Immediately after returning to the Cullen house, Maya and Jasper headed up to his room for a shower. Wanting nothing more than to wash off the remnants of the battle.
"God I am so glad that it's all done now" Maya confessed tiredly once the door was closed. "Uncle Caius and my siblings always talked about battles as if they were not a big deal, but that was honestly one of the worst experiences of my life."
"It's okay to not enjoy it Darlin'. The important thing is to remember that we all survived and that we're all okay." Jasper pulled her into a comforting hug then, once again thanking every higher power he could think of for keeping her alive and safe along with the rest of his family.
Maya let out a laugh at that as her arms came up to hold him to her. "Yeah well, I still never want to be in another battle ever again. But still, seeing you in action was amazing. I know you told me about your past but I don't think it was until today that I really understood just how amazing it is that you survived all those years fighting." She pulled back just enough to reach up and place a kiss on his cheek before returning to holding him close with her head resting on his chest.
He let out a self-depreciating laugh at that. "I wouldn't judge my abilities based on this battle. It was by far the hardest battle I have ever fought. Not that the enemy was particularly challenging. They were neither well trained nor well led as neither Victoria or Riley was there, but our side definitely made it a struggle."
"Because you live with a bunch of pacifists with no combat experience?" Maya teased.
He shook his head sadly, ashamed of what he was about to confess. "If only that were the problem. In the past I was never close to any of the newborns. Besides Maria and later Peter, everyone else was expendable and could be replaced. If they were killed it was aggravating as we would have to train new ones but it wasn't a big deal. However with this battle, the thought of losing even one member of my family was unbearable. I wasn't fighting with nameless soldiers; I was fighting with you and Alice and Rosalie and Emmet and Carlisle and Esme." He bent down to rest his forehead on hers, "I don't know if I would have been able to live with myself if one of you died because I wasn't good enough."
"Oh Cowboy, even if one of us had died it wouldn't have been your fault." As she felt him shake his head to deny it, she pulled back to take his face into her hands and force him to look at her. "Listen to me. You did the absolute best you could. You trained us, gave us the best advantages in the battle and watched our backs as we fought. Doing this despite how much you hated having to take on the role again. Or hated having all the memories you tried to forget brought to the surface. You did that for us. The only reason any of us are standing here now is thanks to you and I will not allow you to second guess yourself or put any of the blame on yourself. You, my Darling man, went above and beyond for this family. And I could not love you any more for facing your past as you did for us." She brought him into a kiss then, one that was slow but fierce as she poured all her feelings into it.
He kissed her back desperately, pulling her flush against him. He slowly backed them up towards the shower and began fumbling with the taps not breaking the kiss. Once the water was flowing they both began to strip, pulling their clothes off in a frenzy, only breaking away to yank their shirts off and give Maya a chance to breath.
Though Maya was honestly not sure how this had happened.
What had begun as a kiss of reassurance and love had become one filled with a desperate need to assure themselves that the other was still alive and well. It was as if the reality of the battle was just hitting them now as they both began to realize that they could have lost the other. Their hands slid over each other as they moved under the water.
Finally, after a good few minutes, they broke apart and began to wash away the dirt and ash from each other's bodies. Jasper held her close as he ran a soaped-up cloth over her body, trailing kisses over each and every bruise she had gotten. When he was done, she took the cloth from him to do the same, slowly sliding it over his body.
As Maya reached one of his forearms, she came to a sudden stop noticing a new scar. She gently pulled his arm up so that she could inspect it, trailing her fingers over it. "You didn't tell me you got hurt" she whispered, tears coming to her eyes.
"It's no big deal, Darlin'" He assured her. Which in his mind was the truth. Though he had once been ashamed of his scares, his mate's acceptance of them had washed that all away. He no longer minded them and as he had gotten this one protecting his family he truly did not care about it. One more scar was a small price to pay compared to what could have been.
"But it is," Maya insisted, tears beginning to fall, "you got this for us. God Jasper, you could have been killed!"
"Shhh, I knew what I was doing Darlin'. I was in no danger. Besides, what's one more scar, right?" His attempt to lighten the mood with a joke failed as she shot him a glare.
"It matters to me. It matters that you got hurt trying to protect us and don't try to tell me any different. You were all over that field being reckless as you tried to protect us all!"
"Maybe" he shrugged carelessly, "but that was my choice and I do not regret it one bit." To make sure she understood, he sent her what he was feeling, wanting her to fully understand his thoughts on the matter.
Maya let out a sigh as she felt his emotions wash over her, releasing her worry, frustration and sadness with it. She knew that Jasper would willingly give his all for the family and ask for nothing in return since that was just the kind of man that he was, but that didn't mean that it didn't frustrate her sometimes. She wished he would look out for himself just a little more. But oh well, she supposed that that was what she was here for.
