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Chapter 18 - Chapter 16

‎Avery's POV –

‎As I stepped into Dad's office, a faint shiver ran through me.

‎Everything was exactly as it had been before.

‎The books neatly lined on the shelves, the papers carefully arranged, the scent of old leather mixed with cold coffee… Nothing had changed.

‎Well—almost nothing. Not a trace of dust. Mom had made sure of that.

‎I stayed still for a moment.

‎Every detail stirred a memory: laughter, arguments, secrets shared here, sometimes heavy silences—and even his usual mess, which Mom always said I'd inherited from him. I missed it.

‎Everything collided inside my head, and before I realized it, my cheeks were wet.

‎I wiped them quickly, as if denying the tears could erase the pain.

‎I had to move forward.

‎That's what everyone said.

‎But how do you move forward when you're still carrying the guilt of a past you don't even understand?

‎If I hadn't asked him to come that night…

‎Dad might still be here.

‎My gaze lingered on a photo resting on the desk.

‎His hand on my shoulder. My bright smile.

‎A frozen moment—before everything fell apart.

‎The door opened behind me.

‎I stiffened.

‎"I knew I'd find you here," Daniel said, leaning against the doorframe, arms crossed.

‎"What are you doing here?" I murmured, wiping my cheeks.

‎"I was looking for the most annoying girl in the world," he replied simply, then added with a crooked smile, "Or maybe I was running away from Mom and her existential questions about my social life."

‎I barely looked up, a faint smile tugging at my lips.

‎"I thought the most annoying girl in the world was Claire."

‎"She still holds the gold medal, don't worry. But second place is definitely yours," he said with mock seriousness.

‎He took a few steps inside, glancing around the room.

‎"It's been a long time since I saw you here… in Dad's office."

‎I nodded.

‎"I just wanted to… look at a few things again."

‎His smile faded.

‎"You should stop doing that."

‎"Stop what?" I asked, confused.

‎"Punishing yourself," he said bluntly.

‎I froze.

‎"I'm not punishing myself," I replied with a laugh that sounded fake even to my own ears.

‎"Yes, you are, Avery. You keep believing it's all your fault."

‎"And it isn't?" I whispered, looking away, my fingers brushing the shelf beside me.

‎He stepped closer.

‎"Of course it isn't."

‎"Daniel, please…" I took a step back, unable to hold his gaze.

‎He sighed.

‎"You know… I used to think so too."

‎I looked up.

‎"Think what?"

‎"That it was your fault Dad… died."

‎Silence.

‎"But now I know I was wrong."

‎"Why are you saying that?" I asked, my voice barely audible.

‎He shrugged, nervous, eyes avoiding mine.

‎"Because I was jealous of you. And I still am, a little," he admitted with a bitter laugh.

‎He ran a hand through his hair.

‎"You were always his favorite. And that night… if Dad had stayed with me instead of rushing off like he always did when you called, maybe he'd still be here."

‎His voice cracked.

‎I stayed silent, unable to respond.

‎"At least, that was the first thing I thought when we got the news," he continued, sitting on the edge of the desk.

‎He rubbed his face, his voice rough.

‎"And I even wished you'd died too."

‎A nervous laugh escaped him, quickly stifled.

‎"Yeah. I was that kind of guy. Dad had just died, and I wanted my sister to go with him."

‎I stared at him, tears filling my eyes.

‎"You must think I'm cruel. Or just immature," he added, his voice trembling despite the forced smile.

‎"I can understand," I murmured. "If I'd been in your place, I probably would've thought the same."

‎"Seriously? Saint Avery showing compassion?" he said with a weak laugh, a tear sliding down his cheek.

‎"Dani…" I whispered, helpless.

‎"You know what made me let go of that thought?" he continued quietly.

‎He paused.

‎"It was seeing Mom cry. For the first time. Her—who always pretended everything was fine."

‎He shook his head.

‎"That's when I realized I was the biggest idiot alive. And even after you woke up, I was still angry. At you. At him. At everything. Until I started hating myself."

‎A strangled laugh escaped him.

‎"The problem with being an unrecognized genius like me is that I notice everything," he went on.

‎"I saw what you were becoming, Avery. You faded. You weren't the girl who laughed anymore. Not the annoying pest who used to mess with me. Just… a shadow. And that's when I understood how selfish I'd been."

‎I didn't hesitate.

‎I wrapped my arms around him—tight.

‎As if I were trying to keep him from disappearing too.

‎He froze in surprise, then let out a soft laugh against my shoulder.

‎"Pretty sure I was supposed to be the one cheering you up," he muttered.

‎"You're stealing my spotlight again," he added with a faint smile.

‎I tightened my grip.

‎"Shut up."

‎"Avery… you're choking me," he managed, half-serious, half-amused.

‎I let go with a quiet laugh, my cheeks still wet.

‎"Sorry."

‎He placed his hands on my shoulders, his voice gentle again.

‎"What I'm trying to say is—you need to stop punishing yourself. It's not your fault. It's just… fate decided to completely screw up our lives."

‎I laughed, despite everything.

‎He smiled.

‎"That's it. That's the sound I wanted to hear."

‎Then, slipping back into his teasing tone:

‎"Alright. Now I want my filthy little pest of a sister back."

‎I punched his arm lightly.

‎He winced.

‎"Ow! Seriously, what happened? You lose your strength or something?"

‎But then his gaze shifted past me.

‎He squinted.

‎"I've never seen that one before."

‎"Seen what?"

‎I turned around. A framed photo rested between two old books.

‎"Me neither. Maybe Mom put it there while she was cleaning," I said.

‎"Maybe… yeah," he replied, raising an eyebrow.

‎"Wait—did you just say I was right?"

‎"No, I said maybe."

‎"Too late. You said I was right," he said with a smug grin.

‎"I can't believe this. I have to tell Claire immediately—she missed a historical event," I added, mockingly heading for the door.

‎"You'd better not," he warned, suddenly serious.

‎"And who's going to stop me?" I replied with a smile.

‎"Avery, no. If she finds out, she'll mock me for a century. Or more," he said in horror.

‎"You shouldn't have sworn."

‎"I take it back," he groaned, following me.

‎The door closed softly behind us.

‎And for the first time in a long while, the past felt a little lighter.

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‎Anecdote

‎Daniel had once sworn—two years earlier—that he would never agree with a single thing Avery said during an argument. He'd even mocked her, declaring that if such a day ever came, he'd shave his head.

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