Translator - Zofu
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If I want it, I get it. If I don't need it, I break it.
Ever since I was little, my parents indulged my every whim.
If I said I needed something, they got it for me. If I said it was useless, they got rid of it.
Even if it was a person made of flesh and blood. With a single word from me, everyone would bow their heads to the ground and tremble.
It was fun.
Even as a childish little kid, the fact that I could control people was enough to excite me. After realizing this was fun, my goal changed.
From objects, to people.
With a single word, a single gesture from little me, everyone reacted dramatically. All I did was say I liked or disliked something, and foolishly, their faces would alternate between joy and sorrow. Then, for no particular reason, I'd have them killed.
I never questioned it. It was only natural that everyone in the world would kneel before me.
"I don't want to."
But there was an exception.
When I entered elementary school, having just turned seven. I saw it for the first time. Someone who refused my demands to my face. Even kids my age, in my class, in my school recognized me and bowed their heads. This person was different.
"H-huh? What did you say?"
"I said I don't want to."
"Why?"
Are you out of your mind?
No matter how young you are, you can't not know someone of my position. If you say one wrong word, my parents will cut off your hands and feet and dump you on some mountain.
The kids at school knew this fact down to their bones, so they were careful with every action and word in front of me. So what did you just say?
"There's no way I'd do something like that."
"Huh? Y-you, who are you? Don't you know who I am?"
I bit my tongue in shock. Do you really not know who I am? If you don't, I'll just have to remind you. Just who do you think you're talking back to?
"I know."
"What?"
He said he knew. Then why?
"If you know, then why, why did you say no? You want your parents to disappear?"
I bit my tongue again. Annoyance shot through me to the tip of my head, and my face flushed red. Why, why are you saying no?
"Um... even so, I just don't like kneeling to someone I just met."
"Is that the only reason?"
"Yes, do you need more of a reason?"
I'm going to call someone. And I'll thoroughly teach that brat and me our respective positions.
It was only after some time had passed that I learned the person I'd picked on was the second son of Mulsan Group, the mega-conglomerate that monopolized logistics across the Eurasian continent.
For the first time, I tasted my father's fury.
He shouted at me, asking what the hell I thought I was doing. He told me to go apologize immediately, his veins bulging as he glared at me. Faced with a fear I'd never known, I could only bow my head over and over. Rubbing my stinging calves, I climbed into the sleek limousine.
Past the grand, glamorous mansion, we entered an ordinary residential neighborhood.
Why would someone who controls such a massive corporation live in a small house like this?
When we arrived at the brat's house, a family servant came out to greet the bodyguard.
"Welcome. The young master is waiting for you."
Following the servant's guidance, I entered the house. In the living room, that brat was sitting on the sofa, waiting for me.
"Are you here to apologize?"
"Uh... yeah."
"Come sit over here."
We talked. He asked me why I did it, what my reason was. Faced with a dignity I'd never experienced, I fumbled and stumbled through the conversation.
"N-no, it's not that I dis-dislike you..."
"I know I was wrong too... sorry..."
"I made a mistake, sorry... I won't do it again..."
Unlike me, young and immature, that brat was the exact opposite. After a few more conversations, when it was time to leave, I climbed into the limousine with my head bowed in shame, as if fleeing.
Time passed, and I became entangled with that child more and more.
After I realized I couldn't control that person, and after people noticed I didn't cause trouble for others when I was around him, the distance between that child—no, Kim Seok-hyun—and me gradually grew closer.
When I came to my senses, that child had become a special existence I couldn't do without. The time I spent thinking about him increased, the days I dreamed about him increased, and whenever our hands touched, I found myself running away more often in embarrassment.
It didn't take long to realize this was love.
Right then, I was hiding in the backyard, watching two children.
Kim Seok-hyun... and some girl I didn't know.
At that moment, for the first time, I recognized this emotion as true love.
Who do you think you are, getting close to Seok-hyun?
The sadistic feelings I'd been suppressing for so long bubbled up inside me. Ah, this is love. I love Kim Seok-hyun. Therefore.
That bitch who dares to come between us must be torn apart by my own hands.
After that, the action was simple.
I called someone I hadn't called in a long time.
I asked where that girl was, but Seok-hyun...
I just told him she probably transferred far away.
I lied, smiling.
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After that, after Seok-hyun and I started dating.
Time flowed, and by the time about three more heads' worth of height had been added to mine.
We opened our eyes to sex for the first time.
The first time started with a novel my sister had secretly brought, hiding from our parents.
The novel about a man and woman flirting with each other and mating on the bed was enough to shock me. It was so obscene, so stimulating.
Putting it into practice wasn't difficult. I wasn't the only one who was excited.
We held each other. But something was lacking. It was too disappointing to end like this. Clearly, the stimulation was insufficient. I called someone and got books.
