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Chapter 395 - Chapter 395: My Guiding Star Part-8

The final transcript deadline was written in three places.

It appeared at the top of June's run sheet, inside the ceremony calendar, and on a red notice beside the auditorium doors.

FINAL CAPTION SCRIPT: 5:00 P.M. TOMORROW

June asked me when it was due while we packed the cue cards.

My first instinct was to point at the notice.

My second was to answer before anyone heard her ask.

Instead, I used the rule we had made.

"Do you want the answer or a cue?"

June looked at me, surprised that I remembered.

"The answer."

"Five tomorrow."

"Thank you."

She wrote it on the back of TOMORROW, then opened the shared calendar I had created. Every graduation event remained blue. The green medical entries were gone.

"I want to keep this," she said.

"You called it an emergency ward."

"It was an emergency ward when you controlled it."

She changed my permission from editor to viewer and entered the transcript deadline herself.

"Now it is my calendar," she said.

"With my door photographs."

"Those are useful. Do not become proud."

It was not complete trust.

It was a better shape for help.

Across the auditorium, KM waited beside the closed rear doors while Thoon returned the last pronunciation cards to the registrar.

When she finished, he said, "We talk now."

Thoon removed her ceremony lanyard.

"Fine."

They left through the side corridor.

JP watched them go.

He pretended he had not.

KM chose an empty rehearsal studio two floors below the auditorium.

The mirrors had been covered for graduation storage. Rolled carpets stood against one wall. Stacks of unused chairs occupied the other. Through the narrow windows, rain began darkening the courtyard.

Thoon remained near the door.

KM placed JP's discarded pronunciation card on a chair between them.

"You remembered his name," he said.

"Everyone knows his name."

"Not how he wants it pronounced."

"I heard the announcer get it wrong before the fight."

"That was months ago."

"Yes."

KM waited for her to offer something easier.

She did not.

"You forgot our dinner," he said.

"I was working on guest passes."

"You forgot the morning after too. You remembered when I showed you the reservation."

"I apologized."

"I am not asking whether you apologized. I am asking why his smallest details live in your head while I have to remind you where I fit."

Thoon looked at the rain rather than him.

"You already know."

"I want to hear you stop hiding inside my guesses."

Her hand closed around the lanyard.

"I cared about JP before you and I started."

KM's expression did not change.

"Cared?"

"Loved. I do not know when it became that."

The word entered the room and left no space for a softer version.

KM nodded once.

"When you kissed me at Floating Village, you knew he was watching."

"Yes."

"You used me to stop him from confessing."

"Yes."

"And you let me believe you chose me."

Thoon finally faced him.

"At first, I chose the person who frightened me less. JP made everything feel exposed. He joked, fought, cried, and loved in front of everyone. You never asked me to be that visible."

"That is a long way to say I was convenient."

"You were not only convenient."

"Do not rescue my pride now."

She went quiet.

KM walked to the covered mirror and rested one hand against the cloth.

"I knew he loved you," he said. "I thought the kiss meant you did not love him back. I thought he challenged me because he could not accept losing."

"I made both of you believe that."

"He did not lose."

"I know."

"I did not win."

"I know."

"Then stop looking at me like the next part is my decision."

Thoon's eyes filled, but she did not ask him to comfort her.

"KM, I am leaving."

He closed his eyes once.

She continued before fear could turn the sentence into an apology.

"Not because JP promised me anything. He has not. Not because you failed me. You drove through gunfire to bring him back inside the Wall. You protected people who hated you. You became someone I respect more than the person I first dated. That is why staying has become worse. I would be using a good man to hide from the person I actually love."

KM looked at her.

"Do not use what I did during the raid to make this noble."

"I am not."

"And do not tell anyone he beat me twice."

"He did not beat you the first time."

"That is not the point."

For one second, the old arrogance almost returned to his face.

Then it disappeared.

"If you go to him," KM said, "go because you chose him. Do not go because hurting me makes you feel brave."

"I chose him a long time ago. I was just cruel enough to make everyone wait for me to admit it."

KM picked up the damaged card.

"Then we are finished."

No glass broke.

Nobody shouted.

Thoon had once used a public kiss as a weapon because honesty felt unbearable.

This time, the truth ended quietly.

It still ended something real.

KM left the studio first.

Shinso waited near the stairwell vending machines with two unopened cans of coffee. He studied KM's face and held out one can.

"Do I need to stop you from finding JP?"

KM took the coffee.

"No."

"Do I need to stop JP from finding you?"

"He does not know yet."

Shinso leaned against the wall.

"How bad?"

"She loves him."

"I meant you."

KM stared at the can without opening it.

"Bad enough that I do not want advice."

"Excellent. I had none."

They stood together while rain tapped the narrow stairwell window.

