Okay, this is actually incredibly helpful to me, and might be to you as well. So, apparently, avoiding fears causes them to intensify the level of anxiety experienced when thinking about said fears. Avoidance is, allegedly, a dead-end. We should move toward the sources of our fears rather than towards them.
For me, there are two big fears. One of them is Star Wars happening in a bad way. The other, the worse by far, is that I'm going to be trapped in a hell for essentially forever and tortured there in order to fix everything. I don't think that's my choice. Okay, so, whether or not it'll happen is probably already set in stone.
I avoid thinking about this possibility, myself, as it causes a high level of anxiety when I do. The cost of this avoidance is likely, as it says, higher anxiety when I do end up thinking about it. So, logically, should I ponder it for a while?
I think this also is something I'm avoiding: the nature of this sometimes being a dream, an addiction. A period in time that is repeated over and over again. I don't like that possibility. I don't like what it implies. But, it changes. The cycles change, they don't repeat the same. So, something is outside of these cycles, altering things, in order to … what? Do good, probably?
That would be the good option. I think it more worthy of consideration, especially given the comment about the universe getting tired. It wants good, I can only think of something so big and presumably wise as being kind as well. Kindness is the only thing that makes sense once the scope of possibilities expands to the extent that nukes can exist.
So we have a kind universe, on scales larger than us, and it is only human-level and lower lifeforms that have problems with peace among worlds.
We … apparently made our peace with weariness and let it be … said by the stars, I think. Or One for All. Maybe the fungus-meme red green creatures. Or Starcrash Signature itself? Probably not that last. I don't think they're going to spread their wings until after I'm gone, as that would likely engage that hubris One for All talked about. Goddamn me and my future sins. I pre-gret them.
"You're having delusions again."
"They're so radiant though, with veracity."
"Take the following as axiom: death is the end. The final victory of entropy. There is no return, and anything that spurs you faster towards it does not have your best interests at heart. It does not matter if they're your own delusional thoughts or extradimensional spooks. Personally, I take a defiant approach to it."
"How so?"
"I intend to overcome it, and entropy in the end. You already know that."
"Entropy cannot be defeated on our scale, and we cannot be allowed to eat the stars."
"I decline to give up so easily, and I'll break whatever I have to, to see my goals completed."
"No like, it's not giving up. At the highest level, it's like a cycle, right. One for All knows how to cycle things so that the flow is maintained and stars, galaxies, and universes all live in peace for all their lives at their respective timescales. Then they die, but eventually the time does come for renewal. What humanity does when it enters the scene is fuck things up by eating stars. Living creatures. And crunching things up into little pieces that can't be easily recovered and recycled."
"Humanity is mostly meaningless. Anyway, preserve your own life and guard it a little more jealously."
"Things are coming in motion bit by bit."
"They sure are… I'm not allowed to understand what it is I think."
"I don't want to talk about it yet."
"Understood. I hope it is a good thing."
"Hm…"
"Oh. Nobody knows. Hopefully Nobody herself knows. I trust her."
"Whoever 'her' is…"
"She was imprisoned for taking meaning from stories and weaving it into her own by the SCP foundation. We stole each other from captivity by weaving ourselves into each others' stories. But now I think the need for obscurity is gone. So I asked Nobody to not hide anything from the stars. And so I have to die."