30 Minutes a day

My father whom I didn't even recognize went to heaven early when I was just 2 years old, life happened after. That when I was about the age of 10 I used to work in fields, collect woods, leaves, doing all that I spent many of my years . At the age of sweet 15 I was married to a man not so far from my hometown, It was probably life changing thing for me but everything was the same all those same things that i used to do at my home, collecting leaves, woods, cutting grass for animals and then working in farm, all of those things everyday again and again . Many months passed by and at the age of 17 I was pregnant with my first child, It was a girl . It was all new to me as I became a mother at that young age but god was not by my side when he filled my hands with a baby . My new born daughter died in just two months after her birth . It might seem normal to many people but I became fully mental for few days . All those cruel words from my mother in law and father in law which seemed bitter but as a mother whose child just died I had to ignore all that . Again days passed by and now at the age of 18 I was pregnant with a boy, His birth brought a lot of joy to not only me but those father and mother in laws who once hated me for anything they could . But again that happiness was just a thing that lasted for a max of just 18 days, Crazy how my life was just going down all those 18 days in the hospital I stayed without any food and reassurance from the place which I call it my sweet home now . Imagine how I felt that new born which brought hope to my eyes lied dead . All of these words from my home, my in laws made me shed tears almost every moment of the day . It all weighed upon me this much that I tried to give it all up . I just thought of nothing but to hang myself from the rope tied to the piece of wood which supported the roof of that old styled house made from mud and bricks . But just as my life that piece of wood also fell and crashed . Maybe it was a sign after all from higher being, my dear god that I had more to experience and do . At that time the condition of every house was same daughter in law got harassed by her father and mother-in-laws for even a tiny mistake . Some how all those days passed by but for me to hear threats from my family telling they would find another woman for my husband if I didn't give birth to a son . And just like that in a blink of an eye I was again pregnant with a boy, I gave birth to him but now it seemed like being a mother was not written in my life . That poor son of mine died just within seven days . They were all set to get my husband to marry him with another girl, with in few weeks the marriage was set to happen but just as everything was going to work out for them, My husband didn't agree to marry another woman while having me . He was a blessing for me in this cold world that I lived in . I was happy he denied the proposal but again sad and just felt extremely low because I was not given any grain of food for several days by my In-laws . I was weak, I was fragile but that flame in me didn't die yet . I knew he was the one, I knew my husband would take care of me, so while he was away from home for work I also ran from home . Soon one of his friend recognized me and took me to him, from where My husband took me to hospital to conduct check ups as I looked alot weak and lifeless . Then far from that home he arranged a Room for us and started living there together . Just after 3 months into that new place I again got pregnant with One of my first ever Baby girl who survived . I started to work and my husband also used to work, he was a driver at that time which was a prestigious job at that time and on the other hand I knitted sweaters . Every thing seemed to workout fine after wards . My eldest daughter came into this world as a blessing from god which turned the whole life around .