A grin stretched across her face as an idea began to form in her head about how exactly she could begin to show her thanks. Since she still had his arm in her hand, she brought it to her lips and began to softly kiss and lick it, lavishing his new scar with attention. At his moan, she gazed up through her lashes to lock eyes with him.
"Darlin' what are you doing?"
She removed her mouth from his arm and sent him her best look of innocence, "kissing it better. Isn't that what you are supposed to do with injuries?" She moved closer to him then so that their bodies were pressed together. "Kiss it better? Run your lips all over the area that aches and hurts to make it feel better?" Her hand dropped down between them to gently stroke his cock, which was quickly hardening. "Rub it, stroke it, tenderly massage it to make it feel good?"
**Smut Warning**
He let out a growl at that and reached over to turn the water off before speeding them over to the bed, uncaring of the water soaking into the sheets. He placed her on the bed and climbed on top of her. But before he could do much she had flipped them both over so he was now on his back and she was on top.
"Not this time Cowboy. You worked so hard to protect us. The least I can do to return the favour for my brave soldier is do the work this time." She sent him a cheeky smile as she ran her hands all over him and bent down to begin kissing and licking each and every one of his scars.
Jasper's head fell back with a moan as one of his hands came up to cradle her head while she kissed her way down his other arm. Once she had finished tracing each of his scars with her mouth and tongue, she began to slowly move down his body, leaving kisses as she went. When she reached his cock, which was standing fully erect, she placed soft kisses all along it as well.
She continued to gently kiss and stroke it, eliciting growls from Jasper. His hand buried itself in her hair and the next time she went to gently run her tongue over the tip he pushed her head down onto his shaft. "Suck it Darlin'. Take my cock into your mouth and quit teasing" he growled at her causing her to giggle.
It seemed that even when she was taking charge Jasper still couldn't allow himself to be fully submissive. The sound of her giggle sent vibrations up his shaft and he groaned at the feeling, gently pushing her head further down, enjoying the sight of her mouth swallowing him.
Smiling around his shaft and loving the effect she had on him, she began to suck harder on him, hollowing her cheeks and taking him all the way to the back of her mouth. The part that didn't fit she stroked with her hand, pumping it in time with her mouth. Her other hand came up under it to gently scrap her nails over his balls, enjoying the way his hips bucked up in response and he moaned, his other hand flying up to join the other in tangling with her hair as his eyes fluttered closed.
She continued to shower his cock with attention as she relaxed her throat and took him into her mouth all the way, not stopping until she had taken him fully. He let out another strangled moan at that, eyes snapping open as his fingers pulled at her hair. "Fuck Darlin' you are so perfect. So fucking perfect."
She slowly began to bob her head up and down his shaft, taking him all the way each time as her hands moved to his thighs to support her and his hands began tugging at her hair to guide her pace. Every few bobs though she would stop to suck harder or gag on purpose making him moan each time and tug at her hair to get her to move again.
As she felt his release approaching she sucked harder, pulling back just enough to give her room to swallow as his cum filled her mouth. She swallowed as best she could, but a few drops still slipped past her lips, mixing with her saliva to run down her chin.
When he was done, Jasper lay back in the bed taking unnecessary gasps of breath, enjoying the aftermath of his climax. Maya however, did not move from her position or stop her movements as she licked him clean and continued to give her full attention to his shaft.
It was not long before she felt him begin to harden in her mouth once again and she smiled around it, grateful for a vampires' quick recovery rate. Once he was completely hard again, she lifted her mouth from him with a soft pop and moved up his body to position her entrance above his cock.
"Darlin'?" he questioned.
"What? You didn't think I was done thanking you yet, did you?" She smiled down at him and she slowly began to slide herself down onto him, a moan of her own escaping her lips as she did.
He sent her a cocky smirk at that. "Course not. Just wondering if you wanted some help with that?" His hands came up then to take hold of her hips as he pumped himself into her a few times, making them both groan at the feeling.
When he paused, she grabbed both his arms and moved them from her hips, sending him a smile as she did. "Nope. This is your reward. So you just lay back and enjoy it." With that she began to ride him in earnest, bouncing up and down on his member, twisting and clenching as she did.
He hissed at the feeling, his hands coming back up to hold onto her hips and guide her so she landed on him fully with each movement. "That's it Darlin', ride your Cowboy. Just like that" he hissed with his head thrown back.
At her giggle, he locked eyes with her for a moment, before allowing them to roam over her body and take in the sight of her riding him. He watched with rapture as his shaft disappeared into her and her thighs glistened as her arousal slid down to coat them. Her chest bounced with each movement and her wet hair, which fell loosely down her back swayed along with it. She had her head tilted back towards the ceiling with her eyes closed as she enjoyed the feeling of him inside her, moaning out in pleasure.
"Look at me" he ordered with a growl.
