I stare down at my thighs it was burnt,red and swollen all thanks to them,I couldn't even use words to describe how I was feeling right now but there's one thing for sure I'll surely go to any length to make them pay i thought i didn't realise when suddenly a long whip hit my arm with a sharp following pain despite the pain I was still in shock to react,I immediately lifted my gaze at Vanessa surprise " it seems like you don't feel pain anymore if you do,you should have been begging me to stop by now"she said the Vanessa i know don't accept pleading so there's no reason for me to beg enduring is my only option here, Today's pain was so different that I don't know when the word please slip out of my mouth as she whip me for the second time "please Vanessa,please stop I'm begging you" my voice was desperate as it cracks filled with agony but it was of no use
"it's too late for you to do that dear" she said dramatically before whipping me again for the third times,then she threw the whip to the floor my whole body aches terribly as i trembled"you can all be dismissed now,game's over "I felt really hurt at her words I was nothing more than a game to them a mere tool to have fun with,The girls handed over a bag to Vanessa as they all walk away saying
"bye bye yasmine "waving their hands dramatically with a pitiful expression meanwhile all the other students left stared at me with disgust and irritation before they all turn to walk away too.I thug my head low crying with a trembling shoulder, i sob so loudly like never before as if my tears could take away the pain I felt away,my thighs was burnt open and my whole body felt sore drown in my tears
i suddenly heard footsteps approaching I didn't lift my head up due to the fact that I already knew who it is through his scent "I'm sorry "was the first thing he said but it doesn't matter now or does it "I'm really sorry,I couldn't help you this time"he said apologically his voice filled with guilt and regret I felt ashamed of myself being almost half naked in front of your crush now was a different case but constantly getting bullied was another big deal here the continous embarrasment most especially the fact that we were in the same class,I shook my head in disappointment meanwhile
Ryan quickly loose the rope off me with a trembling hands confused at what to do next it was really obvious that he sure do care about me but thinking of the facts that my parents aren't rich or either average which meant I never came from a world like his made him push his feeling for me aside for him I wasn't in his royal status and perhaps if my classmates were to find out he likes someone like me they were definitely gonna mock him or make fun of him"i'm sorry yasmine I should have stopped them but I just felt powerless,i was so lost at what to do"he said in a low tone pitifully "liar liar "I thought to myself repeatedly then chuckled bitterly which left him speechless and dumbfounded
"That's a lie Ryan, you can actually help me but you choose not to,you could stop them but you didn't when I stare at you pleadingly to help me you shifted your gaze away from me pretending not to understand,as if we were strangers to each other "I said staring at him with a tearful gaze "Ryan what are we to each other, you always pretend like you care when you don't"
Ryan's eyes held different kinds of indescribable emotions, he was confused and speechless as ever "Ryan if you can't accept me as a friend then what are we, certainly we aren't enemies from your actions but then why are you doing all of this because I just don't understand you"my tone was sharp and serious almost yelling I was really disappointed in Ryan that with every word I gradually let go of my feelings for him, I've always liked Ryan from the beginning but we possibly can't be together can't we,maybe we weren't meant to be together for the very beginning so what's really the essence of holding onto feeling that's probably end up with a one sided love or a broken heart
"yasmine I things aren't like that, you just don't understand "he said standing up straight after successfully trying so hard to help me put on my school shirt and skirt he brought i could even barely lift up my hands then Ryan also helped button the shirt "it's not like what Ryan,make me understand talk to me please tell me I really want to know" I already knew what Ryan was going to say but I just felt i needed to hear it directly from him,love wasn't as easy as i thought it was even more hard for a young poor girl like me my heart felt heavy as i waited for Ryan reply,him being the first guy I ever liked the first guy I ever fall In love with so his rejection hurts like hell,his words were really heart breaking.
"Yasmine"he called out before closing his eyes as if trying to fight back tears "i really like you,but I don't think our relationship can work,I fell in love with you from the very first day I saw you but I'm sorry we are not perfect for each other" he said each words clearly and calmly when he opened his eyes they were both slightly red but i think i was more hurt then he was that day.
