"Can I hug you?" he asked once again.
"No."
"Why not?" he objected. In the blink of an eye, his tone changed, from flirty to an innocent puppy who is wiggling his tail from side to side.
Must be pleasant for others but, for me it was annoying.
"Not in mood."
"Then-then another time?"
"Depends."
His eyes shine once again from the single thread of hope.
I sigh.
Kevin where are you? Come back already.
"Can-"
"Shut your mouth and lemme rest." I warned cutting him off. Not bothering to hear more of his babbling. He immediately followed my words like an order and shut his mouth. But still, his gaze lingered on me.
"And stop staring at me like that."
"Okey!" He agreed and lay flat on the ground, gazing at the vast sky.
Fuckkkkkkkkk! I wasn't even able to sleep properly when I came back home from the mall. And that freaking-big-parasitic-gorilla ruined my entire fucking mood. He only show himself at my peaceful and quiet moment with Li Xifeng and then, boom, my mood would be ruined for the whole freaking day. It's so annoying!
...
Slowly, fragment memories of the earlier unknown hallucination flashed in my mind. Forcing me to think even deeper than before. Every single hallucinations I had been having, there was one common man. A man dressed in royal blue robes, who is suffering more than words could describe. Each and every emotion he had been feeling in my... dreams or hallucination felt real. Somehow, I was able to feel his pain, to feel his emotions way clearer than he could. As if, I was the royal blue robed man.
Haitang tree... Lotus carved hilt... Crescent moon... Wounded men...
I didn't even realise when my mind slowly started to connect the thread. Specially about that blue robed man. And that wounded man came two times, once with that lotus and crescent moon carved hilt, and another time... When he was stabbed in front of my own two damn eyes. It's like I am watching a movie, first part one and then part two with different scene.
Can it be that he really died, because of the part two of my movie like dream. He was kneeling and some people who were hidden in cloak stabbed him in front of me... That royal blue robed man, again and again until the ground was soaked in crimson pool. Yet, he didn't show any traits of weakness or pain. He was just gazing at me... I mean the royal blue robed man who was tied with thick chains. His gaze was warm, I had felt them. Impossible-but I had felt them. Like they weren't just ordinary dreams but a part of my me, of my memory which I no longer remember.
Can it be that, that cloaked people killed him and then killed me too? I guess not, because he had came in my hallucination when I was with that bastard gorilla. So it means, he wasn't stabbed by those people. Are the threads really connecting or are they just my overthinking imagination? I can't tell.
Fuck! Fuck! Let me rest for a bit. Why can't I just stop overthinking? Theses are so freaking annoying. WHY!?
I just want some rest. Some quiet moments without the storm in my head. Since New Year night, I can't fully focus on one thing. Not everything is going right since then. Super strange things keeps happening. But why?
"GUYSSSSS!"
Someone shouted, so loudly that my eardrum almost bursted.
"What the hell?" Li Xifeng commented as he sat.
Who else could it be? Of course the most loudest among us, the most social among us, the most excited, anxietyless among us, none other than-
"Kevin..." I murmured.