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Chapter 9 - In the Eyes of God and No One Else

It was Selin's idea.

She told Alekos that morning, while pouring tea into mismatched mugs.

"I need to talk to your mom," she said, voice steady. "And your father."

Alekos looked up, uncertain. " You sure about that?"

"She deserves to know," Selin replied. "I'm not asking for permission. I'm just… letting them see where I stand."

He hesitated.

Then finally nodded.

Selin stood outside the Csepel home with her hands clenched tight.

She had been there a hundred times before—birthdays, holidays, lazy Sundays with tea and warm bread—but today felt different.

Today, she wasn't just a childhood friend.

Today, she came with something heavier than news.

She rang the bell.

Alekos's mother, Nilay, answered the door with flour on her hands and worry in her eyes.

"Selin?" she blinked. "Sweetheart, it's been too long. What brings you two here?"

"Can we sit?" Selin asked softly. "Please."

They moved into the living room. Nilay sat across from them, and within minutes, Mr. Csepel appeared, arms folded in the archway, expression unreadable.

Selin sat tall.

And she spoke.

"I'm sick," she began. "I have ovarian cancer. It's early, but fast-moving. I found out recently after fainting at work."

Nilay's hand flew to her mouth, her smile fading into something fragile.

"But there's still a chance," Selin said, voice steady. "A small one. My doctor said I might still be able to carry. But I don't have time to wait."

She swallowed.

"I've always wanted to be a mother," she said. "Since I was little. I used to daydream about it—having someone crawl into bed with me in the morning, someone to run into my arms when they're hurt, someone to call me mama with a smile on their face."

Nilay's eyes welled.

"I can't do this alone," Selin continued. "And I can't bring a stranger into something so sacred. I don't want anonymous paperwork or a faceless donor. I want someone I know. Someone I trust."

She turned her head toward Alekos, then back to Nilay.

"I asked your son," she said. "Not because he owes me anything. But because I trust him with my entire life. I always have. Even when I didn't understand why."

"I asked him to marry me," Selin continued. "Not for love—not the way you'd think. But for faith. For choice. For doing something that feels right in the eyes of God."

Then—

Selin took a breath.

And then she told her everything.

From the hospital collapse… to the diagnosis.

From infertility.

To the possibility.

To the hope.

To the marriage.

Nilay didn't speak for a long time.

Her face, normally serene, twisted—shocked, pained, then slowly softening as the truth settled.

"I never imagined," she said finally, "that you would be the one hurting like this."

Selin gave a small, sad smile. "Neither did I."

Nilay's eyes glistened. "But you're still fighting. Still choosing faith over fear."

"I'm trying."

Then Nilay reached over and took Selin's hand.

"And you're choosing my son," she said. "Not just as a friend. Not just for a child. You're choosing him as a partner before God."

Selin's voice trembled. "I trust him more than anyone else in this world."

Nilay squeezed her hand. "Then you have my blessing. In every way."

Selin let out a shaky breath of relief, tears pricking at the corners of her eyes.

Just then, footsteps echoed in the hallway.

Mr. Csepel stood in the doorway, stiff, arms crossed.

He had heard everything.

Selin turned to him, instinctively sitting straighter.

He didn't speak at first.

Just looked at her.

Then, with a tight nod, he said, "If you're going to do this… do it right. In the eyes of God."

Selin nodded slowly. "We will."

He left the room without another word.

Nilay sighed, brushing Selin's hair from her face. "Don't mind him. He's proud, stubborn, and scared. But deep down… he knows what this means."

Selin leaned into her touch.

It didn't feel like permission.

It felt like coming home.

And Alekos?

He didn't say a word.

He just sat there, staring at her. Not coldly. Not distantly.

But like he was trying to memorize her.

Like he was seeing something he never quite understood until now.

And maybe… didn't know how to respond.

Nilay didn't waste a second.

The very next morning, she was up before the sun, humming through the house with a notepad in one hand and a hundred ideas in her head.

"Alekos! Selin! We have things to do," she called out, already scribbling a list: flowers, gold bangles, the good veil she kept stored in satin for years "just in case."

"It's not a love story, Mama," Alekos mumbled, half-asleep in the kitchen.

Nilay turned, eyes glinting. "You think that matters to me? You think I care whether it's a fairy tale or not? She's family. And we celebrate family—whether it's born or chosen."

