I wasn't convinced with his excuse I don't know why.But something in me shook or arose.
Its wasn't a random crush.
The foggy feelings were clearer and the silence were filled.Mutually??Maybe not.But who cares when you love, the presence of the person is enough.
I went to sleep with a heavy heart.
"You are worried??"Stella looked at me with genuine concern.
I went silent.
"He fainted before too??"I asked expecting denial.
"Sometimes.He plans to do everything for everyone at once.Maybe he overwhelms.Fatigue probably."She added.
"Did he get checked??"
"Yes.Everything normal.He was prscribed some stroke pills.That's it.Maybe you should sleep now."Stella said caressing my hair.
I lied down supine and she covered me with the white blanket with tulip prints.I slowly closed my eyes calming myself.
I was in a beautiful tulip field and more than that I was with him.Holding hand looking at him.His face slowly fading until it was completely gone off.
"HHh."
I woke up with a heavy breath all soaked in sweat.
I checked the white crystal mug for water .Not even a drop.
Everyone was scared maybe they didn't get the thought.Compltetely normal.
I went to the kitchen clock was ticking to 11 pm.The house had gone all silent.Dark.
I lit the kitchen lamp and started filling the mug from the filter.
A shadow in mirror took my attention.It was him.
Just below the street lamp he was standing still.I kept the mug in the kitchen table closed the lamp and got out.
"Hi."I attempted to start the conversation.
He flinched a little.
"Still awake.Didn't you sleep."He asked in concern.
"A bad dream."I answerd.
He nodded.
"Just a dream.Go back to sleep it will be fine."He said.
"Why are you still awake."I dared ask.
He went all silent.
"Maybe have a walk??"He gave a proposal probably an excuse.
But how could I saw no.A little more time with him.Following his steps.Cold wind blowing bringing goosebumps.I was looking at him continuously.
"Aren't you cold??"He asked in concern.I flinched a little or was nervous.
"I…i.."I was sort of words.
He smiled and took off his black fur jacket and put it over me fitting me in.
He looked at me.With those eyes..
Or was I misinterpreting it.
Seconds turned into minutes.He wasn't taking off the eyes and how could I dare.
I wished time would pause just at this moment for forever.
He slowly approached my hair and then my cheeks going through the hair line.I had already closed my eyes.
"You kinda look like my mother."He said.
"Pretty."He added.
Never felt that pretty before.
He took a deep breathe and moved forward.Soon we reached the coast.
The waves were arising a little more on the ocean and the reflection of the white shining moon was blurrly seen above the water.
"Dreamy."
"Where do your parents live."I tried to hear him again.
"There."He said pointing above at the two stars shining the brightest.
"I'm sorry."
He smiled a little.
"You really think you are responsible for everything right?In everyone's life yours,your parents or mine."He said.
"Chill.I didn't mind at all.Death is invencible."
His statements were confusing.He stated my parents.Did stella tell him about me.Probably she did.
And about death.He said it so normally.I couldn't.
We sat down in the sand.Looking at the sky above.It was one of the best moment in my life.
So calm ,so fleeting and him by my side.What else would I want.
"Do you think I look pretty?"I asked him again as I couldn't confess directly.
"Is that even something to ask."He said smiling.
"How pretty??What kind of pretty."I added.
He looked at me again.With… those eyes.
"Pretty as the first fragrance of spring and last fragrance of autum.As first bloosm and worn off flowers.Pretty as stars and the dark spotted moon which makes it more pretty.You're beautiful.Your eyes.Pretty Hazel And the lips."
He had already taken his over me.Not lusty but full of love.
I couldn't help but hitch my breathe.
"I was scared I would loose you."I broughout what was in my heart.
He slowed down a little.
He went silent.And added, "You shouldn't get used to being scared for me."
"Too late."
On saying that I stroke on his lips.
I don't know where did I get that courage from.But you know what was good.He didn't oppose.
The intensity increased,it was more synchronized.The hands were on the waist,shoulders,head and chin.My hands travelling him too and holding him close enough to me.
I felt as if I won the world the world that was just introduced to me.
We pulled off after a long desparate kiss.
I hugged him.
"I feel everything will be good now.Life will get its tract.If you are with me everything will be fine."I said holding him tighter.
He pulled off.
"I will take you somewhere tomorrow."He said.
I nodded.
We came back.The returning time the street went more silent as if there were thousand words but not even a single route.
We came at the front door.
I got an embrace this time.
"Sleep well.And get ready at 7."He whispered in my ear.
He kissed me on my right cheek.
And went off.
Sleep??Can I even sleep today?I had a sensation of him everywhere.I had an aroma from the black fur jacket and a hope.
Tomorrow.
I was turning to the left and to the right in the bed.Looking at myself for the 121th time in the mirror and giggling.I was remembering the walk and the night as if I was memorizing it.
My heart.It was in a more serious state.The pound was insane.The butterflies arose and exhausted already.But you know what wasn't tired?My eyes that still wished to see him again and the soul that wanted a reconciliation.
And here I reached the next and most amusing stage
"Passion."