*In this chapter, Illiana (Jenny) was lying on her sofa with the book in hand, just staring at the ceiling while slowly processing her emotions*
I cried for what felt like hours...
My life had been a lie, I was simply a factor to strengthen the lead character's love for each other...
Was my feeling ever my own...?
Or did someone pry into my life?
Well, the story wasn't even about me...
The hateful words of other people never stung...
But when it came from the Alexander...it stung badly
But something had been bugging me for a while now...
'I came here after I fell down the stairs'
But in the book, it said
"She slapped Elena, dragged her by the hair and pushed her down the stairs, Jealous of the pink diamond gifted by the prince"
'yes i was planning to drag her down the stairs...but then fell myself?'
'Since all the events beforemy fall had been accurate....and if Elena really fell down the stairs....then what happened after is the future'
'But what happens now? Instead of her, I fell down the stairs...What would it change?'
I flipped through the pages of the book once more
'I need to find what happened afterwards!'
"Elena fell down the stairs painfully. By the time she reached the bottom, she was entirely covered in her own blood.
She saw Illiana screaming for help, but she didn't fail to notice that glint in her eyes
'She is happy,' Elena thought, before she lost consciousness.
The crown prince was informed immediately. The temple got involved. Even though he was well aware of the culprit, He had no proof. Accusing the duke's daughter of attempted murder without proof will only cause Elena more harm.
But he couldn't let this go.
The duke was informed discreetly. Action was taken,
Illiana Noctis was imprisoned in her own room for an entire month. With punishment and disciplinary actions."
'I knew what fathers' punishments and disciplinary action were!... I'd be starved with only one stale bread a day and some spoiled milk'
Desperation makes one do many things, like consuming stale bread and spoiled milk.
(no i wasn't justifying my actions when I regret nothing!)
Then again, there are other things that started to make sense.
'Elena was dense...that woman never realised Alexander loved her, so all this time I had been angry at her...while I should have been angry at him'
'He could've annulled the engagement a long time ago. There was no reason to be engaged to me; if it was strengthening the throne, the Marquess Harrington's daughter was a better candidate. I was actually second in place for the crown princess candidate; I only won because the empress dowager seemed to favour me'
'Even if you were enduring...he could've said something!... anything....Why did you pretend to love me back then if you hated me this much? What did you even gain??'
Although I had been crying about the kiss, He never kissed her until our engagement was annulled, And i skipped the last few chapters...it physically pained me to read their lovemaking and how many children they had....
Even after knowing such truths...my feelings towards Alexander remained stubborn.
Even after realising Elena was truly innocent, my hatred towards her was still there, way less but still there
'ah...'
I was crying again