Today I met some amazing souls in one of my tiktok live feed where we interact with each other and I found out a lot about them.
They – each – have distinct characteristics but surprisingly so many things in common. Yes they all have. Look, I observe a lot and I do that unconsciously but I observed.
In the live feed, I was the only girl present and they didn't made me feel weird for all the answers I gave that were actually weird.
From my observation, I deduced that men like serenity not as much as they will like to admit. They do! All the guys I spoke with – they were about seven at most – they wanted a quiet life that goes 'booom booom' whenever they want and that's not a bad thing. Why? Good question, they go 'booom booom' when they have someone to go 'booom booom' with.
They associate most times, not because they want to, but because they have someone that wants to. And that brings us back to the friends thing, when I said I don't have much friends to keep me on the edge of life.
One of them precisely, was just like me, wants to earn money, have a good life, had people who pat on us, only look back on our background to know how to shape our future, believes in love even though we had had terrible relationship partners, we are care in giving out our trust and why and to who, we love our own private space, believe in no matter how much money we need, we can't kill ourselves in getting it. Look the list goes on with this one. I felt connected with him. But what can one do except to turn a blind eye?
But we have a difference here, just one difference differentiate him and I; he don't know how to save. And believe you me that I want to help him learn how to. But I can't! At least not without endangering my heart.
I love helping, in the little ways that I can, I love to help but at the expense of what? Some price I don't pay not even HELP wants to strangle me.
But then I pushed the feeling aside, I wanted out so I got myself out. I didn't push myself to learn more about him, I just hope that God will find a way to help him learn how to save. He's so scared of losing what he already have for himself, but he is terrible at saving money that comes his way.
Well, some things you can't fence. Not because you can't, but because you can't bear the consequences that comes with you doing so.
To be candid, I feel alone maybe that's why I felt connected to him. But at the tail end, I hope he learns how to save though. Like I hate mismanagement of things, most especially funds that you can use to make or buy things, I don't like it.
Did I also mentioned he had only one friend who is also his best friend? Oh, my bad, he have a friend that is also his best friend, same as me!
He don't jibe the life of the party, just like me. He appreciates the little he has which is – to me – beautiful. When one does not learn to appreciate the little he has at a moment, do you think that person can be able to appreciate things that are big and in their numbers? Absolutely no, you can't expect that person to be responsible with the big things when he doesn't appreciate the little ones.
When you appreciate the little ones, you always get motivated to keep pushing for the bigger things. And when the bigger things finally come around, you won't misuse the resources you have, not even if you tried!
So I observed, I always do and we have a few in common, but does that matter? A big fat no. But what matters is that we are on the right path and staying on that path until we find out why.
To be frank, I stop pushing myself a long time ago, I belief in myself and always cheerlead myself because I found out that no one else would do that for me except me.
I also observed that going live on Tiktok isn't that bad!