoughts.