Jake POV
Don't get me wrong I'm not impotent or whatever just while kids were playing on the grass i was shown gun,when kids were bought toys i was given guns,when guys were chasing after girls i was being trained into the Mafia world i would be starved, beaten till blood comes out of my body and when men were chasing after ladies and getting horny i was the leader, king of mafia i fought with enemies, I've seen dead people, I've been shot, stabbed but luckily I'm still alive surprisingly. Then i felt someone touched my eyes i snapped it open and saw lily was crying??why??but the tears on her hands weren't hers then it must be mine!! is sighed ever since i was 12 I've never cried because I've always been told "crying makes one weak and it's only emotional people cry and they are weak " I've been through alot in life and tears never have come out of tears though i smash things , i held her hand and asked "why you crying??"she asked "why are you crying??" i smiled and said " I'm not crying just the fever making my water to come out of my eyes " she studied my face for a while i know she didn't buy the lie but she just nodded then i asked again "why you crying??""personal reasons " she replied i nodded and asked"wanna share??"she forced a smile and said " nahh not really " i nodded and wiped her tears with my thumb her cheeks were so soft,we looked at eachother until she coughed and said " I'll go prepare something for you eat " i nodded and she almost left then she turned back and said "what do you wanna eat?" "anything is ok as long as it's prepared by you " i replied and she blushed and studied me for a while then slammed the door and ran out . I snuggled on my bed why was I suddenly start feeling emotions??after years of my life I'm feeling h*rny,tears and care I've only felt for my uncles and the rascals and lily?? i don't know, sometimes i wonder how my skin is still flawless after the stabbings. Minutes later or probably hours later lily came back with a plate of food,she brought it closer and said excited " Lily's special-lasanga "it smells nice we stare at eachother again and i lean in,she did too then we kissed lily realized herself and pulled away. She ran towards the door with the lasagna then she came back dropped the food at the side table and ran off. I've mess things up...