KM took out his phone and canceled the dinner table he had reserved for graduation night. The restaurant retained the deposit. He confirmed anyway.

"Do not tell the crew," he said.

"They will notice."

"Then tell them there is no rematch. Nobody bothers JP. Nobody makes Thoon pay for choosing."

Shinso raised one eyebrow.

"That is unexpectedly mature."

"I can still throw you down these stairs."

"There he is."

KM finally opened the coffee.

During the Wall, he had driven a damaged truck through gunfire because JP and the medical group needed cover. That act had changed what they thought of each other. It had not purchased Thoon, canceled JP's love, or created a debt that could be collected after graduation.

Knowing that did not make the loss smaller.

It only told KM what he was not allowed to do with the pain.

"She said she respected me," he said.

"That sounds worse than being insulted."

"Much worse."

Shinso opened his own coffee.

"You want company?"

"No."

Shinso remained beside him.

KM did not ask again.

JP and TZ waited beneath the covered bus shelter outside Campus Two.

Rain struck the metal roof hard enough to erase distant traffic. JP held the replacement pronunciation card inside his jacket so it would not bend again.

Thoon approached without KM.

TZ saw her first.

"I can leave," he said.

JP caught his sleeve.

"No."

Thoon stopped several steps away.

"KM and I ended it."

JP's face remained still.

"Why are you telling me?"

"Because pretending it had nothing to do with you would be another lie."

"Do you want congratulations?"

"No."

"Do you want me to ask you out before the next bus?"

"No."

"Good. I left my flowers at home."

The joke arrived sharp and died quickly.

Thoon accepted it.

"I kissed him where you could see," she said. "I knew what you were going to ask me, and I decided humiliating you was easier than answering. Then I let you treat the fight like winning could change my choice. I watched them carry you away. I asked everyone whether you were awake, but I was too ashamed to enter your hospital room."

JP looked down at the name card.

"You came to apologize after the Wall."

"I came close enough to make myself feel better. That is not the same thing."

"No. It is not."

The bus indicator changed from four minutes to seven.

Nobody complained.

"I love you," Thoon said.

JP laughed once, without humor.

"That would have been useful before Round Four."

"I know."

"Do you? Because you keep arriving with the truth after somebody else pays for it."

She lowered her eyes.

"Tell me what to do."

"I cannot."

"Why?"

"Because then every good thing you do becomes another performance I directed."

JP stepped out from beneath the shelter until rain touched the front of his shoes.

"I still love you," he said. "That is exactly why the answer is not yes today."

Thoon began crying silently.

He did not move toward her.

"If there is ever an us," he continued, "I need to know you are not choosing me because guilt became heavier than KM. I need to know you will not hide me the next time loving me looks embarrassing."

"How do I prove that?"

"Time. Honesty. Things that do not happen only when I am watching."

"Can I wait?"

"That is your choice."

She nodded.

"The card was not a trick."

"I know."

"Your name should be said correctly."

JP held it tighter.

"Thank you for the card."

Thoon understood the limit inside the sentence.

She walked away before the bus arrived.

TZ sat at the far end of the shelter.

JP lowered himself beside him.

"You were quiet," JP said.

"It seemed crowded already."

"You looked hurt."

TZ watched rainwater gather along the curb.

"I liked her too."

JP turned toward him.

"What?"

"Before Floating Village. During it. After. I do not know exactly when it stopped being small."

"Why did you help me?"

"Because she looked at you."

"She kissed KM."

"While checking whether you saw."

JP had no reply.

TZ pressed both palms together.

"You were crying against me and asking how to stop loving her. That was not the correct time to announce competition."

"There should not have been competition."

"I know. She is not a scholarship. You cannot give her to me because you feel guilty, and I cannot step aside like I owned a place beside her."

"Do you still love her?"

TZ thought before answering.

"Enough that this hurts. Not enough to spend another year hoping your heartbreak becomes my chance."

JP leaned back against the shelter wall.

"I am sorry."

"For what?"

"Making you hold me together while you were breaking quietly."

TZ looked at him.

"You did the same thing during the Wall. That is friendship. Terrible timing with no refund policy."

JP smiled despite himself.

The bus arrived.

Neither of them boarded.

They stayed until the rain softened enough to hear each other without raising their voices.

June asked about the transcript deadline again before we left campus.

The question escaped naturally, without warning.

Then she saw my face and remembered asking it that morning.

Her fingers touched two points on the table.

Our signal.

I did not answer.

I tapped the edge of TOMORROW.

June turned it over and found her own handwriting.

"Five o'clock," she said.

"Correct."

"Do not sound like a neurologist."

"I have never been that well dressed."

She smiled and placed the card inside her folder.

Across campus, three people had finally spoken the truths they had hidden in the name of protection.

June and I were still learning how.

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