Besides the official exams, I have for the next 4 weeks. I will not be posting any chapters until I get over my mental state.
Currently, I am experiencing both impostor syndrome and existential crisis. I think I'm also depressed since everything right now feels empty, but I dunno. I will still be writing the chapters, albeit at a slower pace. But I won't be posting them until my mindset returns to normal or I gain another enlightenment through discernment and deep study of my existential crisis, to the point of philosophy.
Strangely enough, this isn't the first existential crisis I've had, which became part of my philosophy. I should go back to normal in about a month, maybe after my graduation.
As for depression, well. I just want to sleep and laugh myself out of the world's absurdity, but pretty sure that my depression will be short-lived thanks to the enlightenment I achieved through my teenage years of learning philosophy and the state of humanity.
I regret maturing too early. I wanted to enjoy the world without learning too much about reality, without learning both the disgusting and virtuous sides of humans (even if they act like a child and throw their weight around. What's the point? None of us is important; we will all disappear in the stream of time. Nothing is important, which is why we need to cherish everything. Yet people discard that fact. I hate humanity so damn much, yet I love them because there are people who care and do their best to show kindness. Sorry for ranting.)
For impostor syndrome... I'm afraid that's going to stick around for much longer, but as long as one of you likes the story I am writing, no matter how much I thought that my story isn't entertaining or fun, I will keep writing for you.
Once again, I'm taking a break.