"Minju…!" he whispered against my neck.
My heart shook.
"What's wrong? Are you okay?" I asked quickly.
I wanted to act like I didn't care.
But how could I…?
When the person I love is in pain?
"Are you okay?" I asked again.
He didn't answer.
He just stammered softly, like he didn't even have the strength to speak.
I quickly sat on the bed and gently pulled him down, placing his head on my chest.
Slowly… I stroked his hair.
Again and again.
"I don't want to be angry anymore…" I whispered.
"Are you alright?" I asked softly.
But I didn't hear his voice.
Only his slow breathing.
He had already fallen asleep.
Right there… on me.
"Jimin-ah…" I called quietly.
No answer.
He was really asleep.
I smiled a little.
Maybe…
Maybe he would choose me this time.
Maybe he would stop being an idol…
And stay.
With me.
Slowly, I moved his head and placed it gently on the bed.
I was about to stand up
But suddenly....
His arm pulled me back.
My breath stopped.
He held my waist.
"Minju…" he whispered.
I turned to look at him.
His eyes were closed.
Was he really asleep?
I watched his face.
His soft lips.
His dark eyebrows.
His blonde hair falling over his forehead.
His long eyelashes…
My hand moved on its own.
I touched his face gently.
Warm.
Soft.
Then suddenly....
His hand pulled me closer.
"Jimin…" I laughed softly.
But he was still asleep.
Or at least…
It looked like it.
I smiled.
And stayed there.
Just looking at him.
Until…
I fell asleep too.
*******
"Ahh…!" I gasped, covering my mouth as I woke up.
I sat up quickly.
I wanted to see him.
Talk to him.
Ask him the choice he made.
But
As soon as I opened my eyes fully…
There was no one there.
My heart dropped.
"…Was it a dream?"
Again?
Just my imagination?
"Am I… going crazy?" I whispered.
Did I want him so much…
That I started to feel him?
To see him?
I stood up slowly.
"No… he was here."
"I know he was…"
I walked to the window.
"Jimin…" I called softly.
My voice shook.
"Jimin…"
Tears rolled down my face.
"I know you were here…"