"Not yet."
…
my forehead and eyes are touched by the sunlight.
"I don't want to."
I shift and turn my back to the sun.
Then my body starts warming up. That, I hate so much.
I guess I can't delay waking up anymore.
"Morning." I let out a silent greeting for no one else to hear.
I close the curtains after doing a light stretch.
I reach for my phone and check the time. It is eight in the morning.
How is it that when I have the time to sleep, I can't do longer than 7 hours?
"Ughh…"
My throat feels dry, but I am too lazy to even leave my bed.
Why would I leave her when she's this warm?
I lay back down and start scrolling on InstantKarma.
It is almost evening when I check the time again.
"There goes another day."
…
"I hate it. I hate it so much."
Why would someone create such a boring world? Where is the fun in all this?
Ah, not like I would do anything bothersome if I was given a chance.
*buzz*
My phone vibrates as I bring my attention back to it.
It is an email from work.
Zero, please make sure to arrive early tomorrow morning. This one is important. We can't afford messing up a deal this big.
"Not like it will change my pay anyways. You big bosses are the ones getting all those millions."
I never get how they make everything such a big problem. It is allllways a big thing that we can't mess up. When can we mess it all up then?
"Arghh…"
I massage my temples.
"Again..?"
I really don't want to go tomorrow. I don't want to go ever again.
"I hate this. I hate my job. I hate this world. I hate the sun."
I want to sleep forever…
I wish it was possible.
…
Hm??
"Oh…"
"Hah… ahahahhah!"
I start laughing as I realize how stupid I have been.
"You dummy! You can just do it! You can end all this!!"
So, how do I go about this?
I do some research on my phone.
"Gotcha."
I finally gain the strength to get up.
I reach the bathroom and get all the meds I can find.
I lay down on my bed after making sure the blinds are shut this time.
Wouldn't want to be awakened by the sun again, right?
I take countless pills and chug down a big bottle of water.
Then I start waiting.
Waiting… is nice… it's peaceful..
…
"Goodnight."
I say for no one else to hear.
…
…
"Nnghh…"
I touch my head as it starts to buzz.
"Huh? What?"
??
I open my eyes and search my surroundings.
"Why..?"
My voice echoes.
I am somewhere dark, yet I can see. It looks endless.
There is darkness under and everywhere.
As I turn around, I am met with the prettiest scenery I have ever laid eyes on.
There are countless stars forming a mist of colors.
…
" Is this heaven or something? I don't get it."
"Zero"
?!
I look around to see the owner of the cold voice.
"Who..?"
"How dare you to destroy something that is not yours to destroy."
It doesn't have a voice, yet, I hear it in my mind.
"Who are you?"
"You thought death was an escape. You were terribly wrong."
I start trembling with fear inducing through my veins.
"Life is not yours to end."
"Then whose is it?"
I try hard to not let fear captivate my whole being.
"Your sin is unforgivable, but I am not without mercy."
"It" does not answer me.
"You will be given a body, a purpose. Solve the death of the divine creation, and bring the sinner to justice."
"Fail, and you will fall to hell where only eternal suffering will await you. Succeed, and you will be given a choice."
Before I could say anything else, I was once again met with darkness.
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