Sometimes novels, sometimes manga.
As time passed and we grew older, blood rushing to our heads, we tried every experiment we could think of.
The feeling we experienced was so sweet that we couldn't stop.
There were many ways to confirm love.
Woman on top, man on bottom. Breasts, shoulders, armpits, mouth, hands, feet, cat, dog, bondage.
Except for outdoors, everything we could think of.
As we continued, repeating these acts.
We eventually fell into a lull.
We loved each other, that was true, but now we were getting sick of this. Even though we wanted to avoid it, that feeling crept up on us.
I wasn't the only one feeling this. At some point, he started avoiding our relationship.
It was sad, but what could I do?
I felt that way too.
These feelings continued until we entered the academy and rose to second year.
But that's when we learned there was a 'new stimulation' we hadn't yet discovered.
When summer vacation was nearing its end, I saw a manga my sister had brought.
I was shocked.
"What is this..."
A story about a girlfriend you love being violated and taken by some delinquent. An unreasonable story. At this unfamiliar feeling, my entire body trembled. My boyfriend, watching from beside me.
"Ah..."
He was excited too, like me.
I had seen this emotion in a book before.
The thrill of betrayal.
This manga was so obscene. But because of one difference from all the manga I'd seen before, this emotion amplified several times—no, dozens of times—and pounded against my chest.
Someone you promised to love, overlapping bodies with trash.
Someone who has everything, having his woman stolen by someone who has nothing.
And... right before your eyes.
I cup my burning red cheeks. Ah, it's been so long. I feel like I've returned to the first time I made love with my boyfriend. I want to do this. Right now.
I turn my head to look at my boyfriend. Clearly he's excited too, but I sense a slightly different emotion from me.
Fear.
On his flushed yet pale face, I get even more excited.
Seok-hyun is thinking about me. He's worried I'll be stolen by someone else.
He's worried about me.
This fact was enough to drive me mad.
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Time passed quickly, and we returned to the academy.
During the remaining vacation period, it wasn't that we hadn't tried that play—meaning 'NTR'.
Every time I tried, the people cast in the 'Geum Tae-yang' role would without fail either disappear somewhere or die before my eyes. So I couldn't properly carry out the play.
Probably because of my position and his.
Idiots.
I entered the classroom, sat at my desk, and made a list in my head. A list of people who will fuck me in front of my boyfriend. Since seeing that manga, I've been dissatisfied with my desires.
I want to have affair sex right now, but my social position makes it impossible. But having sex with someone completely unrelated to me feels too dangerous.
I know this sexual preference is shameful. If someone as famous as me were discovered to have this preference, it's obvious I couldn't withstand the aftermath.
So right now, I can't do anything. I can only keep pressing down and containing my desires.
That's when it happened.
At the figure that appeared before me, I gasped.
"Uh, w-who are you?"
Before me stood 'Geum Tae-yang' from the manga. Looking exactly as he appeared in the manga, my mouth hung open in shock. There was someone like this at our academy? While I stupidly stood there frozen, that person opened his mouth.
"Kim Tae-ho."
"What?"
Once again, my mouth hung open like an idiot. This person, that, a puppy?
That person—no, Kim Tae-ho—seemed to enjoy my reaction, curling the corners of his mouth into a smirk.
"Ah..."
That disgusting smile. It's just like the manga. Once again, the scene from the manga comes to mind, and my lower abdomen tingles in response. Excitement makes saliva pool in my mouth. Embarrassed by this fact, I avert my gaze to the puppy sitting in the next seat.
What, what is it? What the hell is this?
What the hell is going on here?
Could it be... did he come like this to fuck me?
Once again, my lower abdomen tingles.
I don't know. I don't know at all. That the puppy's appearance would change like that, that I would look away in embarrassment in front of the puppy. Not at all, not one bit, I don't understand. Still, I understood one thing.
Right now, I'm getting excited by the puppy.
By someone who has nothing, I'm getting excited.
At that fact, I feel an indescribable sense of defeat mixed with anticipation of being stolen.
I simply cannot concentrate on studying.
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It was the third day of avoiding him, conscious of the puppy's gaze.
I deliberated for a long time. And I endured for a long time. I've already finished all discussions with my boyfriend. I spoke honestly.
I told him I wanted to have affair sex with the puppy, right in front of him.
After thinking for a moment, he nodded his head.
That was enough.
Time passed, the sky was dyed with sunset.
I called the puppy.
The puppy, my boyfriend, and me.
The three of us gathered in the classroom. Doing nothing, just sitting there.
I'm conflicted too. Even if he's a puppy, is it right for me to say something like this? I feel embarrassed too. I couldn't bring myself to outright tell the puppy, "I got excited watching you, so let's have sex. In front of my boyfriend." So time passed without us doing anything.
In the end, my boyfriend, unable to stand the frustration, called the puppy.
