Author's Honest Truth
Now, I know to many of you this might seem weird and unconventional to the point of being uncomfortable. To be honest, I don't think there's a book, mini-series, or even a webnovel that I've read, seen, nor come across that would have an opening of a prayer. I might face backlash, I might be blacklisted; some may even assume that I'm trying to force my beliefs and faith down their throats.
I just wish that everyone would know and be rest assured that in God's honest truth, I'm not trying to do so. I'm just a young author who has an unwavering faith in Jesus Christ, and I've come to learn and accept the truth and lesson: as much as I love doing this and I have a dream of becoming one of the greats, I can't do it without Jesus Christ. So I'm going to ask Him to actually not just bless me but walk with me through this writing journey.
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Now I'm going to begin my prayer; please know that this is very important to me. Every single time I write a new story, I will be talking to Jesus. It doesn't have to be perfect; I just have to say what's on my heart, and I hope and pray that He finds it genuine and truthful.
Author's Prayer
Dear God,
Father of the mighty heavens,
Creator of heaven and earth,
Creator of everything beautiful that we see before our eyes,
The One who loves us so much that He gave us His only Son and sacrificed Him for our sins so we can be forgiven, though we don't deserve Your kindness.
Lord, I come before You, but not as a person who writes, but as Your child that needs You to walk with him in this treacherous journey of a world that is so unpredictable and in most days and cases selfish. Father, I know and fully accept my flaws: that out of many dreams to choose from, I chose this one, a dream so close to insanity. But what can I say? And I'm not trying to pin the blame on You or anything, but let's be honest: You are the one who chose this gift for me and blessed me with it.
I won't pretend and act like I don't know how powerful this gift of mine is. It's so powerful that whether we want to admit it or not, it has taken over the world and has created a lot of cult following, cause it can change people's perspectives and their ways of life that they choose to devote themselves to something that doesn't even exist at all.
Lord, I won't lie and try to tell You stories to sugarcoat it, but I'm afraid, Father. And I'm afraid of failure—and not just failure, but I'm afraid of disappointing my own family, cause as You know and have seen and witnessed, I've tried everything, and in the end, I end up failing big time. I don't want that anymore. I don't want to be scared, and I don't want to have this negative burden on my shoulder of doubting myself. After all, You were kind enough and loving to me not to curse me with such negative emotions, the kind that would destroy me by keeping me afraid.
I'm not sure where this prayer is going, nor do I have any clue which direction I aim to take, but Father, please allow me to ask You to bless me as I take this road and journey to the unknown. Not only that, but can You also take my hand and hold it and not just walk with me but also guide through this, as I'm just like an infant walking to a place that is full of blindspots.
I'm not here for some twisted agenda, but I'm here and taking this risk cause I believe in my dream, and I hope that down the line, my dream will do exactly like I do and that is believe in me too.
Father, I come before You to ask You to give me strength and the qualities of fighting against any negativity that I may stumble upon, whether it was caused by me or maybe I'm faced with the backlash for believing in You and taking this kind of route that I'm sure no one will appreciate. But that's okay. I don't want to be in a world that would ask me to choose between You and my dream, cause without You, this dream wouldn't exist, and I also wouldn't be here.
As much as I wish that all this pan out great as I have planned it or as You see fit and decide for me, I will admit that I'm not perfect, nor will this be easy.
Lord, as You know that this world I choose has so many ups and downs that when we see other writers with their stories, we have this tendency of doubting ourselves, cause we somehow construct our minds into believing that we won't reach the same level as they are in without even trying; then we drop our stories. I'm also guilty when it comes to that. I don't know how many stories I have abandoned cause I believed that.
I don't want to do that anymore, and I finally realize that the reason for that may be because I thought I knew better, that I can do this on my own with the help of false gods. I didn't take time to notice that those so-called gods never assisted me with anything; they just want to take and take without even giving back.
I am tired of that kind of life. I now know and understand that in order for me to live happily and in peace, I need you here and now.
So Father, please let hope be my anthem
when the whole world has fallen quiet.
And may You please bless me and open ways for me as I take this journey to bring this series to the rest of the world, even though I'm just a mere beginner with a long road ahead of me. And this isn't a spell or curse,
but will You allow my story—no, let me say our story—worm itself to the hearts of many readers? Despite its imperfections, may it be loved. Cause yes, I'll admit it, it won't be perfect and maybe as good as the top stories, since it will have repetitions and etc., yet I shouldn't be afraid of that.
Now I know that this prayer is not something You were expecting, and it might seem selfish of me for praying and asking such a thing when there are people out there with serious problems and issues.
Just know that I'm sorry, and thank You for taking time to listen to me.
In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.