Her eyes snapped open at that and her head came up so she was looking down at him, green eyes meeting gold. A shudder went through her at the intensity of his stare and caused her walls to clench down hard on him. They both let out moans at this as Maya leaned further forward so her face hovered over his. Her hands came to rest on his chest, thumbs gently stroking over his scars as she used the new position to ride him harder.
One of her hands slid up to cup his face as she leaned down further so her lips could make contact with his neck. She rained kisses and bites down on it, loving the way he responded to her attentions. "I want you to cum Jasper" she whispered in his ear, "I want you cum in me, to coat my walls with your cum and fill me."
He groaned at that and one of his hands moved up to tangle in her hair and pull her closer so he could bite down on her mating mark. She cried out at that, biting him back in return, being much less careful than he was. This pushed him over the edge and with a muffled roar he came, his seed shooting inside of her and filling her up. The feeling of it sending her off into her own orgasm. She did her best to keep riding him through it, but her movements became sloppy and when their climaxes were over, she collapsed on top of his chest exhausted.
**Smut End**
"You know if this is going to be my reward for protecting the family, I may just have to start putting them in danger myself."
Maya laughed at that and moved up to place a soft kiss on the edge of his chin. "I'm afraid even you would not survive long if you did that Cowboy. Rosalie and Alice would definitely take you out."
Jasper made a sound of agreement, "how is it that our family somehow acquired some of the scariest women I have ever met?"
"You think Esme is scary?" Maya questioned, pushing off his chest to see his face and send him a disbelieving look.
"Have you ever had her look of disappointment sent your way? It's magical and could make any man bow in submission at the sight of it. Emmet and I live in constant fear of it" Jasper joked, though there was a bit of truth in it. He and Emmet sometimes got out of hand with their games and roughhousing, and each time without fail one look from Esme was all it would take for them to mumble apologies and take it outside.
"Can't say that I have. Although that may just be a trait common to all mother figures. Both of my moms have a look like that and I have certainly been on the receiving end of it enough to know the power it holds."
"Misbehaved a lot as a child, did you?"
"Hey! I was a wonderful child. It was my siblings and uncles that got me into trouble" Maya defended, though both of them knew it was utter bullshit.
"Darlin' the only people who would believe that are the ones that don't know you at all" Jasper said with a laugh. Maya gave him a shove, letting out an indignant noise as she did so. She opened her mouth to retort, only for a yawn to over take her as the events of the day finally began to catch up with her.
Jasper let out a chuckle, "go to sleep Darlin', we can argue more about how you were a little trouble maker when you wake up."
Maya moved to settled down with an eye roll, curling up against him like she usually did. "Fine, but don't think this conversation is over mister. I will not let you get away with blackening my good name" she joked tiredly.
Sleep began to overtake her the moment her eyes closed, and she fell asleep to the sound of Jasper's laugh causing her to smile in contentment.
Once Maya was asleep and Jasper had stopped laughing, he lay there contemplating what had just happened. Though he never liked to think back on his past, due to the events these past few days his time in the vampire army had all come back and he couldn't help remembering his time with Maria and comparing it to Maya.
Maria and him had had a very sexual based relationship. Instead of loving words or soft touches, they had sex. But looking back he could see how each time it had been all about her pleasure. How she would take over and use him to take what she wanted or demand it of him before allowing him to find any of his own. The only times that she sought to please him first was when she wanted him to do something for her.
He hadn't been what you would call experienced before Maria had turned him. He had spent his life helping out around the family farm and serving in the army. Both of which left him very little time to court women. As such he had simply assumed that that was what relationships between men and women were like. Where it was the man's job to please the woman and not a give and take where both parties were pleased. He wasn't going to deny enjoying it, but he had still never felt completely satisfied when Maria and him had been together. Much of that coming from the fact that he enjoyed being in control in the bedroom and she never allowed that.
With Maya he was learning that there was more to relationships than he had thought. Yes, he loved dominating her and watching as she became lost in her own pleasure. However even in that state she still sought to bring him his own pleasure. She would run her hands over him, rain kisses down on his chest, nip along his neck till she hit the mating mark she had left on him (knowing how sensitive it was) and tug at his hair making him growl in pleasure. Then there were times like today, where she would switch their roles and focus completely on bringing him pleasure.
Unlike Maria, Maya didn't do it as a way to convince him to do something but as a way to show her own love and appreciation. And he loved her all the more for it. While his instincts drove him to shower his mate with love and care, to drive her wild with desire, he had to admit it was amazing when she would do the same. To know that her instincts and love for him were driving her to bring him to the same place of happiness and contentment.
With a smile he shook away all thoughts of Maria and leaned down to place a soft kiss on Maya's head. Settling back into the bed he pulled her closer and allowed his eyes to close, determined to enjoy this time he had with her where there were no more threats to their family and no more situations to stress about.