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BONDING
Pagpasok ko pa lamang sa Mansion ay agad akong dinagsa ng yapak ni Mama mangiyak-ngiyak ako nitong niyakap habang nakatingin sa aking mga mata agad naman akong umiwas rito ng tingin ayaw kong maging kawawa sa harapan nila.
My eyes were red and swollen i look like I've been crying for an hour akmang hahawakan ako nito ngunit umiwas ako rito,"K-Keyla saan ka ba galing?!" halos pabulong nitong tanong sa akin.
Hindi ko alam kung paano siya sa sasagutin na maayos naman talaga ang lagay ko, i was shock hindi ko alam na ganito pala ang magiging reaksiyon nya.
Nagtataka akong tumingin rito na panay pa rin ang yakap sa akin panay rin ang tanong nito kung okay lang ba ako.
"Keyla wag mo ng gawin yun ulit ha, don't scare mommy like that, K-Keyla alam ko na masama ang loob mo sa nangyari but please wag naman ganito." nagmamakaawang saad nito sa akin habang umaagos sa maamo nitong mukha ang mga luha nito.
I stilled i couldn't find a words to tell her that I am actually fine hindi ko inaasahan na ganito ang magiging reaksiyon nya.
"I'm fine, don't worry," aniko.
"Mi señorita, you're here, Mi señorito almost kill me after knowing that you've been gone for 6 hours," wika ng butler ko. Hinarap ko ito at nginitian.
"Don't worry i will call him," usal ko rito.
I look back at mom who's still sniffing and crying on me,"Why are you even crying?" i ask her like it was nothing.
"Who wouldn't be? you've been gone for almost six hours, we can't even contact your phone," mahabang salaysay nito sa akin, kahit hindi ko maamin i felt guilty after knowing about it.
"I'm sorry" tanging wika ko. My mom's eye wided and to my shock, she hug me tightly.
I couldn't admit that i like the feeling being with my mom's arms again after twelve years of longing for my mom's love. As i hug her back, mom even cry harder.
I still hate her but why not give her another chance right? tao din naman ako.
"Keyla, where did you go?" natigilan naman ako sa tanong nito then i remember my moment with Gael.
I couldn't hide my smile anymore tangina ang lakas talaga ng tama ko sa lalaking yun, i chuckle softly,"I meet someone today."
"Is she nice?" tanong nito kapag kuwan ay umiiling ako," It's not she, it's a he."
Mom was totally shock on what i said her lips was a bit open,"He? a man? goodness, is he nice?" tanong pa nito sa akin, i smiled then answered
"Very."
Mom's face soften."Oh, thank god,"
"You like him?" she asked me again about Gael which made my face turn red
" Of course n-no." mom chuckle on my reaction,"And it's weird if you would like someone you just meet," i said defending myself. Mom smile goes even wider.
"Hmm, it's not impossible, Dear. It possible that you would like him even tho you just meet him, aren't you familiar with the word love at first sight?" wika nito nanatiling nakatitig lamang ito sa akin.
"Uhm, I don't believe such things like that," i said.
"It's true, Dear. That's what i felt when i first saw your dad," wika nito na para bang inaalala ang kanilang nakaraan mom chuckled softly while reminiscing their past.
Umupo kami sa malaking sofa,"So you really fell for dad?" i ask out of curiosity. Mom nodded on my curious face.
"Love is a strong word, Keyla. don't tell it to someone if you can't prove it," she said sincerely.
Then why did you say it to dad when you can't prove your love for him? pinili ko na lamang ang manahimik keysa na sabihin ito.
Tumango naman ako rito nanatili lamang akong nakatingin sa kaniya, i knew something is wrong and i wanted to find out about it.
"Words are powerful, it can even shattered someone's confidence, so i understand!" i said while nodding on her, she smile widely maybe she didn't expect that her youngest daughter would be this understanding. At the age of eighteen i understand every situation i am in.
"You've been through a lot, am i right?" she ask, i stilled for a moment then slowly nodding my head.
Puno ng pagmamahal na hinaplos ni Mama ang buhok ko, it's been so long since she carries my hair like this.
Hindi naman ako umiwas ng haplosin ni Mama ang aking buhok, sa bawat haplos nito sa aking buhok ay natutunaw ang aking malamig na puso. it's healing my inner child i can't deny that i miss my mom's touch.
I am angry, very angry at her.
But my love for her didn't even fade, it's always been there longing for my Mom's love and care.
Ang aking nagbubugsong damdamin ay hindi ko na kayang pigilan pa, ang mainit na haplos ni mama na matagal ko nang hinahanap ay nararamdaman ko na ulit sa pangalawang pagkakataon, hindi ko inaasahan na pagkatapos ng ilang taon ay mararamdaman ko ito ulit.
"You're so gorgeous, Dear." mom said while caressing my slightly red cheeks.
I couldn't hide my smile anymore.
"How's your relationship with him?" she suddenly ask that made my cheeks burn i can feel my heartbeat so darn fast.
