Winds blowing, sun pelting, I ran endlessly on my journey. Dressed in a red and black floral shorts, black sleeveless fitted shirt and white sneakers. I continued
My neatly combed hair was tied down with a black durag and in my ears was a pair of black and purple earbuds drowning out the voice of Chaos. She who was trying to speak and let me fall into despair...
"Chaos.... Go back to sleep..."
" Hahahhahahaha.... Why would I do such a thing when watching you struggle to keep yourself together and not breaking down again is so much fun...."
As I ran and tortured my body within the physical realm... In the spiritual realm.. my soul was shackled all over in a sea of nothingness with crimson glowing chains holding me down...
I could feel her... Chaos... She was trailing her pale finger slowly over my chest.. she had long sharp nails that were painted black, ankle length black hair that looked like it sparkled like the night sky filled with stars, one of her eyes were covered with a decorative black mesh eye patch and the color of her next eye was crimson.. she had a fitted mesh black dress that showed her flawless pale skin...
To anyone else she would look like the embodiment of sin and lust... However for me... I knew who she really was... She was my inner world creation... The Chaos that lives within my heart and soul given physical form...
She got closer, trailing her nails on my lips and face...
" How long are you going to try and resist me Master..."
" As long as it takes Chaos...."
" Hahahahahaa... Your already at Hell's doorway... So why not take that next step.... "
" I won't...."
" Hehehehe... Let's see how long you can run away from me...."
Back in the physical world, as I continue maxing my bodies limit to try and clear my mind from all that is trying to push me down in the depths of despair... I maxed the volume of one of my favorite audios I was listening to... One that always helps me remember what I am fighting for... What I must do...
-Audio-
' I came here to save the world.... But was it the right thing for me... Because one day..... I realized..... I would never return home....'
' Did you forget your home land?.... Go Home... Open The Divine Gates...'
' I can't... I care about this world too much...'
' But..... I'm afraid you'll feel alone...'
' With everyone here... With you here... Not a chance..... I'll be there.... For everyone.... As we head towards our shared future... Leaving the past behind...'
' So..... This is your choice?... To try and save this world and it's people all alone?'
'Yes..... Because..... I Know Where I Am Going Now..... That's what matters.... Not where I started...'
'I see..... Then Keep Going.... No matter what....'
' Long after my memories were lost.... I awaken for the first time... And became you...'
' Once again .... we will roam this world.... and become it's new people....'
' We have witnessed the Struggles and hardships of people and there civilizations..... And you may have questions as per why things has never changed.... And who are you exactly....'
' However.... Throughout your journeys.... You yourself will find that answer for yourself.... Your Highness...'
' So.... No Matter what.... Just Keep Moving Forward.... Just Like Always...'
- End of Audio-
Leaving out of my mind and inner world, I stop running due to having completed my daily quota of distance I had set out to do...
Standing there firmly with my head tilted back to the sky and trying to breathe... I was immobile.. My breathing was a mixture of heavy exhales and steady inhales... Going over and over in a rhythm...
You could see the steam from my sweat evaporating from my body due to how hot of a temperature my body was from all that running.... And throughout all that exhaustion and pain... My only words and thoughts were...
" I can't give up... I can't give up.... I Have To Get Stronger..... No Matter What..."