Selin blinked, a little overwhelmed by the sudden swirl of lace samples and henna invites.

Nilay beamed at her, placing a hand over her heart. "Let me have this. I've been waiting to shop for you since you were fourteen and made Alekos eat your burnt cookies like they were gold."

Selin laughed, a little breathless. "They were charcoal."

"And he said they were divine."

Selin smiled, the corners of her mouth trembling. "Thank you," she whispered.

Nilay squeezed her hand. "I don't need this to be a love story. I just need you to live."

Within an hour, they were in the car — Nilay driving like a woman on a mission, weaving through traffic while dictating a mental checklist. She stopped at every store she could think of: antique shops, old-school boutiques, even a secondhand bridal store "just to browse."

The first stop was a quiet boutique owned by an old friend of hers. The owner, a small woman with clever eyes and hands like silk, welcomed them in with warm tea and marzipan.

Nilay held up a soft ivory shawl stitched with miniature pearls. "This," she said with a gasp, "is what grace looks like."

Selin touched it gently. "It's beautiful."

"You'll look like a whisper of moonlight."

"Is that a compliment or a poem?"

"Both."

At the next shop, they scoured jewelry cases. Nilay pointed out rings and earrings, some with stones as pale as sea glass, others thick with history.

Selin tried on a delicate pair of gold drop earrings.

Nilay's eyes softened. "You look like a bride."

Selin flinched slightly—but didn't take them off.

Not this time.

By midday, they were knee-deep in fabrics, satins and silks draped over arms and chairs. They stopped for falafel and pistachio drinks in a courtyard café, laughing like women who'd known each other in another life.

"I still can't believe you're letting me dress you," Nilay teased, biting into her sandwich. "You used to hate dresses."

"I still do," Selin said dryly, sipping through her straw. "But I trust you more than my own closet."

At a spice shop on the corner, Selin paused and bought a pouch of dried orange blossom petals.

"For what?" Nilay asked.

"For my bath the night before," Selin replied. "I used to do that before big exams. It helped me breathe."

Nilay didn't say anything at first.

Then she leaned in and touched Selin's cheek. "You're still fighting."

"I am."

"And you're not alone."

Selin sat at the dining table, her eyes tracing the steam curling from the untouched mug in front of her. The house felt still. Alekos was out on a supply run. Nilay had stepped into the garden.

She thought she was alone.

But then—soft footsteps.

She looked up.

Dr. Altan Csepel stood at the threshold of the room, his presence quiet but grounding. He wasn't in his usual hospital coat or crisp work clothes. Just a pale button-down, sleeves rolled. No authority. Just a man. A father.

Selin straightened slightly. "Dr. Csepel—"

"Altan," he corrected gently.

She nodded once. "Altan."

He walked over to the table, placing one hand on the chair across from her. He didn't sit. Just stood there for a moment, watching her—not with scrutiny, but with the stillness of someone holding something heavy and unsure how to pass it over.

"I heard you've been feeling worse," he said quietly.

"A little," she admitted. "But I'm managing."

He nodded slowly, eyes scanning her face like he was making a silent inventory of what the past week had stolen.

"I know everything," he said. "About the diagnosis. About the marriage. About… your hope."

Selin didn't look away. She didn't need to.

Altan inhaled deeply through his nose, like he had rehearsed this moment in his head a dozen times and still didn't know how to begin.

"I'm not always the warmest man," he said. "I've made mistakes. With Alekos. With his childhood. I can't take those things back. But I can do better now. For him. For you."

Selin's throat tightened.

He looked at her then—really looked.

"I want you to know," he said, his voice steady but low, "we will do everything we can. Not just medically. Not just procedurally. But as a family. You are not alone in this."

She blinked quickly, tears stinging her eyes. "Thank you," she said, her voice barely above a whisper.

He gave a small, almost awkward nod. "You've always been a fighter. I've known that since the first time I watched you challenge Alekos to a chess match and refused to lose."

A ghost of a smile crossed her face. "He still cheats."

"I know," Altan said dryly. "He learned it from me."

They shared a brief, quiet laugh.

Then his expression softened just a fraction more.

"You're family, Selin. Whatever this next chapter holds… you won't face it without us."

