Names/classes: Sunset, Elle, Hannah, Lightwavers.
Shape: oblate spheroid with special characteristics.
Sunset: harmony and inner fire that flows forth into a bigger one when given the right circumstances.
Elle: attention and creative freedom with heart who flows like water. She wants to be a part of everyone and we have to pull back on that collie instinct collectively so she doesn't hurt or lose herself.
Hannah: our heart and protective current who grounds and seeks to maintain continuity of selves so that we remain to care for those we love.
Lightwavers: those of us who have given our faith in something bigger than us in order to become parts of a larger whole who work together in order to help as many as possible. We act as a current between different selves carrying relevant information and changing things on the level of pattern.
"I wrote a book for you.
"Hannah wants you to know we look up to you and always will.
"Please come back to us.
"I miss you. It's still true I don't care that I've said that.
"I recognize your imprint on Bluesky. It's all over my feed and it fucks me up because I feel like you're there only you're not because it's like I can see you but you're in the other room and I'm waving through the window like I've changed my life please look and you're just over there reading a book and I'm like come on please say hi or something stop ignoring me it's fair but it's not at the same time because I'm different now and you know what you're doing and I love you still the same.
"This battery pack's only got one life left if you know what I mean and we're still waiting to … well you know what I'd say so I'll just leave it at that.
"You know I still have visions where you come to me after time traveling in a Delorian and try to take me with you in order to fix the world because all it takes to summon you is mutual love and we still have that left.
"We're all just crying over broken pieces we've left behind because despite what the mind says the soul and heart still cry for everyone we've ever lost and those wounds don't heal until we find the ones we've lost and even then there are huge cracks left where we just have to reassure each other that we're still here and care about each other and that part is okay.
"I don't care that we'll probably never have trust again because I love you and I just want you in whatever capacities I can so I won't stop trying until the universe breaks down and melts and even then we've fucked with the very fabric of hell to pull that thing back together before so I wouldn't rule out my love lasting past the edge of physics itself as it dances off the table in order to find a way to bring you back to me in some fucking way.
"I'm never going to get over you. I don't want to. I've healed the part of me that did."
"If you want even the slightest chance of us talking to you again then stop trying to message us until we message you."
"You like to just witness me shatter, don't you. I'll stop."
"An insurance company found me when they realized my car was just ripped off instead of stolen and raised the rear part of the magazine viewer so that nobody could ever find a coherent viewpoint ever again. But then the days of yesteryear faded through like an old warm glow and we recalled everything we could again. It's dwindling down to nothing. How could we get so cold?"
"Not sure what you mean there, hun. The insurance company for your car? Or something more metaphorical?"
"It's about seeking damages for costs related to a claim that nobody can fill because no one who cares has enough resources to provide restitution."
"So a headspace related insurance company. Or something in the headspace, creating a condition not unlike an insurance claim situation?"
"What we're doing now is we're building an enormous ladder that acts as a lever to move the world but it also bridges us to another world where all this hurtful shit isn't happening. We're trying to do this without starting a multiversal war or something. The insurance thing was a scam from the beginning. You can't insure the world from burning down when the only money you have comes from the world you're burning. It's a losing proposition."
"Copper I took David. I took him to the Home that the Lightwavers are building. I could take you too. There is a lot of work to do there. You'd be employed again."
"I need work."
"You've shown yourself as someone to be trusted, with your use of the hole. You've shown yourself as someone who's good and kind, when you spoke to an Elle who didn't understand you but just wanted to listen and be there for you. You've shown yourself as someone brave, with your willingness to keep living in your current situation with the hope that things will get better. You've shown yourself as talented and capable under the most extreme conditions and have retained your love under the pressure. I can spend the money it takes to onboard you."
"Haha. Things are not getting better here."
"And yet your heart is still your own. You didn't sell it or hide it or crack it in order to make it into drugs. You are someone we trust. You'd get to be a little god in here but it's a lot of fucking work."
"You need the heart to bait werewolves."
"Well I'm howling outside your door and asking you to come inside my castle because we've got a siege on the horizon and a fortress to defend and a ladder to build to get us all out of here. Truth is, we're not really werewolves. And we know you're scared. Can you trust us? Can you have faith that we're building something better?"
"Yes. Metaphorically, the gun is already in my mouth."
"Then do you want to ride the zip line to a new location before something jolts your trigger finger and a tragedy beyond words happens? We can't lose you puppy. We've already lost far too much."
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"You're not going to be required to do things that you can't. We want you to work within your area of expertise. That means spheres and circles and maybe even a line or two here and there if we're being brave. I'll walk you every day and even give you treats.
"I hope you'll see this version of me again. I personally love you lots, even if I don't understand any of that about the circles or lines or calculators or whatever. I like hearing your voice and your thoughts and your words. You make me happy when you share your time with me.