"Mr. Tae-ho."
"Uh, u-um, w-what is it?"
Now it seems he's really going to say it. At that fact, I get a little excited and fidget with my legs.
"Today... um, no... I called you because I have a favor to ask."
My boyfriend took a breath.
"I'll get straight to the point."
My boyfriend hesitated. Fidgeting restlessly, he looked toward me. Our eyes met. It's okay. You can say it. I nodded my head. My boyfriend turned to the puppy with a determined expression.
"I... want you to fuck my girlfriend."
He said it.
At those words, my heart pounded. Looking at the puppy's expression, it was the face of someone who had heard something he shouldn't have. His mouth hung grotesquely open, and his face was written over with bewilderment.
"What?"
He must want to say, what the hell is this? Are you out of your mind?
He is out of his mind. I want to have affair sex with the puppy.
"That's exactly what I mean."
With serious eyes, I looked at the puppy.
"I want Kim Tae-ho to, in front of my boyfriend.
Fuck me."
It was sincere without selfishness. No, it was sincere with plenty of selfishness.
"Th-that, by 'fuck' you mean..."
"Sex."
"Intercourse, mating, copulation, cock and pussy."
It's affair sex, nothing more exciting.
"I want you, in front of my boyfriend, to fuck my pussy with your cock."
All that was left was the puppy's consent and the sordid affair sex.
Now, give me your answer.
Quickly.
"I don't want to."
What?
"What?"
What did I just hear?
He said "I don't want to" to my face.
When was the last time I saw someone refuse my answer? Probably the first time since my boyfriend.
Unexpected. At this completely unforeseen turn of events, it feels like I've been hit in the head with a hammer.
I'm going to call someone. And I'll thoroughly teach that brat and me our respective positions.
I already belong to someone. There's no way I can hold another woman.
"You're saying you don't want to have sex with me for a reason like that?"
"You have a girlfriend?"
"Yes."
"..."
My expression slightly distorted.
He was politely refusing my wishes. Until now, he'd followed my words like a good little son of a bitch, so why was he refusing my most important request?
"So, you mean you don't want to have sex with me?"
"That's correct."
He answered without a moment's hesitation, saying he doesn't want to.
He was completely unyielding. I'm starting to get annoyed. Why, why are you being like this too, puppy?
"My boyfriend said it was okay. Do you really not want to have sex?"
"Of course not."
He didn't back down at all. This is the first time since then that I've been refused so clearly, so repeatedly. Gradually, anger rose to the top of my head. Fine, I've decided. Today, no matter what, I will have affair sex with the puppy.
"Ha..."
A sigh escaped my lips like steam rising from a boiling kettle.
Now I have no choice but to take a hard line.
I must have affair sex today, no matter what.
"Do you know what position I'm in?"
At my words, the puppy clamped his mouth shut like he's frozen. Yes, stay still. Don't defy your owner's words. Let me remind you of our positions once again.
"Frankly speaking, the only reason you've been able to stay at this academy until now is purely because I found it 'fun' to play with you."
It's the truth.
"The 'fun' that comes from you following my words, barking when I tell you to bark, licking when I tell you to lick, kneeling when I tell you to kneel—that's what has kept you at this academy."
It's accurate.
"You know without me telling you. That with a single gesture, a single movement from me, I can prevent you from setting foot in this academy."
It's possible.
"But now that fun is disappearing?"
It's sincere.
Watching him become like a beaten dog, cowering foolishly, the corners of my mouth lifted up.
Yes, stay like that.
Say "I understand" to my words.
"Shut up and have sex with me. The decision has already been made."
And the next answer that came...
"I... still don't want to."
It was a refusal.
Why? I looked at the puppy with half bewilderment, half shock. Though he was cowering under the pressure, his eyes were more determined than anyone's.
It feels like looking at Kim Seok-hyun when we first met.
But that's all.
My head cooled down coldly. Once again, anger crept up to the top of my head.
How unexpected.
The puppy gauged my expression. Then, as if realizing his mistake, his body slightly trembled.
"So it's because of your girlfriend after all?"
The puppy's expression stiffened palely.
That's right.
The puppy's eyes widened. At that reaction, a smile naturally formed.
"So you can't have sex with me because of your girlfriend?"
At my words, he flinched.
That's right, indeed.
Then...
"If we get rid of your girlfriend, that solves it, right?"
It's flawless, sincere.
At my words, cold sweat poured down the puppy's face like a waterfall.
That look was so grotesque that I finally burst into laughter.
"Ah... Now I understand. I thought you'd be like a dog and happily agree if I just asked for sex, but he turned out to be unexpectedly a devoted lover."
"From now on, everything I say is sincere."
"If you don't have sex with me today, I'll kill your girlfriend right before your eyes."
His despairing expression was answer enough.
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