Chapter 3 - Chapter three. "The breakup slash-up"

after what happened between me and Kyle. I cant look at him the same. I cant even look at myself the same. most days I feel like a zombie now. who am I kidding. I always do. this is making me suffer more. I'm not eating anymore. and I started cutting myself.i don't talk to anyone and I'm mainly sleeping. everyone asks what's wrong. I don't want to tell them. me and evan started talking again. he's the only person I feel safe talking too or being around anymore, of course, we don't talk at school, as he's busy with Kiana. I wake up. I realize I have been sleeping. its 3:27 in the morning. my body is sweating even though I'm cold. I open my phone to see a text from Kyle, I feel exited and go to open the text. I read it. "Hey. there's something I need too say Izzy. I've been cheating on you with Annie, you just don't give me what I need. were over Isabell. I never wanted you in the first place, your body was just hot. but I see why Annie wears baggy clothes now. lmao. bye loser." Im staring at the screen. I start crying and screaming I'm hitting and hitting my walls. " I NEED TO FUCKING CALM DOWN." I throw everything off my dresser in search of my razor blade. I find it. I run too the bathroom. "FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!! I FUCKING HATE MYSELF." I scream and cry I take the blade push it deep into my skin and cut away. its not helping. I'm bleeding all over. the wound are fatal. I don't care. nothing could hurt more than he hurt me. I don't feel anything. I keep repeating the cuts going deeper and deeper each time. I decide its my time to go. I grab my pills and down them. I'm feeling dizzy. I pass out.