...
Thinking of this, Bibi Dong shook her head helplessly, then turned her gaze back to the precious Eight Spider Spears.
Her fingertips gently caressed the cold and sharp bone spikes, a complex emotion flashing in her eyes.
"but..."
Bibi Dong raised her head, her beautiful eyes filled with a hint of inquiry and doubt, looking at Xuan Hao with a half-smile:
"With so many beautiful women around you, you could easily give any one of them to someone and have them completely devoted to you.
How could you bear to come all this way back to give me this thing?"
"What's so strange about that?"
Xuan Hao shrugged and said matter-of-factly:
"From childhood to adulthood, whenever I get something good, haven't I always thought of you, teacher, first?"
"If it's something you need, I'll definitely show it to you first."
"..."
Bibi Dong was slightly taken aback and was speechless.
yes.
Thinking back carefully, although this brat had caused her a lot of trouble since she was a child, he had even committed a terrible crime back then, accidentally destroying her two sets of 100,000-year soul rings and soul bones.
However, over the years, whether it was the top-grade immortal herbs plundered from the Yin-Yang Well of Ice and Fire, or this external soul bone that is enough to drive countless powerful people crazy.
That brat, he always rushes back immediately, presenting her with the best things first.
Thinking of this, Bibi Dong lowered her eyes slightly, concealing the emotion in them, but her tone involuntarily softened:
"You..."
"You're not a child anymore, you can't always act like a child who never grows up."
Bibi Dong sighed and earnestly advised, "In the future, when you get something good, you should think more about your girlfriends.
If you continue to give me the best, those proud and arrogant girls will definitely throw a tantrum."
"Making a scene?"
Xuan Hao looked puzzled: "What's wrong with me showing respect to my teacher and giving nice things to my sister who loves me the most?"
"If they can't even accept this much and still throw tantrums at me, then it's better to break up as soon as possible!"
"We'll see."
"If you want to enter my household, you must first acknowledge your status as the first wife!
If you don't even respect the Empress, how can you expect to live in the family in the future?"
"Cough cough... What nonsense are you spouting!"
Upon hearing this, Bibi Dong's fair face flushed red and then turned pale.
"First wife," "Empress"... what kind of indecent words are these!
But in truth, Bibi Dong knew very well that her current panic was not entirely due to anger.
More than anything, it stems from a deep-seated... worry and a desire to escape.
When they were little, Xuanhao would say such things while nestled in her arms, and she would just laugh it off, thinking it was just innocent childish talk.
But as Xuan Hao grew up over the years, he transformed from a cute little boy into a handsome young man with a tall and straight posture and a sharp and domineering look in his eyes...
Bibi Dong felt increasingly uneasy.
Back then, she saw this wandering orphan on the edge of the Star Dou Great Forest, recognized his talent, and coaxed and tricked him into returning to the Spirit Hall.
She was always extremely indulgent towards Xuan Hao, even making an exception and allowing him to call her "sister" instead of "teacher" in private.
This special indulgence allowed Bibi Dong to gradually discover a problem hidden deep within Xuan Hao's personality.
The reason why Xuan Hao liked to get close to her, act coquettishly and shamelessly towards her, and even take advantage of her in a disrespectful manner... was not because he was a pervert by nature.
Rather, it's because, deep down, he was a child who desperately craved love.
Although he usually appears carefree and acts domineeringly and arrogantly in public, as if he fears nothing, Bibi Dong knows him too well.
She knows very well that it is just a disguise for self-protection.
Xuanhao's heart is extremely sensitive, and at many times, he is as fragile as a piece of glass.
He is an extremely insecure person.
She had long noticed that Xuan Hao had an extremely strange and deep dependence on her.
That kind of feeling...
It's a bit like... an Oedipus complex.
Bibi Dong didn't know how to define it, let alone how to make it clear.
Because she knew that Xuan Hao would never admit it.
This guy is incredibly proud; he would never admit to anyone the weak and pathological parts of his personality.
Previously, Bibi Dong was overwhelmed by the heavy workload of government affairs and the Rakshasa God's test every day, so she deliberately chose to escape.
She always comforted herself by thinking: things will be better when he grows up.
After all, Xuan Hao is surrounded by so many outstanding and beautiful girls.
