Part-1
If you ask me if my life is still boring.
.. I would answer 'It doesn't matter anymore!!' Whats the point if I am dead anyway!?
"Waaaa.... Huff! huff!"
I guess everytime I am in problem I just run away. But what the hell would I do against this! I can't even run it out.
I need to find a place until it's over...
Somewhere! There should be something!
I look everywhere in desperation.
Somewhere, this thing won't reach..
It's coming down at full speed. It's like a huge tsunami of snow. It's swallowing everything in its way and ceasing the existence of anyone who stands against it.
As I run in fear I spot something in the cliff beside me.
Whats that!? I take a proper look at it.
A cave? There's a cave on my right side up the rocky region.
I think I can be saved now. Just then my foot goes much deep in the snow and I trip and fall on the ground..
I need to go....(It's so much close right now.)
If I am wrapped up in this, then I will be buried much deeper than normal considering the scale of this avalanche. I will be dead by suffocation, by lack of oxygen. I have seen them on television but never of this size.
Come on! Just a bit more.
I climb it quickly and jump into the cave.. (Arghh!!!)
As soon as I enter the cave the avalanche hits the cave too. It enters the cave but not of scale that can harm me. But still for safety I need to go deeper. Thankfully there's still visibility.
The cave is big and eerie.
The silent cave scares me more than the avalanche.
I go deeper till there's no visibility.
I will stop here and let the storm pass by. As I sit down to give a rest to my beat up body, something shines in the dark ahead in the cave.
(Rustle)(Rustle)
Hm? What is that shiny thing?
I realise what that shiny object like pearl is when it comes out of the darkness.
Slowly and calmly without giving any hints of danger. A creature comes out of the shadows of darkness.
A wolf that's how I would describe it. It has white fur, suited for this season.
A single eyed wolf.. His right eye is distorted.
It is giving me one more reason to be scared.
I tremble in fear in its presence...
Is my life sheeting me or is my life sheet! I can't differentiate anymore.
First that annoying Kuro, then the avalanche and now this!
I.. I need to calm down?!
"Grrr! Grr... "
*Gulp
He looks sketchy with that eye. His eyes glaring at me in hope of meat.
Due to snow, it has become hardly possible to catch any prey. Along with Daikin as predator, he must be starving for a while.
Think... Think! What Lucy would do at this moment?
....She would probably jump on him and slice him in half without giving him any chance to move. And will look at me like nothing happened..
Absolutely not! I can't do that! I can't even imitate 1% of what she does...
I can't even take him on. I didn't properly practiced my one on one training with Lucy.
Seeing me confused and consumed in my own thoughts, he immediately hops on me.
"Roar!!!"
"Argh.. !!"
Successfully evading his attack, I jump on my right side.
No!
I desperately tried to get up but my knees were too weak to stand and I ended up crawling.
I try to run away turning my back on him. But just when I am about to get up and run; he attack my back with its giant paw, icing it with sharp and deadly nails.
*Screech
"Arghhhhh..!!!!!"
I fall on my hands facing downward, moaning in pain.
My... My... MY BACK!
My scream reaches the ends of this cave.
Blood splashes around my back. It's rushing and coming out of my back but it's slowly getting off of my back.
Blood?! It's my blood!
Arghhhhh!!
Terrified and horrified I still try to crawl miserably to get away.
To escape. To survive.
It isn't death that I am afraid of but the cruelty he will show while tearing me.. I got a taste of his wilderness and insanity when he attacked me with his leg.
"Grrr!!!!"
I look back at it with fear and torment in my eyes. I face my back on the ground and forcefully drag myself backward by pushing the ground with my elbows.
"Ha....."
"Roar!!!!"
"No! Get awayy!!!"
He gets ready to jump on me once again.
I look for something to defend myself with. A rock, or something.. something that will defend.
When I seem to get nothing from my surrounding. I get anxious and impatient and utterly out of control.
In the midst of it, my hand subconsciously reaches down to my waist.
He jumps on me.
"Roar!"
I didn't get to scream to warn myself.
It's over. It's all over now...
It cannot be undone....
I stabbed him... With the dagger that Lucy gave me.
I struck it up his throat with that little thing.
The blood, it's dripping down onto my face from his throat as I tried to take the dagger out.
Ha!!!
*Gulp
I push him aside and back off from him. I try to breath. I try to gasp my breath.
There's no turning back. I committed it whether it was right or wrong.
I did it to survive. To live.
Deep down in my heart I know it's wrong but it is what it is. I feel a burning sensation on my chest.
"Huff! Argh..!"
I can't differentiate how I feel right now.
Part-2
It feels weird having a corpse beside you. The wound that this wolf left me I hope it's not too deep. To be sure I wrapped my clothes around it. It will stop the bleeding probably.
In this cold, chilly and scary environment I feel nothing. Something inside my body is protecting me from drifting away. From falling apart. I can't even dare to look at it. It just remind me that I am guilty.