"Great, he's nice and I don't know if i meet someone like him before, his too genuine," kinuha ko ang unan sa tabi at pinisil-pisil ito mahina namang natawa si mama sa ginagawa ko napayuko na lamang ako at sinubsub ang sarili sa unan.
"Hmm you like him," it wasn't a question.
Mas lalong nag init ang mukha ko sa itinuran nito,"Is it still normal to like
someone you just met?" turan ko habang nakasubsub na mas ikinatawa nito.
Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig sa labis na hiya na nararamdaman, tangina labis na hiya ang nararamdaman ko nang mapagtanto ang sinabi ko.
"It's normal. Dear,"
Labis pa rin ang hiya na nararamdaman ko kahit nasa loob na ako ng aking silid, i want to stop my feelings for Gael.
I can't like Gael, I am a man hater but why does i'm being soft when it comes to Gael i was even too comfortable towards him.
A man hater, that was me before i met Gael but now i am slowly liking the man i just met.
'I can't like him, hindi pwede.' murmured out of nowhere.
Sumigaw ako sa loob ng kwarto at nagpagulong-gulong sa master bedroom ko, i don't freaking care kung may makarinig man sa akin kailangan kong mailabas ang nararamdaman ko.
"Meirda Meirda" i cussed.
Nang mapagod na ako kakagulong sa kama ay tumigil na ako at pumasok na sa bathroom para linisan ang aking katawan.
After i clean myself and did my night routine ay bumaba na ako upang kumain muna ng hapunan bago matulog.
"Mi señorita, Lady Flynn called earlier she's looking for you..."
Kali was looking on me? ano na naman kayang problema ng isang yun? is this about her cousin again?argh? kainis talaga ang pinsan nyang demonyita napaka santasantita ng isang yun!
I'm currently eating my dinner when Rafael called me, Dos cousin.
We just talk for a while and then i ended our call.
I text Kali, gladly she replied.
She was actually a busy person. But she always prioritize everyone who's important on her and I'm proud to say i am one of them.
"Kali? hey, you alright?" nag-aalalang tanong ko.
She laughed on me,"Uhm, I'm fine i guess..."
Kumunot ang noo ko sa huling sinabi nito.
Baliw talaga ang babaeng to!arghh.
"Kali..."
"Haisst! oo na, I'm not actually fine i have a huge problem Keyla, at ayaw kong idamay ka pa roon alam ko namang may problema ka ring hinaharap!"
Nakaramdam naman ako ng awa rito alam ko namang independent na siya noon pa man pero pwede naman nyang sabihin sa akin kung ano ang problema niya, matutulungan ko naman siya.
"Dos, ano ba! I told you to stay away from me, could you do that for me!?" halos pabulong nitong wika sa kausap nya kunot noo naman akong nakikinig sa kabilang linya.
Anong ginagawa ni Dos sa condo ni Kali? Teka may namamagitan ba sa kanila?
"Kali...what happened? Anjan ba si Dos?" tanong ko ngunit walang ni isa ang sumagot sa tanong ko rinig ko pa ang pagkabasag ng kung ano sa loob.
"K-Keyla, uhm i-it's n-nothing hinahanap nya lang si Kate," peke naman itong tumawa habang nauutal,"Uhm Keyla I'll call you later nalang."
Our call ended and it left me hanging.
I was just intently looking at the screen of my phone when a message suddenly pop out.
One message from Logan Montenegro.
I open it and read his message.
Logan Montenegro:
Keyla, you're in the Philippines right now? am i right?
Me:
Yes, bakit?
Logan:
You didn't tell me, I'm currently in New York, let's hangout when i return there.
Me:
Sure, busy ka ngayon?
Logan:
Not so busy, I attended a business meeting, ako pina attend ni Daddy, Why?
Me:
May kilala kang Tanner ang surname?
Me:
Hoy! Logan?!
Logan:
Ah, yes. Meron si Gael Tanner, he's a friend, bakit?
Shit, si Gael ba talaga yun uhm hindi lang naman siya ang Gael sa pilipinas diba? pero pano kung siya nga yun? wait! ano naman ngayon diba?
Kinakabahan ako kung anong i-re-reply kay Logan, chismoso pa naman ang isang yun baka ipagsabi pa niya.
Knowing Logan Montenegro, baka kung anong sabihin niya kay Gael edi may bad impression na agad ako dun, arghh! kairita naman nito.
"Ma'am..."
"Bakit po?" tanong ko sa maid na tumawag sa akin,"Pinapatawag po kayo ni Maam Aleesa."
"Bakit daw?" kunot noo kong tanong rito."Hindi ko po alam," sagot nito.
Sinundan ko naman ito nang mag lakad na ito papunta sa itaas. Ano na naman kayang trip ng babaeng yun?
Agad kaming nakarating sa labas ng kwarto ni Aleesa, kinatok ito ni Ateng maid agad naman itong nag paalam sa akin na mauuna na raw siya tinanguan ko naman ito bilang sagot.
Pinagbuksan ako ng pinto ni Aleesa kaya pumasok na ako rito, Silence filled us.
Aleesa break then the silence between us,"Keyla i just want to apologize, uhm sinabi na sa akin ni mama ang totoo and i want to say sorry dahil sa amin nagkahiwalay ang uhmm you know-"
"It's fine, beside it's already in the past we can't change it," putol ko sa sasabihin niya.
