Things that important or not

In my experience I endured things like have a crush on someone.... but he has lots of friends handsome his grade are good or even better than mine (some of the subject) but due i was like the one who always get an A i was trying to not like him because it will make my grades go down but in the end I read all the books in the Friday Saturday and Sunday even in the break if the class he go to play football with his friends I.. like go on my own watch him play but when he looked up I just pretended that I was looking at his friends that was when I was in grade 5 I think I got lucky that I got to sit next to him I feel like when all the students all copying the letters that the teacher is showing on the board i and him got the same time...he and I looking up to the board and looking down to the paper at the same time,but I was embarrassed so I like pretended to check the writing and....in the end time passes by. Oh I forgot one thing at first I accidentally look at him for too long(because he is too handsome)and he ask like why are you staring at my face I was too embarrassed so I didn't say a single word then I turn my head to the back of the class at my teacher then talk to his friend at the back of him (in the room there are 30 students the seat are all 4 pergroup 5 lines left and right i was at the right... my left is him and my right is my best friend we been friends more than 6 years and at the right of my friend is a boy that is kinda good looking...