"Humans feel attracted to beauty, to ignorance, to misunderstandings they feel they have reached or achieved success or goals they try not to see the truth , they try to deceive themselves, yet they dream" julian thought while looking at Lily.
"A painting depicting haunting ah" Julian said suddenly, his voice gaining a rare confidence. "Haunting doesn't mean something or somewhat chasing you but you feel your painting should show that like Paint the moment the streetlights flicker on in the fog, when you can't tell if the person walking toward you is a friend or a ghost whether he would talk or attack."
Lily froze, her eyes widening. She pulled a small, messy notebook from her jacket. "The flicker of the streetlights... the transition of light." She scribbled something down and then looked at him with a predatory sort of curiosity. "I'm Lily vane and since you've just tried to help me, thanks ".
Julian slowly saw the clock on the wall and told her ''I have a lab in 20 minutes so I have to go ,so until next time" he told Lily and he took the book Fine Arts History & theory and scanned near the librarian as he took his leave.
Lily watches as a second they were having a conversation and then he suddenly left. She was intrigued but was not familiar with him so she simply took the books which she came to submit.
As she sat on the chair she couldn't help but think about painting. As a child Lily was different while children her age used to play with dolls. She liked drawing because it brought her happiness but after that incident that happiness became a curse.
she shakes her head trying to forget those things ,This was the third time to hear a different view of haunting as when a normal person hears these words they think of someone chasing you to harm you but to hear someone say to talk she couldn't help laughing but as an idea to paint it was good.
"Ok time on important matters i have to complete my assignments " lily mutters as she focuses on writing her assignments.
But sees out of the window as clouds approach "it is going to rain. I luckily bought an umbrella" she mutters.
Julian slowly descends from the steps and looks onto the hustle and bustle of the students who were discussing the work or doing assignments, combining studies, teaching and other activities he feels bleak like while the world was surrounded in a beautiful color he can imagine he was like a black and white photo or a bleak color.
"Julian get this together in this world there is only two colors black and other colors while other colors are beautiful ,colorful but in life it was never about a single color it was a chaotic mix of many but eventually when all colors mix they will produce only black" Julian thought as he slowly crossed the crowd of people.
He could remember from when he was like this leaving yet not , breathing yet not but it was during childhood when he lost his sister .
He could still remember how happy they were even if they had nothing they could laugh how even without toys he used to create a simple boat and play ,how he used to share part of his cookies with her, they could just imagine eating those pastries on the shop and how he promised he would buy her when he grew up yet fate was cruel or is it.
Julian could still vividly remember that day when he was 12 and she was 10 after eating the pancakes which was made by his mother he used to steal some toffees from his father's shop as he brought her to play when the sky was still covered in fog but it was cut short as fell suddenly while she laughing and playing.
Julian slowly shakes his head to not remember these things and saw that the people who used to walk with him are always with two or three in pairs as he was the only one he couldn't help chuckle .
From childhood he has grown weak of always keeping expectations. He could still remember about that mp3, that watch , his cycle ,his sister, his life but every single time he is met with disappointment so it's better to not start something than to expect something from others.
He could remember from then on he used to put on a mask while he talked to others , he smiled every time but not once was it sincere , he truly likes to smile but that was also taken away from him so he could remember from then on he lived only to help than live.
He couldn't be called a loner as he had a normal basic social relationship but everytime he used to draw a line with everyone he met.
"But why did i even talk to her i am the type of person to stay out of trouble but why did i even want to help her and my heart why did it beat so fast and what did i even think at that moment" julian thought of that beautiful sweet girl
He thought about lily vane , it would be a miracle if he hadn't heard of vane, one of the richest families in Seattle with a deep legacy and ancestral heritage in business, automobile, finance, hospital and Entertainment .
He heard of a rumor about vane's youngest daughter getting into university .Julian watched the way the streetlights—already flickering to life in the premature darkness—reflected in his eyes.
The hazel was gone, replaced by a deep, stormy green that caught every fractured bit of light. At that moment, he didn't see gloomy clouds but he saw stormy rain.
"A relationship can never remain between two unequal people. It always requires equal rights to just stand before even it can hold a fight" Julian whispered about only for him to hear about the words he heard from his father more than once so it was better to end than to stop.
He knew he liked her the first time he saw her.
He slowly stops and raises his hands as rain drops fall on his hands but as previous to his thoughts he let the rain wash away those thoughts he could feel everyone running towards shelter to stay away from the rain .
He slowly continues forward with a blank expression on his face as the previous crowd was not to be seen as some spell has been cast as he moves forward the rain gains momentum deeply drenched him but he did not run away like others because he likes rain as his sister and him were used to playing in this very rain yet both are there but the very other person is not not known when but his eyes slowly opened as he saw rain was beautiful.
He used to tell his sister that if a person dies they become a star and can sense the person in land and if he is unhappy the stars used to cry that it will rain. That's what he said when his sister cat died that day .
So "Are you watching me now sis? I am still smiling like I always do. It's just some things which made me remember you and I got sentimental but clara brother always loves you. "Julian slowly spoke those words as rain water continuously splashed on him as stood under the rain .
As he was slowly closed his eyes and felt the downpour of rain falling on him he heard someone speak
"Why are you drowning in the rain " as an umbrella covered him he slowly opened his eyes and saw a black colour umbrella covering him and jasmine scent wafted through his nose