my name, is Elias Ward.
I'm an unemployed 22 year old male studying at a University.
what university? I'm not telling you.
to be honest the concept of reincarnation or even rebirth is not so foreign to me.
I've read my fairshare of novels and webcomics back in my past life, enough to remember every cliche and story plot possible.
And to be honest, I'm not too mad at my reincarnation.
The reason why I died is simple, I killed myself.
Now just because I killed myself and got reincarnated you don't try do the same thing, trust me you're gonna regret.
I remembered what happened back then, the reason why I did it, I hate my life.
I was born in a poor immigrant family, trying to stay alive was hard enough but coupled with my dad fleeing the family and his large debt I was the one left to pay.
My mother died at the birth of my sister making her believe she was the cause of her death, making her believe she was the curse of the family.
At around 13 years old, I have to not only keep my grades up but also work odd jobs around the town, even doing illegal stuff such as thief and so on.
I wasn't proud of that, but I was proud of being able to keep my sister alive.
After countless hours of work and crime I managed to get into a University, through unfair methods that is.
Even then, I never thought that everything would go downhill from bottom to more bottom.
My sister was influenced by her friends, basically going into a life of crimes.
She said she was 'sick' and 'tired' of life, she even questioned me and retorted back on how I used to do crimes.
To be honest, she's right, I do the same things she does, and now I'm also wondering what's different between me and her, that I'm trying to provide? Excuses.
I hated my self, it felt like all I ever worked for was for nothing, my sister is now gone from my life, she disappeared somewhere leaving me behind, I know she's alive, but I don't have enough effort to search for her.
Countless tragedy struck me at the time, first I was accused of stealing and harassing a female student which got me kicked out, not only that seeing those above me simply laugh behind my back at my defense it felt like I was nothing.
Then, at that moment, I realized something.
The universe doesn't give a damn about me
No matter what I do, my fate will stay the same, so.. I simply ended it.
And now? I was fucking reincarnated, I thought I was done with life, I hate my life.
And now? I'm in a newborn's body in a new life.
***
It's been 5,184,000 seconds or to simply put 2 months from my birth.
I realized something weird while being in this body, I was growing way too quickly.
My body is more similar to that of a toddle or I guess a 1-2 year old than a baby, I already have a full hair and a full set of teeth.
But if I accounted for my black out perhaps it's been longer than I expected, even then when I managed to still count it with my blacked out state I realized each time I slept it's only about 9-12 hours or so.
Maybe it's because of that crazy lady and her srynge I've been growing abnormally, but weirdly enough, I realized something.
'i haven't shit since my last life'
How was it possible? It was definitely those weird srynge she's been inserting on me.
Another thing that I realized is my weird consciousness, I don't know how but I have 4 consciousness in my mind, excluding myself of course.
One is counting, one is memorizing everything I see and hear, one is learning the language of this world, and the last one is is recounting every single memory from my past life, from sad to happy.
It was weirdly comfortable, each day passing I can feel my body growing and not only that being pampered like this was a luxury from my past life.
'damn, this must be what a gigolo feels like'
There's a reason why I say that, the woman that's been taking care of me looks straight out of a badly done porn movie.
She's beautiful sure, but for fuck sake she really needs to start wearing some clothing.
'speak of the devil'
The metal door of the room slides towards opposite ends, the woman who's been taking care of me walks in with careful strides.
Her blonde curly and messy hair getting in the way of her face, even then I can still see her perfectly crafted features.
'No doubt she is the most beautiful woman I've ever seen'
The woman was wearing a lab coat with thick pair of glasses further solidifying her image as a scientist.
'Or I guess more accurately is a mad scientist'
She's been laughing and snickering to her self for some reason, she walked over to me with the same srynge grabbed my little arm before carefully inserting it.
Blue like veins appeared on the spot stabbed by the srynge a sense of relief wash over me, usually a sharp pain would've engulfed me.
Thankfully it doesn't somehow my body managed to learn how to blocked out pain and nerves.