In a few more years, when this little rascal has tasted the true flavor of love, he might be spoiled by those girls and forget about his much older "teacher," transferring that distorted dependence to normal romantic relationships.
but.
Right now.
When Bibi Dong looked directly into Xuan Hao's sky-blue eyes again, she suddenly realized...
I was terribly wrong.
That brat hasn't changed at all!
His special feelings for her did not fade with the passage of time or the increase of other women around him; on the contrary, they grew stronger and more intense with age, like fine wine.
Xuanhao himself had come to regard this favoritism, which went beyond the boundaries of master-disciple and even kinship, as a natural instinct.
He himself didn't realize that his feelings for her had long since "crossed the line."
But...
Looking at the young man in front of him, whose eyes were full of him and who had even traveled through the night to deliver a bone to him.
Bibi Dong felt as if a bottle of mixed emotions had been spilled, a bittersweet mix of feelings.
How should she tell him?
Should we break through this barrier and tell him that this kind of feeling is abnormal?
Tell him that she is just his teacher and can never become the "first wife" he talks about?
Bibi Dong's hand holding the wine glass tightened slightly, and her fingertips turned white.
For the first time, she felt that facing the feelings of this young man in front of her was even more powerless and bewildering than facing the profound and obscure Rakshasa God test.
No, that's not right.
Looking into the boy's clear yet seemingly nonchalant eyes, Bibi Dong immediately rejected the cruel idea in her heart.
She knew Xuan Hao too well.
If she were to truly tear down this facade, using the most rational and cold words to define their relationship, to point out that his feelings were abnormal…
Given Xuan Hao's prideful nature, he would never cry or make a scene, nor would he hysterically argue back.
He would instantly suppress all his surprise and disappointment, then put on a carefree and nonchalant act, laughing it off and saying, "Oh, teacher, what are you thinking?
I was just joking to lighten the mood, why did you take it so seriously?"
He can make his disguise flawless, and laugh it off like a real womanizer.
But Bibi Dong knew that the moment he turned away, he would be more heartbroken than anyone else.
His already fragile and insecure heart would shatter into nothingness in an instant.
She knows.
Xuan Hao didn't have that much innate strength or domineering nature.
However, he saw through the cruel laws of Douluo Continent earlier than his peers—in this world where the strong prey on the weak, if you are not strong, you will be suppressed by others; if you do not act domineering and fierce, others will treat you as a weak and vulnerable sheep and trample on you at will.
If you don't want to be bullied, and you don't want to lose the warmth you've finally found, the only way is to make yourself look strong enough to instill fear in everyone.
This is why Xuan Hao has liked to cause trouble since he was a child, and why he behaved like a tyrannical bandit and a lawless bully in Wuhun Academy and Tiandou City.
Others only saw his arrogance, but Bibi Dong could see that everything Xuan Hao did was a desperate attempt to cover up his inner emptiness and unease.
He did not "enjoy" those arrogant acts.
On the contrary, when he did those things, he was completely acting, as if he were mechanically completing a task called "pretending to be a strongman".
He felt that it was "right," a necessary means for him to survive and protect those around him.
But in reality, he had absolutely no interest in those scenes of competitiveness and bullying.
He didn't like bullying people at all. In fact, in Bibi Dong's eyes, his heart, which was wrapped in layers of ice, was too kind, or even... weak.
Xuan Hao himself was clearly aware of this problem.
In this cruel world of Soul Masters, kindness and weakness are original sins, fatal flaws.
Therefore, he did his best to cover up his truest self with layers upon layers of arrogance, hostility, and indifference.
She is the successor of the Rakshasa God.
The Rakshasa Goddess governs the deepest evil thoughts, resentments, and darkest desires in the world.
As the inheritor of this power, she possesses an extremely keen perception of the wickedness in people's hearts.
However, when she tried to sense Xuan Hao's desires, she discovered that this brat who always said "kill him" and "chop him up" didn't actually have much real malice or malice in his heart.
He was as pure as a blank sheet of paper stained only with self-protective colors.
Even on many occasions, when Xuan Hao displayed extreme anger and overwhelming killing intent, Bibi Dong could clearly perceive an extremely contradictory emotion through the Rakshasa God's divine sense...
His intensely burning anger was often not directed at the outside world, nor at any specific enemy.
He was angry with himself.
He was angry at the weakness hidden deep in his heart, and angry at the fear of losing it even though he tried his best.
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