For once, I can let loose and have fun around SweetLover728. I called him 'psychosis boy' and he couldn't stop laughing after I called him that. I was told that I was a funny guy after all by people in the Aurora hospital that I stayed at.
[ Anger towards Lizmarie has been triggered ]
Did it ever cross your mind to just give us a chance, Lizmarie? We're not lucky like you are, you only have ADHD, we have autism. Yeah we're both mentally disabled but people tend to hate autism more than ADHD because ADHD is widely accepted everywhere. Maybe we really should say your full government name. We already have anyways as our anger to you.
We love you so much but we have so much resentment towards you. The fact that you keep on losing friends and even your ex boyfriend ghosted you means that you still show the same flaws and problems as before. I know you don't change your ways Liz but why the FUCK did you have to make me feel like my love for you was one sided? Why, why did you not appreciate the things I did for you?
Why did you PUSH ME AWAY WHEN YOU GAVE ME EVERYTHING ONCE BEFORE?! THAT'S WHAT I'M ANGRY ABOUT LIZMARIE! YOU PUSH ME AWAY WHEN ALL I WANTED WAS TO GET CLOSER TO YOU. THAT'S WHY I HAD TO TELL YOU THAT YOU MAKE EVERYTHING WORST BEFORE YOU BLOCKED ME. ALL YOU DO IS GET CLOSE TO PEOPLE THEN PUSH THEM AWAY? DO YOU REALIZE HOW PAINFUL THIS IS? WHAT IF YOU WANTED TO GET CLOSER TO SOMEONE AND THEN THEY PUSH YOU AWAY! WOULD YOU HAVE LIKED THAT?!
Why the fuck!!! Did you abandon me Lizmarie?! Why the fuck did you ghost me when silence causes me to have huge anxiety over you! You avoid less anxiety while I couldn't distract myself properly back then! Do you know how agonizing that was for me Lizmarie?! Why does the one person who I was willing to be a fucking dog for and have you step all over me do this to me?! Tell me why Lizmarie! Work on yourself because you sure as hell are losing so many people here!
Learn to fucking communicate for god's sake Lizmarie! Do you have autism or some social issue disorder???? Because that sure as hell would explain why you act the way you do. I'm sick of your fearful avoidant ass. I try to pull you closer to me but you push me away and that shit hurts! Why are you predicting others' needs wrong?! Not everyone is going to be the same as you!
I tried so FUCKING hard to be gentle with you yet you took it for granted. Show me actual action and proof that you have changed for the better and I would consider forgiving you. I think you need an Intensive Outpatient Program or something Lizmarie. Why the hell do I mean NOTHING TO YOU?! I TRIED EVERYTHING TO SEDUCE YOU BUT IT WASN'T ENOUGH. ACTING LIKE YOUR BUTLER WASN'T ENOUGH TO RECEIVE YOUR VALIDATION! TELL ME WHY GOD DAMN IT! You ghosting me is the rudest thing ever. I can not believe I allowed you to step all over me.
Do you want my forgiveness? If so, then learn to tolerate death and become a regressor. You act just like Yuki from Fruits Basket, meanwhile I act like Kyo from Fruits Basket. We could have been Tohru Honda and Yuki as a couple. My self-sacrificial actions weren't enough to please you. So I went insane after losing you as a friend. I don't understand how life is overwhelming for you, you probably have autism spectrum disorder which would explain why life feels so overwhelming for you. I no longer want you romantically, I'm done. You have a much higher need to be alone than I do.
I am incredibly disappointed in you for causing me to have the fear of abandonment.
[ The Demon King of Liberation can not write out Lizmarie's death. He ends up saving her but enough to watch her fight for her life in an agonizing way. ]
It was out of love but resentment that the Demon King of Liberation saves Lizmarie yet watches her and stays silent. Just like Ni Tian becomes the incarnation of the Moonlight Empress. The Demon King of Liberation wants Lizmarie to become his incarnation.
Lizmarie was the most sensitive person that the Demon King of Liberation has ever met. Yet he found her to be really comforting, empathetic, and compassionate. Lizmarie was the type of person who was very sensitive to the point where she cries easily and couldn't handle tragic stories. The Demon King of Liberation loved how sensitive, comforting, and compassionate Lizmarie was. She was truly special out of 8.2 billion people.
My type is someone who cries easily, sensitive, compassionate, and empathetic declares The Demon King of Liberation. Lizmarie was his perfect partner, if only she had returned his feelings. They could have been happy together. Though they would have to have a long distance relationship which made both the Demon King of Liberation and Lizmarie sad.
Dante once said 'that is not the same'. Does she have no brains? I said to compare it to telling me to move on as if she was dead. Dante was unaware of how much pain that I was in.
When you lose everything, the people you once thought you didn't like would become the people you like. The greatest example of this would be the fact that I used to not like smokers but now I started smoking and to get a craving for it. I became a smoker because I was depressed and it was for the effects. I know it's bad for me and will cause me lung cancer but I wanted to quicken my death.
Reddit got right about one thing, smoking is addictive. However I had Borderline Personality Disorder and I was someone trying to kill myself faster. I didn't care about dying but living sure felt nice for once finally. I still wanted to smoke because it was addictive.
ORV Sequel Fragment:
[ It was a story that was not found in 'Ways of Survival' or 'Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint' and could only be created by those who read it. ]
Not even writers could create such a story and it was the readers who created their own story. This was the story of 'Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint: Sequel'. As a writer myself, I could have never created this story either.
I wasn't an author that reread my own works. I would usually scroll past it and give it to the editors. I wish I had an editor to help me with my writing.
The Demon King of Liberation feared losing Lizmarie. That fear has already occurred. He wished that he could see her once more.
[ Flirtation with Lizmarie from the Demon King of Liberation has been triggered ]
He flies over to her, pulls her closer to him and whispers in her ear "I'm absolutely in love with you, mi amor". Pulling back to a certain distance, he can see Lizmarie blushing. Surprised by how no one has ever flirted with her before, he wants to continue but he would need to see Lizmarie in person before doing so.
Remember my love, I have always been courting you ever since we reunited once more. I don't willingly act like a servant to anyone else aside from you.
Nothing was going my way so I started smoking. At least I can have my nicotine. I don't care if I get lung cancer or not because nothing was going my way anyways. I started regressing again.
In this round I will die by Lizmarie's rejection. It was like a soft gentle blow where she sliced my eye. Thanks to that pain, I regressed.