And finally once the srynge was empty she carefully put it down on a tray besides the crib, she looked at me for a moment with a weird.. blissful? No it was more like relief with her expression.
She brought me to her arms cradling me while creepily smiling.
"Hehe.. grow my big baby, soon enough you'll be my masterpiece, my beloved, you'll show them who's the real fucking scientist!"
???
From her dialogue and my deep connection to cliche and story plot, it seems she's a scientist who's not accepted on society or circles, not only that maybe she was looked down upon which is why she seems so obsessed with me as her 'masterpiece'
'she's trying to prove herself with me'
To be honest, the woman looked sorry in my eyes, from the lack of people here I conclude that this lab or facility is managed by herself and the AI in this building.
She resembles a loser who doesn't have any friends, she talks to herself, and even sometimes seems like a mental patient.
'poor thing really'
She looked down at me again with a small quivering smile before Putting me down again.
"I'm sorry, you'll have to endure injections for now, there's no other way to feed you than that"
She look weirdly apologetic at me, the image of the mad scientist overlapping with that of a mother looking warmly at her child.
Then before I knew it she left the room leaving me alone.
***
31,536,000 seconds, or in another word a whole year after my birth.
I looked at the mirror Infront of me, gone is the toddler replaced by an image of a young boy around 149cm.
'how the fuck did I grow this quickly?'
Looking at my new younger self it was a bit weird to see my appearance, from the looks of it I seem to be a Hispanic person, maybe a mix of Caucasian or Arab.
'it's neat, definitely cool as fuck'
the clothes I'm wearing was just a simple black turtle neck and grey pants.
My hair now a bit curly I was forced by Lyra, the woman that's been taking care of me to care for it a little.
Looking at my self at first I'll admit it, this face is extremely handsome, but also impossible to be born with.
Every little details seems to fit perfectly within the structure of my face, while pleasing to look at, I didn't like it, I don't want to forget my past self just because I've been given a second chance.
I turned around walking away from the mirror to the metal door before sliding it off towards the hallway.
After a year of my time here I more or less got the gist of it.
'this is some weird sci Fi underground lab, it seems I'm the experiment of Lyra'
That's only some part of it, this facility or lab seems extremely advanced, at first I wanted to cross-check this setting with the novels and webcomics I've read, but so far it's beginning to be harder at doing so.
Every little things that I leaned only contradicts with what I know, the point is with each pieces I picked up the more I realized most of the puzzle board can't fit it.
'so far from what I picked up, this is a Sci Fi fantasy genre, with AI but also a half assed explanation about magic, at least from lyra anyway'
Lyra seems to be reluctant to teach me anything about magic or anything related to it, instead I was forced to learn basically elementary and middle school lessons.
Although I have a lot of questions about the world the biggest question is who, or specifically what I am.
'an experiment, but what am I? The ultimate lifeform?'
Either way I shrugged the thought of it as I reached a large futuristic metal door, a scanner emerged from the top of the door frame scanning me with that unsettling orange glint before the metal door automatically slides.
Inside, lyra seems to be Concentrated on something, her face seems to be filled with concern as she watches closely Infront of her three small tubes.
On the left is a half full tube glistening with golden sparks, it resembles that of a firework frequently sparking lights in the air above it.
To the middle is a broke tube leaking out goo like green substance, the glowing green substance tho slow started melting the table beneath it prompting the AI of the facility, 'Ark' to clean it up.
To the right was tube filled to the brim with red glowing substance, while it doesn't leak gas seems to be spawning from the tube and when the gas reach nearby electronics it seems to caused some type of lag and made the nearby machine dysfunctional, except for Ark somehow.
"Another failed experiment?."
"AH! Don't scare me like that Roy! And what are you doing here? You should be Studying in your room instead."
Lyra hastily turned around at the sound Nearly knocking off the tubes on the table, she sigh wiping off the sweat on her face she shot a look at me with her arms crossed.