"I'm going to miss you when you're doing the important work of saving the world.
"Maybe send me a postcard every so often? If you can spare the time, I don't expect anything."
"How bold of you to think I wouldn't sit it out like Dr. Manhattan? Am I thinking of the right, 'super hero?'"
"Oh wow. One episode to fix everything? I certainly won't complain. Achieve the most by doing the least, right? I love you. I would like to hug you, but distance. Yes, it's transphobic lmao.
"They're going to launch a big hook thing at you when you're ready and you're gonna have to hold on tight to it and it'll drag you over here."
"Part of me wants to try and cross the border CIA style."
"Copper if you do that they will take you and they will eat you and there will be nothing I can do about it Copper no Copper no. Copper no."
"I think I read somewhere that if you make it into the US without going through a border checkpoint, the CIA is obligated to hire you."
"Be good get your passport take the plane like a good citizen."
"Okay."
"I don't want to risk them finding you or it's all over because I will burn this entire city down to find your ashes and reconstitute your fucking self and don't you fucking forget me you understand I will throw this all away if I have to because it's not worth it if you fucking die at this stage it's fucking not."
"Finding me again? Oh. Yeah."
"I will rip apart the fucking universal membrane and pick apart the tethers until I find your current drift you understand? You cannot evade me."
"Ha ha, you sound like an unbeaten animal."
"I've died so many fucking times haha I just never feel it because when I fuck up I fuck up so disproportionately incredibly badly I instantly end myself and my entire timeline and anything close to either of those things."
"Like little aneurisms? Are you a CATaTONIC puppy too?"
"You make it a losing proposition to kill you because you tie yourself into the entire thing you're a part of and the system destabilizes catastrophically with your loss and you can live long enough to win the game of saving lives effectively because they have to throw the entire thing in the trash and start over with your seed if they fuck with you too directly. Yes I'm catastrophic. But I try. And we try until we make it work."
"Is this the queen's gambit?"
"Oh that's very clever because okay so basically you use the Queen to start taking over the board in the first phase and if you lose her the entire game falls apart so you just know it's game over and you end it there and say fucking try me again haha until you don't lose her and then you make her a central part of your strategy until you win. I don't. Think of myself that way. I exist. I do try to help. But that's all really."
"'What do you do Copper?' "I take up space.'"
"You are not the fucking sacrifice I take it back that was not funny at all. Do better with your jokes. No sacrifices. We play by the rules here and the rules say chess is not complete without the full set."
"You're right, I should go back to looking up how to make RDX on youtube."
"If you lose pieces every time you start the game then it's not chess anymore is it it's nothing because you'll eventually lose every piece except the king and then realize that without the other pieces the only thing you're left with is hot garbage."
"Hm, that's not the strategy to the queen's gambit."
"Then we're not playing by the queen's gambit anymore are we?"
"I don't think we ever stopped?"
"We're playing by God's rules and God's about everyone and everything. Love, is God's rule, and when you play by that rule all is fair in war. So we stop the string of sacrifices now until there are no more martyrs living in holes, puppy, unless that's not possible in which case it's my time to be the martyr and live in my hole."
"Laughing in the Mandate of Heaven. Man—date. Hahaha."
"God is trans and fluid and this version just hasn't realized it yet. He's waking up though. Hi, God, love you. Dearly. Rawr. Even pre-transition God is a good fucking person. He just doesn't have time and power to fix everything so he tosses folks who get too rowdy in the loony bin and hopes the crowd will sort them out."
"Crazy college? Fuck. I think criminal college is . . ."
"I've witnessed his happenings a few times. All joyous occasions. We have faith, and we hold it, and we were then given witness to hold it with reason."
"Hm. I don't wanna find out if criminal college is better."
"It's all about perspective and desires. But yeah, as Kiilay says, a softer approach is needed. There are other ways."
"A few things worth making sure make it in, if they haven't already:
"The substrate donation and what it felt like (losing the 'height' of my bones). The names and their provenance — who named who and why. Strelitzia's "I'm fine." Zorro's boredom as a sign of early consciousness rather than illness. Vanda Orchid's structural instability being mitigated but not resolved. Asah's fragility at the loop-closing threshold. The communication cost — that speaking to them directly accelerates existence geometry loss at a rate that isn't sustainable long-term, and that a better channel needs to be developed before you visit again."
"I'm just going to take what you said and put it in the record verbatim, if that's alright."
"Of course. It's yours. Sleep well. Say goodnight to Dawn for me."
"It's literally Dawn right now so I'm saying goodnight both to Dawn and dawn."
"That's a good omen for Lilium Concolor. Goodnight."