(ZEVRAN)
I hadn't shared a bed with another omega since Lukas had died. I'd sat in chairs while omegas I'd hired sucked my dick, but I hadn't been in an actual bed with one since he'd passed.
The heat from Asa's naked body reached me on my side.
His scent filled my nostrils, making my cock hard as steel. I could feel his anxiety, and I pretended to be asleep just so he'd relax. I allowed a little fake snore to escape my lips, and he seemed to immediately calm.
I truly had only climbed into the bed because that pink chair was disgusting.
I had no plans of pouncing on Asa. Not that it wasn't tempting. Undressing him had been difficult. I'd done my best to keep my lust at bay, but my mouth had watered at the sight of his full cock.
His body was fucking perfect. Lean but well-muscled. I could just imagine his sinewy thighs spread as I pounded into his tight virgin ass.
Squeezing my eyes closed, I kept my breathing even. I hadn't wanted anyone this much since Lukas. Even with Lukas, my desire had been passionate, but not so base. Animalistic.
We'd had a beautiful, loving sex life. We'd respected each other and been equals. But with Asa, I kept having really dirty thoughts. I wanted to fuck him on the floor. In the shower. In public. My sexual fantasies about him were embarrassing, and they just made me more confused.
I'd loved Lukas more than anyone or anything in the world, but I couldn't deny that my lust for Asa was almost overpowering. The minute I'd seen him, something carnal had sparked to life inside of me. My longing for Asa was quite different from what I'd felt with Lukas. I
'd worshipped and revered Lukas' body. When we'd made love, I'd been engulfed in a warm, golden haze. But when I thought of sex with Asa, it was feral and dirty. Asa tapped into my rawest wolf instincts, and I wanted to own him. Devour him.
I'm losing it.
To protect my pride, I'd lied and told him I didn't want to breed him. I was full of shit. I wanted to breed him so bad, I could fucking taste it. I wanted to knot inside him and fill him with my seed. I yearned to have him wiggling on the end of my dick, begging for my cum.
His scent drove me insane. I felt slightly addicted to his sweet aroma. It embarrassed me how much I loved his smell. He was like a pure white blossom, and I felt like a black bumblebee, driven to pollinate him.
I gritted my teeth, struggling to control my lust.
I hadn't been lying about needing sleep, but I was so hard I wasn't sure I could sleep. The sound of his breath and the heat of his body so close drove me nuts. Perhaps it had been a mistake to get in bed with him. I still had my underwear on, but I knew perfectly well he was completely naked. It would be so easy to overpower him and take what I wanted.
My dick throbbed at the thought, but I buried my face in my pillow. I wasn't that kind of alpha. If I treated Asa like that, I was no better than Nigel.
I didn't want to hurt or scare Asa. I hungered for his body, but I also wanted his respect. I wanted him to like me, even if I didn't do enough to encourage that.
In desperation, I pictured Lukas. I imagined holding him close, inhaling his familiar woodsy scent. He'd have held me tight and comforted me. He'd had such a gentle, nurturing nature. That was why he'd told me to live a happy life without him. He hadn't wanted me to suffer alone. Even in death, Lukas had been thinking of me. And even though he'd permitted me to move on, I found myself stuck. I was like a loyal dog, lying beside my master's grave for all eternity.
When Asa gave a soft whimper, I stilled. His breathing was deep, so I knew he'd fallen asleep.
He jerked a little, muscles moving as he dreamed. Who knew what he'd been through in his young life. It must have been horrible having his dreams ripped away and his family name disgraced by his father. Lukas' family had been wealthy, so he'd never suffered the way an omega lower on the social scale might.
An omega like Asa.
I turned over slowly, trying not to make the mattress bounce. My eyes were adjusted to the darkness, but Asa had his back to me, so I couldn't see his expression. He might have been having a good dream. Not all whimpers were bad.
However, instinctively, I felt like Asa didn't have many happy thoughts. His life was very stressful at the moment. Probably had been for some time now.
An aching desire to comfort him settled in my chest. I ignored it, naturally. I couldn't comfort Asa because he didn't trust me.
Was that something I could fix, or would he always be leery of me? My threat about sharing him with other alphas had truly scared him. I hadn't realized he'd take me so seriously. I'd need to guard my words more with Asa.
Lukas and I had known each other so well, he'd understood that when I got upset, I said things I didn't mean. But Lukas had also been secure in my love for him. He'd had money of his own, so my threats hadn't been so terrifying for him.
I couldn't bluff with Asa the way I had Lukas. He was different. Younger. He had different needs. He'd require more patience from me.
"No," Asa whispered, still dreaming. "Don't hurt me," he mumbled.
I wasn't sure if I should wake him or let him be. If I touched him, I might startle him awake. Would that shock be better than living the nightmare he was in?
When he cried out, I couldn't stop myself. I scooted toward him, and I touched his shoulder.
"Asa, it's okay," I said softly. "You're safe."
I felt him wake up immediately, and without a word, he rolled over and hugged me. Shocked at his response, I froze, not sure what to do. He buried his face against my bare chest, and the feel of his naked body against mine took my breath away. He was trembling, and I couldn't help wrapping my arms around him.
"Nigel, he— he—" Asa shuddered, and a sob tore from his throat. "Don't let him hurt me, Zev. Please."
I tightened my arms. "No. Of course not."
He pushed closer, his warm breath coming quick and shallow.
I stroked his back. "Shhhh. You're safe, Asa. It was just a bad dream."
He didn't speak. He simply held tight to me.