By the following weeks, the shiny novelty of Eastwood High had begun to wear thin, replaced by the grueling reality of mid-term preparations. The school felt like a pressure cooker, the air thick with the scent of high-stakes anxiety and the frantic scratching of pens against paper. To escape the suffocating atmosphere of the crowded library, where every whisper felt like a shout, I began spending my free periods in the music wing. It was the only place in the entire building where the frantic energy of the school seemed to soften into something manageable.
I found myself frequenting a specific hallway at the far end of the wing, drawn by the haunting, melodic notes of a piano that echoed from a half-closed door. The music was beautiful, a series of minor chords that seemed to speak to the very ache I had been carrying in my chest since I arrived. I did not announce myself. Instead, I took advantage of my assigned cleaning duty, using the yellow vest and the bucket of supplies as a shield. I would stand in the shadows of the doorway, clutching a dust rag like a prop in a play, and steal glances at the boy inside.
It was Ryan.
He was in my class, but in the music room, he seemed to belong to another world entirely. His long hair fell across his face as he leaned into the keys, his fingers moving with a fluid, magical precision that made the piano feel like an extension of his own body. I would stand there, perfectly still, watching the way his brow furrowed in concentration. The world outside the music room, the cliques, the rumors, and the distant, untouchable image of Mark faded into a dull hum. It was peaceful, a sanctuary of sound, until he suddenly stopped playing. The silence that followed was heavy and expectant.
"You have been cleaning that same doorframe for ten minutes, Sadie," he said. His voice was laced with a gentle, teasing warmth that made my heart skip a beat.
I jumped, nearly dropping my rag into the bucket of sudsy water. My face heated up instantly, a familiar prickle of embarrassment blooming across my cheeks. "I... I was just... the dust here is very stubborn," I stammered, focusing intently on a speck of grime that did not exist.
Ryan laughed, a soft, melodic sound that matched the cadence of his music. He patted the wooden bench beside him, sliding over to make room. "The piano is a lot more interesting than the dust, Sadie. Come here. I will show you how this bridge works. It is the trickiest part of the piece."
I hesitated, the wall I was trying to build flickering for a moment. But the invitation was too tempting, and the look in his eyes was too kind to refuse. I sat at the edge of the bench, my shoulder nearly brushing his. He showed me the keys, his patience endless as he explained the relationship between the notes. For a few blissful minutes, the stress of the day and the weight of being the new girl vanished. This felt safe. It felt like a dangerous kind of comfort, but I chose to ignore the warning bells in my head.
But reality returned with a vengeance the next morning in the form of a math textbook.
I was sitting in the courtyard, my head in my hands, staring at a calculus problem that felt like a personal insult to my intelligence. The mock test was tomorrow, and I could not even crack the logic of the first equation. Sarah and Jessica were sitting nearby, but they were no help. They were just as lost as I was, whispering about shoes and weekend plans while I felt like I was drowning in numbers.
I looked up and saw Carl sitting a few tables away. He was leaning back, spinning a pen between his fingers with a look of supreme, detached boredom. He had not even opened his book, yet I knew he had probably already mastered the material weeks ago. He caught me looking and let out a short, mocking puff of air. It was a sound of pure arrogance.
"Struggling, Sadie?" he called out. His voice dripped with that familiar, sharp condescension that always managed to get under my skin. "Maybe if you spent more time studying and less time daydreaming in the music wing, you would actually get the math right. Dreaming does not solve for X."
I gritted my teeth, the heat of genuine anger rising in my chest. I hated how he seemed to see right through my attempts at composure. "Mind your own business, Carl! Not everyone finds this as easy as you do."
He just shrugged, a small, irritating smirk playing on his lips before he looked away. I looked back at my paper, the numbers blurring through frustrated tears I refused to let fall. I hated him. I hated how he made me feel incompetent, and I hated that he had noticed my trips to the music room.
"Need a hand?"
A shadow fell over my desk, blocking the harsh glare of the sun. I looked up to see Ryan. He was not smirking or mocking me. He looked genuinely concerned, his expression soft and inviting. Without waiting for an answer, he pulled up a chair and sat down beside me.
"Calculus is a beast," he whispered, leaning in so close that I could smell the faint, comforting scent of cedarwood on his sweater. "Let's look at it together."
He began to break down the problem, his voice steady and calm. He used musical analogies that actually made sense to my brain, turning the abstract numbers into a rhythm I could follow. As he spoke, I could feel the tension in my shoulders finally start to melt away. Every time his hand brushed mine while pointing at a graph on the page, my heart did a little dance.his warm breath against my skin sending shiver down my spine. It was a different feeling than the one I had for Mark. Mark was a distant sun, but Ryan was a warm fire right in front of me.
By the time we finished, the problem was solved, and I felt like I could actually breathe again. I looked over at Carl, who was watching us from his table with a strange, unreadable expression. For once, the resident genius had nothing to say. He looked almost annoyed, though I could not imagine why he would care.
"Thanks, Ryan," I said, my voice full of a new, dangerous kind of warmth I knew I should probably be more careful with. "You are a lifesaver. Truly."
He smiled, that slow, dreamy smile that made me forget every "No More Crushes" rule I had ever written in my diary. "Anytime, Sadie. I will see you at the talent show practice later this afternoon?"
I nodded, watching him walk away with a sense of hope I had not felt since moving to Eastwood. I was hooked. Completely, irrevocably hooked on the idea that someone finally saw me. I did not know then that the talent show would not be the triumph I imagined. I did not know that the music room, my sanctuary, would soon become the site of my greatest heartbreak. I just sat there, clutching my math book, thinking that maybe Eastwood High was going to be my fairy tale after all. I allowed myself to believe that the music would never stop.