It was my last hug from her ,
That day when visited my aunt house with my siblings and her , i always admired her ,
She was a beautiful and talented person ,
I was a 9 ... I was happy with her she had stayed there for 4 days then , she told me to live the rest of your holidays with your aunt and siblings i will come back soon after 2 weeks . I felt lonely because I was just a kid
and an introvert ..
Which made it more difficult for me ..
I missed her and missed her
And I was too small to understand the situation which was going on that time 😞
After 2weeks I was eager to go home
Cause I was homesick but then something happens in my life which change the whole situation . My sister's mother arrived there and took us home and then everyone was silent like something happens ..
I was trying to find her but she was not there. In the evening my father came to me and said she was gone .. at the very first time I was shocked like no not again because it was not only first time she left us many times but this time she never came back ..
I start crying, I was trying to handle myself
I was very small and very much innocent to face the world i cried for many days I hate to go to school after that I miss my school everyday and cried and cried ..
I was lonely and helpless no one was there for me to understand me in a kind way ..
Then someone ' very important ' came ..
He never judge me , he never blame me ,
He never scream, shout or hurt me
He always try to do good things for me and do everything whatever makes me happy ..
I was alone and weak but he taught me to face it and move on . Few months later everything became normal and then a virus 🦠 which was a huge disaster for whole world arrived . Lockdown starts school was closed jobs , business, markets, it was a
Death silence for every one after that ends
Every thing started to became normalized .
And after that my 2hope also left me
He became sick no one told us what was going on that time after few months ..
He was not improving, he has lost his strength, he has become totally weak
and a day before Holi he left us ..
I saw him .. he was crying and said us i don't want to go I want to live my life and then he had gone ...
I've losted two trusted person of my life
After all of this I never stopped anything I moved on .
After 1 year , she called my father she talked to him they both talked nicely ..
I felt happy about that but soon the happiness hone ..
Suddenly she stopped to call him
And I was curious to know that I try to called her but she was not available. I was feeling strange about the whole things that had happened in my life ..
Still I never stopped I moved on never ask for past and never stuck with my past ..
My study was improved , my marks was great ,i was good in studies ..
and then one day a' call ' from her
My father convinced me to talked to her and when she said hello I start crying...
She tried to motivate me and convince me ..
She told me to be a good girl and always take care her words melt my heart I asked her many times to told me where are you ..
But she never told me where she was ..
She said me' i am weak , I can't come home and I am sick I can't tell you about my situation but always take care of your self '.
And I love you so much 💗
I talked her and I felt happy but also unhappy at that time , I was not sure about the situation but it was just like a dream for me ..
Few years later everything becomes normal
I avoid my past my my present everyone knows that she left and they never asked me about that .. but my classmates always
try to know about me and her ..
They ask me twice a weak about her, they tease me and talk bad about me ..
I avoid there words .. days passed and memories also which hides a lot of pain in me ..
I found her Instagram account and stalk her
She was also not available there so my hopes left .. and I completely agree with my past and whenever I remember her last promise I think and ask my self ..
Is she really left me and gone ,
Or she is still alive and hiding from someone ..
A promise and person both break me a lot
I was hoping for a perfect family but I never get a complete family ..
I missed both of them because they were the best memorable part of my life which gaves me a lot of good Moments of my life .
Now I realised why she told me 'i was sick and I can't come home back ' because she was dying and wants to talk to us for a last time .. I wish and pray for her ..
I miss my MOTHER