Tumango naman ito sa sinabi ko nag usap pa kami ng ilang bagay, clearing everything between us.
"Keyla, I'm really sorry," nahihiyang wika nito, hindi man lang ito makatingin ng deritso sa aking mata dahil na rin siguro sa hiyang nararamdaman.
Ngumiti lamang ako rito wala na akong balak magsalita pa,"Uhm if you don't need anything, I will go now!"
Niyakap ako nito, nabigla naman kami ng biglaang bumukas ang pintoan ng kwarto ni Aleesa i mean ate Aleesa.
It's mom she's staring at us with a smile formed on her lips."I'm glad nagkaayos na kayong dalawa!" dahan-dahan itong lumapit sa amin habang nakangiti pa rin.
"We're fine now, Ma. it's better this way," ngiting wika ni ate Aleesa rito.
"Hmm, matulog na kayo maaga pa tayo bukas,"
"Bukas?"
Sabay pa naming wika ni Ate Aleesa tinawanan naman kami ni Mommy dahil rito.
"Aha bukas, hmm basta, sige na magsitulog na kayo!"
"Ma we're going to sleep over in my room, right Keyla?"
Oh shit muntik ko ng makalimutan mag s-sleep over nga pala kami ngayon as a sister daw kuno.
Pakana niya yun, we're going to talk a lot of things daw.
"Ha?! uhm sige mauna na ako,"
Tumango lamang kami rito, pinagpagan nya muna ang kama bago kami humiga rito,"Hmm what do you think?!"
"Ha?"lutang kong tanong.
"I mean anong magandang gawin ngayon?" ay akala ko ano.
"I don't know,"
Tumayo ito sa kama at lumabas ng kwarto, tumayo rin ako at pumunta sa mini sala set na nasa loob ng kwarto niya hinanda ko ang lamesa at binuksan ang tv na nasa kwarto niya nag hanap naman ako ng p-puwede naming panoorin.
Nasa kalagitnaan ako ng pag pili ng biglang bumukas ang pintoan ng kwarto."Keyla? sorry natagalan nagpaluto pa kasi ako kay Manang ng popcorn e,"
Tumango ako sa sinabi nito pinaglandasan ko naman ng tingin ang mga dala niya sa tray.
Nasa isang malaking bowl ang popcorn,may grahams din na nasa malaking lagayan at tapioca na nasa malaking lagayan rin.
Nilapag niya ito sa lamesa at tinulungan akong pumili ng papanoorin naming dalawa.
"Ito nalang," sabay pakita ng CD na Romeo and Juliet tumango naman ako rito.
Nasa kalagitnaan na kami ng pinapanood ng bigla itong magsalita.
"Did you know? love is really scary lalo na kung forbidden ito," tiningnan ko naman ito ng may pagtataka.
"I mean just look at Romeo and Juliet ang hirap kaya ng sitwasyon nilang dalawa diba it's a forbidden love kasi," wika pa nito na agad ko namang sinang-ayunan.
Bumuntong hininga ito habang nakatingin sa selpon niya pang-ilang beses na niya nyang check sa selpon nya ako yung nahihilo sa pinaggagawa niya, mukhang may inaantay ata siya.
Halos umiyak na siya habang nakatingin sa screen ng selpon niya 'not again, please' rinig ko na bulong niya binalingan ko naman ito ng tingin.
"You okay?" she nodded on me while tears streaming down to her cheeks.
"Palagi nalang ganito!"she suddenly blurted out.
"What?!"
Nanginginig niya akong tiningnan,"I had a boyfriend Keyla, we're almost 3 months in a relationship, after a long time admiring him his finally mine."she said while crying,"Then why are you crying?! aren't you glad na sayo na siya?" her smile went wider as she stared at me.
"I'm glad, but his not the type of boyfriend who will always be there when you need him, his not sweet, his not giving me a bouquet of flowers, or giving me a long sweet message,"she stated."But, his my everything, Keyla. hindi ko kaya na makita siyang masaya sa iba, i know i am so selfish at this point, ipagdadamot ko siya kung kinakailangan." i nod agreeing on her.
"He is a well-known playboy. Keyla,"
I suddenly think about Logan, magiging ganito rin ba ka broken ang magiging girlfriend nya dahil babaero ang isang yun.
"I am a bitch, Keyla. inakit ko siya para maging akin siya nang tuluyan not minding na magiging ganito ang sitwasyon ko," she smiled sadly.
Argh!I really hate playboys kaya nilalayo ko ang sarili sa mga lalaking ganun. If I were going to have a boyfriend I would only want him to be loyal and faithful to me.
She keeps talking about her playboy boyfriend, she even tells me na gusto daw niya itong ipakilala sa akin ng personal.
Meet up? damn really?! hindi talaga ako sisipot kung gan'on.
"I know he won't like you, kaya mapapanatag ako, He hates mean girls, I mean you're kinda rude when you speak," nakangiting wika niya na ikinatawa ko naman.
I really love random compliments.