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Chapter 5 - CHAPTER 5 — What Guilt Sounds Like

Guilt doesn't announce itself.

It whispers.

And once it starts whispering, it never stops.

THE APPOINTMENT

Ethan sat across from the therapist with his hands folded so tightly his knuckles had gone white.

Dr. Hale didn't rush him.

She never did.

"You said on the phone that your memories feel… incomplete," she said gently.

Ethan nodded. "Selective."

"Selective how?"

He hesitated. That alone felt like an answer.

"There are gaps," he said. "Years ago. University. Parties. People I don't remember meeting but apparently did."

Dr. Hale made a small note. "And this bothers you now?"

"Yes," Ethan said immediately.

Then, quieter: "Because someone I met recently feels… familiar in a way I can't place. And the familiarity doesn't feel good."

Dr. Hale looked up. "Familiarity can be recognition. Or association."

"With what?" Ethan asked.

"With a version of yourself you've avoided," she replied.

The words settled uncomfortably.

AVA'S BODY KNOWS FIRST

Ava felt it before anything happened.

The tightening in her chest.

The sense of being watched.

The old instinct sharpening.

She was organizing invoices when an unfamiliar man stopped at her desk.

"Ms. Miller?" he asked.

"Yes?"

"I'm with legal," he said, flashing a badge too quickly. "Routine background verification."

Her pulse spiked.

"I wasn't told—"

"It's standard for contract workers," he said smoothly. "Just a few questions."

She nodded, though every part of her screamed danger.

THE QUESTIONS THAT CUT

"Any prior criminal record?"

"No."

"Any history of lawsuits?"

"No."

"Any incidents during university?"

Ava froze.

"What kind of incidents?" she asked carefully.

The man studied her. "Anything that might be relevant."

Relevant.

Her fingers curled into her palms.

"No," she said firmly.

He smiled politely and thanked her.

But when he walked away, her hands were shaking so badly she had to sit down.

This wasn't random.

This was Ethan.

THE CONFRONTATION WITHOUT NAMES

That evening, Ava waited.

She didn't go home immediately. Didn't pick up Leo early. She stood by Ethan's office door like a woman preparing for battle she wasn't sure she could win.

When he emerged, surprise flickered across his face.

"Is everything okay?" he asked.

"No," she said.

The word landed heavy.

He gestured inside. "Come in."

She did.

THE POWER IMBALANCE

Ava didn't sit.

"Did you send legal to investigate me?" she asked.

Ethan frowned. "What?"

"Don't pretend," she snapped. "Someone questioned me today. About my past."

His confusion looked genuine.

"I didn't," he said. "I swear."

She searched his face for lies.

Found none.

But that didn't calm her.

"Then someone did," she said. "And they felt entitled."

Ethan's jaw tightened. "I'll handle it."

The words were automatic.

Protective.

That made her laugh—short, bitter.

"You don't get to handle me," she said. "Not anymore."

The anymore slipped out before she could stop it.

Ethan stiffened.

"Anymore?" he repeated quietly.

Silence stretched.

Too long.

Too loaded.

THE EDGE OF CONFESSION

"I need to ask you something," Ethan said finally.

Ava's heart pounded.

"Don't," she warned.

"Did I hurt you?"

The room went cold.

Ava stared at him.

He looked… afraid.

Not for himself.

For the answer.

"You don't remember," she said.

His voice was barely audible. "No."

Her chest burned.

"Then you don't get my truth," she said. "Not yet."

He swallowed. "Why?"

"Because I had to live with it alone," she replied. "And you don't get relief before accountability."

The words surprised them both.

Ethan nodded slowly.

"I deserve that," he said.

And meant it.

THE CHILD COMES FIRST

Ava picked Leo up late.

Too late.

The caregiver gave her a look she'd seen too often—kind, but edged with judgment.

"I'm sorry," Ava said softly.

Leo yawned. "It's okay. I waited."

She hugged him tight.

Outside, rain fell hard.

She strapped him into the car seat, heart aching.

"I'm trying," she whispered. "I promise."

THE CHOICE ETHAN MAKES

That night, Ethan canceled every meeting for the next day.

He sat alone in his office, lights dimmed, file open on his desk.

Ava Miller.

He hadn't asked for her past.

But he was no longer willing to hide from his own.

He made a call.

"I need you to pull everything," he said. "University records. Complaints. Settlements. Anything tied to my name."

There was a pause on the other end.

"Sir," the voice said carefully, "are you sure?"

Ethan closed his eyes.

"Yes," he said. "I'm ready to know who I was."

WHAT THEY BOTH FEAR

Ava lay awake listening to Leo breathe.

Ethan stared at documents he hadn't opened yet.

They were moving toward the same truth from opposite sides.

And neither of them knew if love could survive what guilt was about to uncover.

But one thing was certain now:

For the first time in years, the past wasn't silent.

It was knocking.

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