Ha.. Once this avalanche settles I will move out of here as soon as possible. It feels weird all of a sudden. I feel like I will puke any time...
After a while...
Hm!? It stopped..
I guess, I can finally move out. This place was making me feel sick.
Ha! I am lucky to have found this cave in the nick of time. The snow accumulated here is atleast the cave's level. Roughly 7 or feet deep. I amy have found myself beneath it. Hoping for someone to rescue, suffocating myself to despair as I would have drawn my last breath.
I observe clouds getting darker and thicker. Snow falling mildly and my body getting numb.
I walk few steps and notice my vision getting fuzzy. I know I would collapse anytime soon so I should hurry back. The pain in my back is never getting off too.
I return to the place where me and Kuro departed. I see everything devastated in this area.
Everything is swallowed by the roaring avalanche. Trees chopped in half or uprooted.
I can imagine what went by here just looking at the scene.
Barely, I looked everywhere when I discovered a leg poking out from beneath the pile of snow.
It is none other than Kuro's!
"Hm?! Isn't that...?"
I can't make sure if it's his.
My eyes! Everything's vivid!
Ha! It's really Kuro!
He is in his transformed form. Even blessings can't save you from nature. Hmph!
Sadly, he became a victim of this calmaity.
He tried to fight it back with his transformed form but it failed... I guess.
That's what happens when you don't listen to your brain but muscles. I don't feel sympathy for him, why would I?
That's what he deserves for messing with me. Atleast a nuisance is gone.
At that instant, events take a strange turn.
Ahhh... The snow is falling faster again indicating an upcoming storm. I need to hurry before I get caught in another life and death situation.
My body feels heavy. Every step I take is consuming more than enough energy.
Just few more steps and I'll be home and as for Kuro, let him be...
Part-3
Creating new bonds, living up to someone's expectation, caressing people around you. I have left all these traits behind. Becoming an impudent brat was my choice. Even though everyone rejected my way of life, I rejoiced it over and over; cause it was my choice. I am not missing anyone, not my friends, not my family. Because I am not attached to anyone now. Life gives you choices where you can be happy and where you can be hurt. I chose to be happy by letting go of attachments in my life.
And if you ask me why I am doing this now? Then I don't know either.
"Don't get the wrong idea! I am helping you beacuse I don't want to see Lucy sad. I careless if you had died or not. But the horror of your death may haunt Lucy."
I ended up helping Kuro.
Like I said I care less what happens to him. Maybe it was because of Lucy.. Because she is the only one I care about right now.
It wasn't so long before he got buried under the snow. So there were chances of being alive. I dug around him and took him out. It was so hard with bare hands but with a stick it became easier. And as expected he was alive, fighting for his life.
We didn't have adequate time to return home so I am carrying him on my back to the cave. Due to his transformed form his feet were dragging on the snow, making it more harder. Although my strength increased but still it isn't enough to bear Kuro's weight.
"Huff! I should've left him alone!"
The winds are getting faster and fiercer. Visibility also becomes low.
Such as retard as me, why am I simping over Kuro and helping him out. These type of questions kept hovering inside my mind till we reached the cave.
"Argh! Finally! Get off of me, now!" I put him down beside the wolf.
My shoulders became so stiff beacuse of that.
"Hm? You are conscious now or were you pretending to be unconscious."
He opens his eyes and realises that he is still alive and not dead under some heavy white stuff.
He tries to get up but falls down miserably. But I don't see any injury on his body. Is it internal or may be he is suffering with concussion from the impact.
In his weak and and forceful voice he groans in pain.
"Gwaarr..."
"Don't move! I just saved you... Ok! I don't want to waste everything of that effort. You will only hurt yourself if you tried to move."
Seriously! What's with me! Why am I talking a noncommunicable animal now and then.
Now that he is conscious, why isn't he transforming back to his small form?
Might be because of the wound..
The storm started as expected.
"It looks like it will not be lifting up soon."
Argh...Such a pain.
At this rate he will die and my efforts will be in vain.
"Don't worry as soon as the storm comes to an hault, I will call Lucy here."
I ain't gonna carry him again. It will be a hassle, also not good for my injury too.
"Do something about that size of yours."(For specification, I am talking to myself.)
He loses his consciousness again while the storm kept ravaging the whole forest.
I will kick that wolf corpse out side too.. It's making me sick again.
Finally, it stopped after three whole hours. It is safe to move outside now.
My back! I stings! Thankfully the bleeding stopped otherwise there would have been three corpses waiting to be found in this cave. I took care of the wolf corpse. And without hesitation I moved out of the cave to contact Lucy.
My energy is totally drained as of now. I have a look of a labourer, whose passion and achievement didn't have any meaning and was given a ton of work to do. It was his only choice to survive. Unfortunate love and luck always followed him. Such a painful life.
Tsk. Tsk.
In reality I am dragging my numb body to Lucy.