Ryan was just being sincere right so I shouldn't hold it up against him after all I was the one who felt for the wrong guy that wasn't in my social class,I stare up at Ryan for a while to the point that my neck starts to ache then I bit on my lips trying hard to fight back my tears,Ryan pass his hands through his hair in frustration without meeting my gaze he apologised at first i felt what was the need for him apologising then later on I felt like it was so fucking necessary. "Yasmine,I'm sorry really sorry,but I really like you and i also care about you,I...."he said as he bent down in front of me placing his hand on my lap lost in what he was saying he put his hand on where aches the most not realising how hard he press on it,instantly i flinch in pain letting out a low groan as my face twisted,Ryan quickly took his hand away asking if I was okay "yasmine, yasmine are you okay"his tone sounded worriedly and concerned isn't his question ridiculous how could someone in my situation be fine,I look down at my thighs with tears filled in my eyes as they threatened to slip down at once and I let them flow down freely "I'm sorry I never realised I place my hand there"as he speak he stood up wanting to help me stand up as he said "you need to go to the hospital yasmine your wounds needs to get tend to if not it might get infected and it will have a hard time healing "anything Ryan was saying then what passing into my left ear and was coming out through the right ear ,I was in so much pain to even think straight but If there is one I know at that moment is that I don't want his hands to touch me and I don't need his fucking help not now not ever "let me take you to the hospital"he said wanting to help me up by my should that he was too scared to touch made because he just mistakenly touch my wound without knowing, he didn't even know how to help me up so after hesitating to touch me he stretch his hand forth to support me but ignored him gathering all my strength to stand up for myself the pain what super intense far from what I expected but now wasn't the time to show weakness I thought it best if we end things here and bury our feelings too so in the future I won't feel indepth to him in any way and we'll either friends or enemies thankfully our graduation exams is almost here so everyone will finally get off each other's nerves. Taking just two step under his watchful gaze I pause for the pain wanting to rest and then say something "yas, what are you doing let ...."he said but i immediately cut him off in rage feeling even more irritated from my name he was cutting short "don't call me that and don't ever touch me"i said seriously as i slowly turned to face him, shock was written all over his face as his hand was frozen in space.
Once upon a time if Ryan had called me yass I would have đ blush or smiled sheepishly now i never want to hear him call me that,
" Ryan from today on let's just quietly go our separate ways when we see each other,if you really like me then don't show concerns about me anymore perhaps that's what's good for us both"while saying my last words I already turn walking away slowly despite the pain my both knees felt very weak that it's feels like i could fall actually in truth i stumbled thankfully Ryan hurriedly caught me before I could hit the ground steadying me.
"Yasmine don't be stubborn and let me take you to the hospital"he suggested
" No Ryan,I'm not going with you so get your filty hands off me" I yelled coldly Ryan was so surprised that his hand slowly slip away from me,
From the moment Ryan said those words earlier he changed me"And one more thing Don't ever talk to me again,you're a completely fucking useless asshole"my tone was emotionless and distant my whole expression darkened as i speaks Ryan was so stunned that he was utterly speechless as his mouth moved but no words came out maybe he felt like he was completely useless like i said it was a good thing that Ryan didn't come after me anymore,he didn't move from where he was standing talk more of coming after me,maybe I was harsh because I needed to get him out of my heart and head.
It started raining moment after I got out side,the weather was already gummy from inside the room but outside was more darker the rain was even more bad as my whole body got soak add salt to my wounds.
I manage to walk a long distance away from school but I didn't get a ride and even if I did I don't know where my phone was to pay,I took my school bag on the floor before leaving the place still my phone was no where to be found meanwhile under that heavy rain in June i cried out my eyes what a poor girl i thought.
Everywhere hurts my open wounds and my inner wound my school uniform kept on sticking to my wounds making me more frustrated,suddenly I came to a stop standing by the road side with my head low when a car unexpectedly parked right in front of me, I immediately lifted my gaze to see an expensive classic car as the window rolled down revealing two handsome guys inside sitting at the front with another at the back stunned I stare at their Breathe taking faces honestly as a girl that loves romantic movies I understood that we only get to see this handsome faces in movie or drama they weren't common in the real world.