me or meri tanhai

Ek band kamre ki jindgi me ked ek khwab leke jeena or sirf sochna ki kash in sab me koi sath ho aapke pass aapka khayal rakhne ke liye par jab koi na ho to akele bethke khud rone ke bad apne anshu khud pochna or phir usi raste me chalna apne aap strong banana mene socha tha ki jab me apne aap ko badal dungi to meri life me sab thik ho jayga phir ek pal yesa aya ki mujhe akela rahna tod gya roj apne aap ko dekhna koi awaj ni koi aass pass ni ek dar ki log kya bolenge kya thi me kya khudko badlna itna asan tha kabhi sochti hu na ki dipression vali life se nikalna mushkil tha ruh kapti h us din ko sochke jha hamare apne hamre khilaf khade huye hote h jha ladna bhi tha or chup bhi rahna tha ye jindgi ashan nahi thi jeena ashan ni tha jesa mene socha vesa hua nahi acche vakt me Jo sath the vo bure vakt me nahi the jab piche mudke apni jindgi ko dekhi to laga yrr life me na ab dubara vo log nahi cahiye jo mere sath pahle the ab mujhe vo cahiye jo mere sath hamesha rahe ek vo sapna Jo sirf mera he ek apna yehsas me na khudko phirse jinda dekh saku parivar se aage apne sapno ke sath apni udan ko bharte huye jindgi ki choti choti khusiya agar aaj hai to sirf unke vajh se se jinhone mujhe mere sapno ko jeene ka unhe pura karne moka Diya ashan nahi hai kisi anjan sahar me akele rahke khudko itna kabil banana dosto ko chorna ghar ko chorna Bachpan ko chorna yese logo ke bich rahna Jo apne nahi hai kab kon kya bol dega itna ajeeb mahsoos hona ki rat ke andhere me kab kya ho Jaye kon apna hai kon paraya hai phir meri me kisi insan ka ana mujhe laga ki syad vo mujhe sach sunke chor dega ek anjan sa ladka kya meri life me hamesa rahega kya Mera past jante huye kya vo mere sath khus rahega kya yesa ho sakta hai ki Bina mile Bina dekhe sirf uski awaj meri jeene ki vajh ban payegi usko sunna usse bate karna uske bare me sochna khudko uske samne imagine karna usse Milne ki cahat usko har din ek ek minute apne pass aapko mehsoos karna apne aap ko uske sath khus dekhna kya ye sach hai koi is duniya me yesa bhi koi hai jisse bat karke mujhe yesa lag sakta tha meri jindagi ko jeene ki vajah banke vo meri Puri life ban gya uske sath puri duniya ki jeetne hunar uske sath to hu par ab use khone ka dar ki agar vo mujhe na mila to uske bad meri life kya hogi kya me uske bina jee paungi kya mere sath vo adjust karega ya phir hamesa mere bachpan ko jinda rakhega mere sapno ko khudka sapna samjhke vo mera sath dega agar mene koi galti kar di to vo mujhe chorke chala gaya to vo mil to Gaya par khone ka dar bhi laga hai ..kya hoga jab me uske samne aaungi long distance relationship me kya vo mujhe samne dekh ke utna khus hoga jitna me usse milke hone vali hu din bhar bat karne ke liye ek dusre ko dekhne ke liye tarashne vale ham dono ek dusre ko samne dekhne ke bad kya halat hogi ek dusre ko gale lagane ki soch to rahe honge hamare aass pass logo ki bheed hame rok legi thode sanskar hame rok lenge ham ek dusre ko gale na laga ke sirf handsheck karke ek dusre ko ankho ko dekh ye sochnnge kitna lambe intjar ke bad ek din yesa bhi ho jha vakt uska ho or pass ham ho .ek tadap hai jo usse Milne ke liye betab rahte or logo se mujhe kya fark padta hai ham ek shakhs se Milne ke liye puri duniya ko thukray bethe hai vo ek manjar khoobsurat SA ek hath aapka jab sochti hu us din ki rat ke bare me din ke kam ki thakan door si ho jati hai door rahke tere pass hone ka yehsas mujhe aapka didar Kara deta hai jindgi ko jeena kese hai ye usse pta chalega socha ni tha yesa hoga par usse dekhne ki cahat si badh gai..ab jab rat me bate hoti hai to sone ka man ni karta yesa lagta hai ki ek rat yesi jo uske sath gujre uske hatho me hath leke apne dil ki sari bate sab kuch bhulke puri rat uske ankho me doob Jane ka man.ye mere chote chote se sapne pura kab ho jab sochti hu to kabhi man Beth jata hai .ki agar mujhe usse Bina mile use Bina dekhe kuch hua to kya sochega vo ki apna Bana ke akele chor diya bich safar me .par mera sapna uska sapna pura karne ke ek choti si mehnat .kya hoga agar uske pass uski dream bike hogi uske cehre ki smile uski khusi is khusi ko dekhne ke liye apni nind ko tyag karna badi bat nahi lagti par kash yesa hota.kabhi sochti hu ki agar mene use uske sapne pure karte nahi dekh pai tub bhi kya vo mere bina us sapne ko pura karega kya vo meri kahi gai bato ka man rakh payga uske sapne ko pura hote huye dekhna ek sapna ban gya ek anjan insan Mera apna ban gya .kya me usse kabhi mil paungi kya me use samne se dekh paungi agar us vo nahi aya to agar usne dhoka diya to jiske liye me itni mehnat kar Rai agar vo mera na ho paya to kya hoga .kya me jee paungi uske bina meri life ko me soch nahi sakti agar uske dhoke se me khudko sambhal paungi .alag sahar me pyar karna kya mera pyar saccha hai dega vo mera sath.zindgi ke uss padav me kabhi soch nahi ki uske jese insan ka sath milega agar vo nahi hota to to me syad kabhi apni life ke aage ke bare me kabhi nahi soch pati kyoki ek anjana sa rista meri zindgi me yesa kuch kar gaya hai ki kabhi use gale laga ke thanks bol du par vo mujhse hajaro meel door hai ye sochke kabhi itna bura lagta hai ek mulakat ke liye tarash gay hai .kabhi sochti hu working yriya me ki usse bat ho jaye to Mera din ban jaye usse bat kiye bina mere ek minute na gujre .uske upar hak jata sakti hu agar uski jagah koi or hota to me nahi kar pati vo itna pyara peso se anjan nahi hai mehnat me aage sabke liye aklele lad jana mere liye hamesa khade rahna syad kabhi koi nahi karta kise apne k liye ek din yesa kab aayga jab uska hath mere hatho me hoga kya ho payga yesa .syad mene jyada soch liya .vo mujhe mil jayega dekhte hai nahi vo lakire mere hath me .