Chapter 1 - MERI SURUAATI ZINDAGI

Mera nam srishti h ... Bs akeli srishti.....Bahout miss krti hu wo din jab apni marji ki malik thi .. krne ko kuch nhi tha ... Kahne vale bhi nhi the ... Pr kahte h na apni zindagi ke sabse badhe dushman ham khud hi hote h achi life thi meri ... Likhna bhi bahut h lgta h pura app khatm ho jayega pr me kabhi likh nhi paungi... Me ek sundar ache ghar parivar se pandit parivar se thi or hu bhi .. ek naam or rutva tha tab mere pass ... Ha me chhoti thi or chhoti hu 20 saal ki age kya h ... Meri in 20 salo ki zindagi kese mene tahas nahas kr li samjh nhi aata wo rutba jo aaj yad aa rha h pta nhi kyu usko yad krti hu jo mene khud khoya ... Pahle darpok bhi thi rutba to bad me aaya .... Bht darpok thi ... Pahle ek ese school me pdi thi jaha ke sir bina soche samjhe ladki ladke ka farak dekhe bina hi sabko marte the bina bat ke bhi marte the principal the apna ghar ka gussa nikalte the ... Apne ghar kise bolti us sir se to koi muh lagana pasnd nhi krta tha kyuki wo parents tak ka lihaas nhi krte the .. me unse pahle kabhi nhi piti bus unhe dekh kr dar ke mare kisi kone me dupak jati thi.. class me aate the to pichhe bath jati thi taki unko dikh na paau ... Par kya h na suruaat me kisi ki kahani intred nhi lgti pr meri kahani alg h jise padne me susaat me bahout question aayenge ya fir padne vale boring manenge par jo ise ek real zindagi ke tor pr dekhega to samjh jayega ki ye meri kahani nhi koi movie h ... Us ne jab 7 me aayi tab un sir se mera samna hua jab me prayer me galati kr bethi thi tb mere per bhi kaap uthe the ki ab mere sath kya hoga pr hua bhi vahi jo mene shayd sapne me bhi nhi socha tha kyuki ye school 8th Tak ka tha to me ye soch kr free thi ki nursery se 7th me aa gyi ab bhala is sir se pitungi ... Pr bhagvan ne galatfehmi door kr di ... Us din prayer ki ek galti me sir ne akhbar ka roll banaya or mujhe gira gira kar mara. ... Me tab shirt or scurt pahnti thi socho kitni sharm lagi hogi itne bachho ke bich pitna or mera dhyan pitayi pr tha kisi teacher ne unhe nhi roka ki ladki scurt me h acha nhi lag rha ... Pr khair piti or ladys teacher ne kaha ki tumhari galti thi to saja mili .. us din ke bad se dil me ek khouf sa bath gya .. teachers se bahout dar lagne lga .. ab 8th me aayi... To just office ke samne vali class me bethna pda vahi 8th class thi tb or dar lga ki round lagate time sabse pahle wo 8th me hi jate the isliye me all time sadme me rahti thi ki na jane kab aa jaye or kya dekh kr marne lge .... Aate bhi bahout shanti se the or aate hi khade ho jate the najar rakhte the ... 8th me aayi to ek new student bhi aayi vashnavi shrma ... Uska new addmission tha ham pahle hi dosti krte usse pahle uske karname ne mujhe fr pitva diya ... Pichhe mud mud sab ladko or ladkiyo se wo bat kr rhi thi or sir ne mujhe bulaya ki tujhe sharm nhi aati wo bat kr rhi thi to tu use rok sakti thi pr tu apne me magan bethi thi tb sir ne mujhe murga banaya me shram se laal thi ki me ab salvar suit pahnti hu ek ladki hu jo ab 8th me hu or apni me me badhi bhi ho chuki thi pr jo us din saja mili uske bad mene khud ko chhoti nhi ek esi nigah se dekha ki bina bat saja mili ... Papa bhi ghar me nhi rahte the kyuki wo truck driver the ...logo se papa ka job batao to bolte the ki truck driver bina daru piye gaadi nhi chalate h to Sharm se kuch dosto ko job bhi nhi batati thi bs bol deti thi ki ha mere papa kahi bahout badhe pethe ki shop pr muneem hai ... Bs sabki najar me ameer dikhne ka souk tha ...papa ghar kam aate the isliye unko sir ki bat batane me acha nhi lgta tha .. mummy khud sidhi sadhi darpok thi to kya hi kaha jaye ... Us din jab murga bani to wo hi new student vaishnavi sorry tak na boli bs hasti huyi chali gyi mere samne bol kr gyi ki ladki ko kabhi murga bante dekha h bs yahi se hamara aage ka safar sath sath hi suru hua jo aage Tak chala .... Hamesha dhoka .... 8th ke bad niklte to lock down lag gya isi bahane thoda school ke dar or presure se chutti mil gyi fr 1 sal bad ke rest ke bad 9th me addmission hua school nam se dar tha to admition to hua vaha pta chala ki meri hi class me sath sath addmission vaishnavi ka bhi hua h ... Me padne me suruaat me hu achhi thi isliye yaha aake dar ke sath sath bs mene padne me focus Kiya ... Or class me aage aage rahi or chidti rahi jab moniter banne ka number aaya to us din mujhe call krke kah diya ki aaj chutti h me uski frnd ban chuki thi isliye bharosa krke nhi gyi pr dekha to moniter jo me banne vali thi teacher ki najar me hi thi to wo ban gyi ... Ab roj class me ghuste hi uska tont bolna or mujhe chidana ... Yaha tak ki hamare callage me 4 colours ke ek ek moniter bante the me red group se thi isliye ab mujhe ummid huyi ki me red group ki moniter ban sakti hu pr ek ladki jo vashnavi ki frnd thi sofia ...vashnavi ne mam ko uska nam de Diya or wo moniter banne ke din hi nhi aayi pr us din teacher ne bola ki srishti tum ek din ki moniter ban jao red group ki or jb sofia aa jaye to batch use de Dena bs ek din ki sahi me moniter banke bahout khush huyi ki chalo ek din ka hi roub sahi ... Usi din pichhe ek gundi ladki thi calss me jisse koi nhi bolta tha moniter tk jhutke the uske samne me bhi nhi bolti thi pr usi class me meri ek frnd vani thi shifa ...wo mere liye or me uske liye kuch bhi kr sakti thi ... Cast ka kya materr h ham dono me jaan basti thi ... Usi din mam ne hame peticout katna sikhaya kyuki hamari home science ki class thi to mam ke jane ke bad usne mujhse bola ki use betichod bolte h.... Mujhe ye bura lga isliye mene mam se bola usne mam ke samne bol diya ki srishti jhoot bol rhi h isliye us din mam kuch nhi boli or chali gyi... mam ke jane ke bad wo calss ke gate me hi bethi thi mere aate hi mera coller pakad liya ki tu kuch din ki aayi huyi yaha hamari shikayat kregi .... Fr mene rone ki jagah apne andar us sir ka gussa bhara or fir ...