The first night alone was the hardest.
Not because I was afraid—but because there was nothing left to distract me.
The apartment was small, almost empty. A bed. A table. A chair by the window. No familiar scents. No voices bleeding through walls I had known my entire life. The city outside hummed in a language I was still learning to understand.
I lay on my back, staring at the ceiling until dawn painted it pale gold.
I did not cry.
I had already cried enough before I left.
---
In the Lu residence, sleep never came.
My parents sat in the living room long past midnight, the lights left on as if I might walk through the door at any moment. My mother replayed every memory she could grasp, every moment she had assumed I was fine because I had never said otherwise.
"She smiled," my mother whispered. "She never complained."
My father said nothing.
He was beginning to understand something too late.
That a quiet daughter did not mean a happy one.
---
Gu Chengyi read the same email three times without processing a word.
"No confirmed location. Multiple possible routes. Passport used once."
Used once.
That meant I had not changed plans halfway.
That meant I had known exactly where I was going.
His jaw tightened.
"You missed her," his assistant said cautiously. "Barely two hours."
Gu Chengyi dismissed him.
When the office door closed, he leaned back in his chair and stared at the ceiling.
He told himself it was inconvenient.
That this disruption would damage relationships between the families.
That bringing me back was necessary.
But beneath the logic, something uncomfortable stirred.
He had not imagined I would actually leave.
Not like this.
Not without looking back.
---
Han Zhe was furious.
Not loud, explosive fury—but the kind that simmered under his skin, sharp and restless.
"She planned this," he muttered, pacing his living room. "She didn't even tell me."
That was what bothered him most.
Not that I had left.
But that I had not chosen him to know.
He scrolled through old messages, irritation slowly giving way to unease.
When had our conversations become one-sided?
When had he started replying hours later instead of immediately?
When had he assumed I would always be there?
His phone slipped from his hand.
"Damn it…"
---
Shen Yu replayed the corridor scene again and again.
Not the words—
The silence before them.
He remembered the faint sound of footsteps.
At the time, he had dismissed it.
Now, the memory refused to leave.
She heard us.
The realization settled heavily in his chest.
Shen Yu did not regret choosing someone else. He had never promised me anything. But regret was not always about promises—it was about moments you did not protect when you should have.
He closed his eyes briefly.
"She didn't cry," he murmured to the empty room. "She just left."
And that, somehow, hurt more.
---
Back in my new city, I forced myself to move.
I unpacked slowly, deliberately. Hung clothes. Lined shoes by the door. Placed my passport and documents neatly in a drawer.
Every action was grounding.
Every decision was mine.
When morning came, I stepped outside.
The streets were unfamiliar but alive. Cafés opened their doors. People hurried past, each carrying their own lives, their own worries—none of which had anything to do with me.
For the first time, I was anonymous.
It was terrifying.
It was freeing.
I enrolled in classes that afternoon.
No assistant.
No family connections.
No special treatment.
When the administrator glanced at my last name, there was no recognition in her eyes.
And I realized—I liked it.
---
The first message came two days later.
Not through my phone.
Through my bank.
A sudden inquiry flagged under my account. Someone had tried to trace my transactions.
I smiled faintly.
Too late.
I had planned for this.
I moved funds through layers that bore my name but not my history. Accounts opened quietly. Paths designed to look messy to anyone watching.
This wasn't rebellion.
It was preparation.
---
"Her spending is minimal," Gu Chengyi reported during the next family meeting. "She's not panicking."
"That means she's confident," Mrs. Lu said softly.
Han Zhe scoffed. "Or she's pretending."
My father shook his head. "No. Yanxi doesn't pretend."
The room fell silent again.
They were beginning to see me clearly.
For the first time.
---
That evening, as I sat by my window watching the city lights blink on one by one, I allowed myself a single moment of honesty.
I was hurt.
Deeply.
But beneath the pain was something sharper—anger.
Not loud.
Not reckless.
Focused.
They had spoken as if I were an obligation. A burden. A convenience.
They had never once asked what I wanted.
I leaned my forehead against the glass.
"You don't get to decide my worth anymore," I whispered.
---
Three thousand miles away, Shen Yu stared at a screen filled with fragmented data.
Then, slowly, a pattern emerged.
"She didn't disappear randomly," he said aloud. "She erased herself."
And for the first time, unease turned into something far more dangerous.
Fear.
Because a woman who leaves without chaos—
who walks away without demanding answers—
is not waiting to be rescued.
She is choosing not to be found.
---
That night, I wrote a single sentence in my notebook:
If I ever return, it will be because I want to—not because I am summoned.
I closed the book.
Outside, the city breathed.
And somewhere far away, three men began to understand a truth they had never considered:
The girl they thought would always stay
had already become someone they might never catch up to again.
