The pain was hard to explain. It felt like a needle carving into my skin. It wasn't that painful though. The tattoo artist told me I have a high pain tolerance. Once we got home I was excited to take the bandage off but Derek told me to wait two days at least.
The next day, whilst washing my face, I looked in the mirror and noticed the red colour in my hair had faded, a lot. Derek seemed to notice what I noticed and suggested me to dye it blonde or black again. I thought about his suggestion, was black really the colour I wanted to dye it? No, I was happiest with red hair I'll just re dye it. So I went to the store to pick some red hair dye up but nope. They only had blue, purple or lime green. I had a look at the lime green one and decided to get it. Derek was surprised when he saw I had gotten it. "Are you sure you want green? I mean I'm sure you'll rock it but does it really fit your style?" He asked me. "Well I should at least try now so I won't have to wonder forever." I reply back starting to apply it on my hair. I then washed it out just like the instructions said then I proceeded to wait 15 minute to blow dry it. It looked awesome. It was very light green though and I knew it'd be a pain to wash my long hair everyday with it so I decided to cut a few inches off my hair. I hadn't shown Derek my hair yet so he'd be surprised it looked so good and that I had let alone cut it. I then curled my now short hair. It looked sick. I decided to apply some makeup too. I loved it, a lot. I told Derek to come into the bathroom, I had a beanie on so it'd be a surprise for him. He got in. I took the beanie off and he gasped in supirse. His eyes lit up. "You look.. amazing. I love it baby" he pulled me in for a long kiss. I smiled. I used to think Derek and me would just be a fling sort of thing. Likes we'd date for a few weeks and then break up. But here we were we've been together for two years and we're living in a apartment together. When he first asked me out I was reluctant to say no. So I decided I'd give him a go. Derek has helped me through so many things, he actually was they key to my heart. He helped me learn to be more happy with how I look and all my imperfections. He helped me learn to love. He helped me learn to live.
I felt my eyes tearing up.
I don't need to continue looking for something that might not even exist. Just because I feel incomplete doesn't mean it's the end of the world. I don't think I'll write in this diary for a while.. So I guess this is until we see again.
Yours truly,
Leną