Once I reached home. I explained everything to her.
She was shocked and worried at the same time. She felt helpless by not being present at that moment.
She went in and quickly she grabbed her accessories or whatever they call it-to cure Kuro's injury.
Of course! I didn't tell her about my own injury... About how I got attacked by a sneaky pirate wolf. I definitely hid it perfectly from her. She would only tense her out by worrying about me.
I think Kuro is important to her as she spend her whole time with her. So in a way, I didn't want to see who she cares about the most.
Argh! My brains is all potatoes. I slam my door against the door. I looked down and scratched down all the potatoes in my head.
Secretly I changed my clothes too. Now, she won't notice my wound.
We ran all the way to the cave. Over the course of travel, her face was all down.
Saddened. Frowned.
Like something was stinging her constantly and it was painful...
We reach the entrance of the cave.
"Kuro!!" she yells.
Glancing her eyes all over the insides of the cave, she finds him in a corner.
"Kuro! What happened?!" She sits beside him and examines him.
I should also take a sit.
"He's apparently hit on his head or something.." She says
"Yes! I can see the swollen parts up and down his body."
After fully examining his body she says-
"Right! There's swollen on his chest too. He might have broken his ribs or gotten a hit on it! Very hardly."
Incredible.... She's a good doctor too. I mean... Yes! Who would be so skilled in every field like her..
She's just wow!!
She unpacks the stuff that she brought with her.
The stuff she brought contains a set of glass bottles each of size of a palm, containing various types and colors of potions, seeds, herbs,drugs or whatever you call it in ayurveda. It also contains a mortar and pestle.
She starts preparing a medicine for him.
I get impressed by every little thing she does.
Being more than good at various profession is quite an achievement.
My back still stings now and then. I hope it doesn't hurt much while heading home.
Should I tell her?
Nah! Let's don't get her worked up because of me..
Once in my life I felt alone at that time. Like I can't talk frankly or I can't even make someone worry about me.
She takes some herbs and seeds and pounds it down in the mortar with pestle. Mixes some potion in it. And sinks it down Kuro's throat.
"It's okay now! It's some minor wound. He will be fine now." relieving a sigh she says.
She walks down to me and sits in front of me. Her back against the wall and her arms wrapped around her legs.
"Thank you! If it wasn't for you, I can't imagine what would have happened to him."
Yeah! Right! If it wasn't for me. It's not what you think it is. It's just something I did for a personal benefit.
"Don't mention it. I found him when I was passing by. It's not like that I saved him because I liked him." I say by avoiding eye contact.
She places her right hand on her chick and gets that I-know-look on her face and says-
"I know you don't get along! That's why I sent you two alone."
So.. This was her masterplan to bring us close. If it was then it failed.
She continues.
"I thought maybe spending time together will make you friends. But I guess I was wrong. I don't know how befriending someone works."
Yes!! You were wrong and how did you even hope that would work. Haven't you made friends before?
"..."
She says with a worried look-
"He's not a bad dog. He's just afraid of strangers. I am afraid that he will never get along with anyone beside me. Once you know him, you will realise, he's good!"
"I don't care if he is good or bad... Or maybe I don't really wanna know him."
"You are not looking closely at yourself... If you don't care then your actions would have said something else.
" ... "
"Sometimes it is ok to complain..... Everybody is not perfect."
"It's not what you think it is. This is how I am, you wouldn't have said that if you had known who I really am."
Gently narrowing her eyes and leaning forward, with a gentle voice she says-
"Then tell me about you... I want to know you.... "
"!!?"
The heavy sentences that came out of her mouth lifted a buried memory in my heart...
I can be honest with her right.. No! I want to be honest with her. After all I decided to enjoy my days here, with her!
It's okay! Right?! To tell someone something you wouldn't tell anyone. That person should be special for that.
And might be she's special for me..
"I.. I actually don't dislike Kuro!"
"...."
"I was just jealous of you both."
She gets surprised by this and her face shows curiosity..
"Jealous? Of what?"
"I know I am talking rubbish but it is what it is.." I have really said it now.
"I don't think it's rubbish but there must be a reason to it? Don't you think?"
After hearing this I realise something. My heartbeat gets normal. The mood becomes light.
I was not jealous of Kuro getting close to Lucy. I was jealous of their bonding.
It's the same as me and Kiara.
"It's okay! You can tell me." she says with a gentle smile.
Really is it okay to tell her how I feel.. But...
"Dogs are really loyal right? They always come back to their rightful owner. Even though, they are badmouthed or thrown outside. They always come back! That's why they are called man's best friend."
I pause and continue with a sad look.
"Then, why... Why.." my voice stutter.
"Then why didn't... Kiara come back to me. Huh!? Why?"
I breakdown at that moment and tears fall down as I try to recall the memory of her.
The scar which was forgotten, resurfaced once again. The gloominess took over my soul once again..
And I told Lucy everything...