And with that, he gave her shoulder a gentle, awkward squeeze—then stepped away, leaving her alone again in the quiet, but this time… not quite as alone.

Dinner was simple—roast chicken, olives in lemon brine, thick bread still warm from the oven. But what mattered wasn't what they ate.

It was how they ate.

As one.

Selin sat beside Alekos, laughing at Nilay's commentary on wedding veil trends and the disastrous cake from a cousin's elopement. Even Altan, usually a man of stern silences, cracked the occasional smile. It wasn't grand. It wasn't forced.

It was… peaceful.

For a fleeting hour, Selin forgot the hospital. Forgot the ache. The infertility. The bruised days. It felt like she belonged to something again.

Like family.

When it was time to go, Alekos stood, brushing crumbs from his jeans. "Come on," he said, tilting his head toward the door. "I'll take you home."

Selin grabbed her shawl from the back of the chair.

Nilay hugged her at the door, warm and tight, whispering something in her ear that made Selin smile through her teary eyes. Altan gave his usual nod—but this time, it wasn't clinical. It was softer. A flicker of something close to approval.

And then they were gone.

Out the front door. Onto Alekos's motorbike.

The engine roared once, then softened into a gentle hum as they pulled off into the dusk, two silhouettes disappearing down the winding road.

Nilay stood on the front steps, arms crossed over her apron, her eyes glinting beneath the porch light.

Altan stepped beside her.

She didn't say anything at first.

Just smiled.

"You remember the first time she came here?" she asked.

Altan sighed. "Of course I do. She was nine."

"She told Alekos off for tracking mud into the house," Nilay added fondly. "And when I brought out tea, she rearranged the sugar bowls."

"She acted like it was her home," he murmured.

Nilay grinned. "It always was."

Altan gave a quiet chuckle under his breath, then reached into his wallet.

With quiet dignity, he pulled out two crisp $100 bills and held them out.

She blinked at the sight. "You remember?"

"You said it then—she was going to steal Alekos's heart one day."

"And you said he was too closed off to let anyone in," she teased, taking the money with flair.

"I was wrong."

She folded the bills and tucked them into her apron pocket with a victorious hum.

"They're not there yet," he added.

"They will be," Nilay said softly. "They're halfway home."

They stood in silence for a moment, watching the disappearing trail of taillights in the distance. Then Nilay reached out and slipped her hand into his.

And under the silver haze of streetlights and slow-setting sun, the older Csepels stood side by side—watching two hearts ride away, still figuring out what they already were.

The villa was quiet when they returned.

The scent of jasmine drifted through the open windows, and the air was thick with the kind of calm that only came after emotional storms. No more hospital corridors. No more questions. Just the two of them and the echo of something that used to be simple.

Selin kicked off her shoes by the door and wandered into the backyard.

The old basketball hoop was still there—tilted, slightly rusted, but standing. Like it was waiting.

She smiled.

"You still up for a game?" she asked, tilting her head toward Alekos, who was just setting down his helmet.

He raised a brow. "You serious?"

"Scared you'll lose?"

That was all it took.

Moments later, they were on the cracked stone court behind the villa—her in a sundress and barefoot, him in jeans, tossing a dusty ball back and forth like they were fifteen again.

They played with no rules. Just memory.

She missed every shot. He missed half—on purpose, though he'd never admit it.

Selin laughed harder than she had in weeks, the kind of laugh that bubbled up from somewhere deep, untouchable by grief. She ran across the court, nearly tripping on her own feet, and Alekos caught her just before she fell.

His hands steadied her by the waist. Her fingers instinctively gripped his arms.

For a second, neither of them moved.

The world hushed.

The air between them thinned.

Selin looked up. Alekos looked down.

And for a heartbeat, it felt like time bent in their direction.

But then she cleared her throat. "Okay. I think you won."

He stepped back, nodding, almost too quickly. "Yeah. You always say that."

They both laughed—tired and a little breathless—and walked back inside.

No words were spoken about that moment.

No need.

They each retreated to their rooms. Selin closed the door behind her and leaned against it, hand resting over her chest where her heart still fluttered.

Alekos sat on the edge of his bed, staring at the palms of his hands like they held a secret he hadn't figured out yet.

Tomorrow was the ceremony.

But tonight, in the quiet of shared history, they waited. Apart, but not alone

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