You may be wondering how I managed to keep myself away from her for all that time, I lied. I could not stay away from her. You may call it stalking but I call it checking on the person you love without them finding out and hiding so that they do not spot you.
She found out. After two weeks of me following her after work in a way that was totally not creepy then she emailed me. I do not know where she got my email address but she wrote a rather long email.
'Good evening sir. Listen up, I do not care whether you are an Alpha or an omega, I already told you the other day to stay away from me, your seem to have this crazy obsession over me but let me tell you one thing, I absolutely do not have any feelings for you so stay away.
Thank you a lot for telling Mr Quinnell nothing is going on between us, at least you did that right.
Good bye.'
Honestly it amused me how bold she was but the fact that she had called me a stalker and thanked me in the same email was quite confusing. I wanted to respect her wishes so this time I actually stayed away. I wanted to get over her because I believed that there would be no time when she would look at me the same way she looked at him.
The look of adoration in her eyes as she watched him work. How her face would light up when she saw him smile. How she was always looking at him through the glass panels as he worked. She would run so fast a smile plastered all over her face when he called her name even for the most trivial things. How it would completely ruin her day if he was in a foul mood.
I wished that once just once she would look at me like that but she did not. The day that she saw me the look on her face completely changed. She looked at me with hatred burning in them that I could not change it.
As I watched her watch someone else I felt a pang in my heart. A new emotion.
I recalled seeing the same thing with my parents. They were the first in our lineage to get married because they were in love with each other. My mother was a low rank Omega before she became the Luna of the pack. Everybody had refused to be ruled by an Omega when a female Alpha existed but my father had said that he would not become the Alpha any longer if they refused to let him marry his love.
The marriage was allowed and it went in without an hitch. As I grew up I thought it was a fairytale and in that moment I actually believed in fated mates. As I grew up however it all changed. Just like in my life at the moment, my mother would always be looking at my father but he would be looking at someone else.
I remember her face. She had skin that was as clear as glass. Her hair was long and silky. I never got to know who she was but I knew that she was the reason my mother would cry herself to sleep every night as my father drunk scotch by the fireplace.
I knew that the reason my mother hurt was because she actually cared for and loved my father. The other powerful people in arranged marriages seemed to co-exist without an hitch because they were both in it for their mutual financial and power benefit no feelings attached.
I had vowed that I would never get attached to anyone. It was not for my sake. I knew that I was incapable of feeling love so it was so that she would not get hurt by me. I never wanted anyone to cry themselves to sleep because of me. Funny how I thought I would be doing the hurting, huh.
This reminded me of that so in my desperation not to turn into my mother I opted to stay away from her.
I sunk myself into work and I did not think of her until the day that there was supposed to be a full moon at night. I could not get her out of my mind the whole day knowing that my mark on her body would be completely erased that night. She was probably excited that she would get rid of any reminder of me in her life and that made it even harder to bear.
"Sir, are you even listening? " A voice asked.
I turned around in my chair to find Fenrir standing over my desk.
"You startled me, when did you get here?" I asked visible shocked.
"I have been here for over fifteen minutes. What were thinking about that you did not hear me? You probably heard nothing I said." He said visibly disappointed sighing.
"Repeat." I said " or just skip and tell me the important stuff."
"Your engagement has been scheduled. She is from a powerful family. She is a cross breed between a Beta and Zeta." He said exiting.
Before I could ask any question he was already out the door. I guessed that was to get back at me for not listening.
I was about to get engaged. An arranged marriage, it was perfect. No need to follow any of that stuff about fated mates that made no sense to me at all. All I had to do was marry her for both her sake and mine and everything would go smoothly from there.
And one last time I was tempted to go to her place and tell her that I was getting married and that if she even felt the slightest bit of regret in letting me go this was her final chance to be with me.
I felt like running through the border of her territory and risk getting killed but I did not. That night as I watched the sun set and the full moon rise I felt anything the only last connection to her get cut.
" Please don't get married" A familiar voice said behind me.