Chapter:59 Loki's First Crush" - Is it wrong for a Godslayer to Have a harem goddesses

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"The mortal way?"

"We're going to talk about it. That's how normal people overcome difficult feelings. We talk."

Loki snorted. "Talk? Like that's going to solve anything. Gods don't talk. Gods stay put and let their feelings fester and bottle up, before letting it all explode in gigantic displays of power that end up creating amazing natural phenomena."

"That's exactly what we're trying to avoid, Loki. We're doing this. Everyone's worried. Even Aiz is. She broke another record when she reached Level Six, and all you did was pat her on the back. Loki, something is wrong with you, and you know it."

Riveria knew that bringing up Aiz had been the right decision when guilt flashed across Loki's face.

"Ah, right. Aiz reached Level Six. I can't believe I forgot about that." Loki let out a sigh. "Fine. We'll try this your way. Let's talk."

Riveria allowed herself to smile, bringing herself to sit across Loki on her bed.

"So," she began. "Kusanagi Godou."

"Yes. Kusanagi Godou. Everything is his fault," Loki grumbled.

Riveria had half a mind to agree with her. But on hindsight, barring the little display with Lancelot, she'd realized almost everything had been out of his control. "Let's talk about him then. What do you think of Kusanagi Godou?"

The question wasn't just to help Loki express herself, but also to sate Riveria's personal curiosity. Loki treated Kusanagi Godou differently from virtually everyone else, even fellow Gods. She wanted to know why.

"Stupid. Annoying. Ungrateful," Loki listed off.

"You're going to have to be honest if this is going to work," Riveria said gently.

Inwardly, she found herself starting to actually compare Loki to an angsty teenage girl. She knew that Gods, in Heaven, perceived emotions differently in their Divine Forms. Because of that, Loki must have been experiencing some feelings for the first time, considering that her human form wasn't that old. She hoped that this wasn't going to be as troublesome as explaining puberty to Aiz had been.

"I was honest," Loki protested. "At least, I was for the last one."

"Ungrateful?"

Loki nodded.

"Why do you think that, Loki?"

"Why?" Loki repeated. "Did you not see him snogging with Lancelot back then? I mean, all this time, I've been extra nice to him, visiting him at the Hostess almost everyday, inviting him to join the Familia and all that. But then he's always turned me down, and suddenly he has the nerve to do that with another goddess so shamelessly?"

Riveria was a little taken aback at Loki's outburst. And confused, too. "What's one have to do with the other? Joining your Familia has nothing to do with Godou being in a relationship with another God."

"Don't you get it, Riveria?" Loki exclaimed. "I wanted him to pick me! But he chose Lancelot!"

That answer did nothing to abate Riveria's puzzlement. "What are you talking about? Godou and Lancelot have clearly been together before he met you. Did you expect him to cut ties with his existing goddess just for you?"

"Well...yeah," Loki admitted. "He can't have two goddesses. That's not fair."

"Why not?" Riveria asked. "I mean, obviously, Godou's going to pick her over you if he's forced to choose."

Loki scowled. "You're supposed to be on my side," she said.

"I'm on nobody's side," Riveria said. "It's the truth. Godou's known Lancelot longer and better."

"Well, I still want him," Loki said, hugging her pillow tightly against her chest. "I want him so badly that it hurts. But he already has Lancelot, so now I don't know what to do."

Want him so badly that it...hurt?

Riveria blinked. This was starting to sound almost as if Loki...

She shook her head to rid herself of the thought. That was impossible...right?

She had to make sure. "Loki. Do you...like Kusanagi Godou?"

Loki looked at her as if she'd asked a stupid question. Riveria thought it was too, but it still had to be asked nonetheless.

"Of course I like him. Why would I not? I mean he's a nice guy, once you peel him away from Lancelot, that blonde upstart. And he helped you guys out in the Dungeon, how could I ever hate him for that?"

Riveria felt the corners of her lips get pulled down. While Loki had answered her question, she had a feeling her God had grossly misunderstood the question.

"I mean, romantically. Do you have romantic feelings for Godou?"

Loki tilted her head. "You mean love?"

"Yeah, something like that."

Loki readily shook her head. "Nuh uh. The one I love is Aiz."

Riveria opened her mouth. But then she didn't really know what to say. She knew Aiz held a special place in Loki's heart, but Riveria was quite certain that it was a different kind of love than the one she was talking about. Loki probably saw Aiz as something like a favorite...pet?

She immediately scolded herself for degrading Aiz like that, but she could think of no better analogy. But that opened up a whole other can of worms.

Was Loki so emotionally obtuse?

"What?" the God asked, as Riveria stared at her intensely. "Why'd you go all quiet?"

She didn't know how else to say it. "Loki, I think you're in love with Kusanagi Godou."

"Did you not hear what I just said? I love Aiz."

Fine, I'll rephrase it," Riveria said in annoyance. "You have a crush on Kusanagi Godou."