"Hey, your tits are showing."
"H-HUH?! YOU?!... Haah, Roy, just help me out here.."
Her voice seems to lose any sharpness in them replaced with grimace she grabbed my shoulder forcing me to sit down beside her.
"Did you force another evolution?."
"Nope, I tried to take your advice earlier and separate the echo from the Aberrant, but it only resulted in three ends."
"You mean the three safest ends?"
>"Correct young master" Ark's voice answered my question.
"The genesis part failed, I tried every gene combination possible and even artificial Echo, each of them leads to failure bigger than the others.."
"Which means—"
"I only created failures"
Lyra slumped against her chair rubbing the bridge of her nose she put her glasses down fully revealing her exhausted face.
"Roy, do you think Grandpa's right?"
"That it's—"
"Impossible for a Reverse genesis to occur ?" Lyra
"Impossible for a Reverse genesis to occur ?" Roy
"..."
Genesis, a natural process of mana formation.
A long long time ago when the big bang happened it created something else different from all the others particles.
The god particles primeon, also the invisible particle that creates mana.
How is mana created you may ask? Simple!.
Your soul will have Echoes of your emotions called 'echo', the particles of echo will spread towards the environment, think of it as your soul birthing a clone and telling him to go steal a bunch of underlings.
It's weird but bear it with me.
Now when the echo meets a particle of primeon it crashed into eachother thus creating mana, that process is called genesis!.
So what is reverse genesis? Simple really, it quite literally meant reversing birth and Creation, reversing mana means reversing all of the side effects thus restoring your soul to before it creates genesis.
However, Reverse genesis is simply impossible, or is it?.
"Currently our methods are insufficient to create an octarine, maybe.. if we can stabilize an aberrant using an artificial soul we may-"
>"Wecan't, unless you're brave enough to go back to your grandfather and ask for more repair funds it is simply impossible to create another high risk aberrant."
Lyra was immediately shut down by ark, due to last time's disastrous artificial aberrant experiment any mention of it will immediately be shut down by ark.
Lyra pouted crossing her arms while falling back to her chair, she seems to fall into deep thoughts again.
>"Miss, I suggest we simply halt the experiment for now, it's getting late and tomorrow is young master first day at primary school, surely you won't want to miss—"
"I WON'T! Jeez just.. alright, clean up the experiments, Roy! Come on it's time to go to bed"
'ah.. how I miss being nagged by someone'
Lyra simply grabbed my by my collar and dragged me back to my room, Ark watching the scene simply laughed at it.. how does he do that actually??.
The metal door slides closing down as lyra dragged me out, only Ark's cold machine moving sound can be heard as the room went dark.
***
"Hey lyra, why can't I just go to middle school?"
"Hmm? You can't, you need to learn how to socialize first before starting middle school!"
'But.. seriously with a bunch of kids?'
Feeling my gaze directed at her lyra simply laughed at me as if confused on the simplest answer.
"Don't tell me you forgot you're still one year old?"
"... Oh.."
"Mhm, guessed right, you did forgot about it"
She leaned down ruffling my hair while pulling my cheeks, before carefully putting me into bed, by that I meant throwing me like a spear.
She seems to enjoy the scene even laughing warmly, she leaned down kissing my forehead while tucking me to sleep.
"Hey stop that! Haven't I told you I'm a man trapped in a boy's body-"
"Yes yes I get it~ you're a reincarnated person who's actually 20 years old, come on Roy I get that you like watching anime and all but isn't being a chuunibyo like this too much? Besides, you're just a kid in my eyes, maybe years later I'll believe you if you grow tall and handsome"
She simply laughed at me again while ruffling my hair, I've tried many times to told her I reincarnated here even with memories in my past life, however unluckily the technology here is eerily similar, and not only that every explanation I made she just chalked it up to me being a 'genius'.
Lyra stood up walking away from the bed turning the lights off first.
"Goodnight Roy, sweet dreams"
With that she left the room leaving me alone with my thoughts.