It's been 2 months since than...
Many things have happened.
First of all... Her dream came true and she started dating Haruki.
And in that time, there was a women called hana who bullied a child and falsely accused Horikita and later faced backlash after people realised that the reason for her behaving like that was because she liked Haruki which she was keeping a secret all along.
She was ostracized by the class, and she became an outcast.
In the class there were 2 outcasts and they were us 2.
I still remember it...
when she was being falsely accused, i tried to get up and debunked the claims but...
What i got from her was...
"Shut up! I don't need your fkin help!"
She stated, and made an embarrassing mess out of me.
Causing my social position to plummit ecen further.
After... that entire incident ended.
They started sharing funny memes of what happened to me.
They were truly having the time of their lives treating me like a clown.
I... Couldn't even retaliate.
Even though i was lonely... even though i wanted support.
Even though... i realised nobody would care if i jumped out of this building right now...
I couldn't do anything.
It wasn't like i was falsely accused for me to fight back.
They were just finding amusement in the confession i made 2 months ago and I've become the school's clown.
Everyone who saw me would laugh at my face because...
nobody has lashed out at someone like she has at me.
The funny part was the confident face i flasehd as i got on my knees and asked her her hand in dating.
I... truly was a fool...
What made me think a goddess like her who's rejected every single handsome guy would ever date someone like me?
Ofcouse... her stabdards are high.
A rich guy for a rich girl.
A handsome guy for a handsome girl.
An athletic guy with an athletic girl
and a popular guy for a popular girl.
They were the perfect couple that had all this and many more rare qualities.
If you look at my search hustory... you'll probably find tags of these manga.
Unpopular guy with popular girl
Extremely beautiful women with an average man
A rich women with a poor man.
A stupid person with an intelligent women and...
A guy playing cricket and a girl playing Basketball.
They are never meant to even be close to each other.
We are complete opposites.
Worst of all...
You'll probably find...
'girl rejects but later regrets her decision'
Type manga...
What? Why would she regret rejecting me?
Not once has she even looked my way.
I've been blocked from everywhere by her.
Her friends make sure i always have a clear distance between us.
and yet... why is it... that I'm still hoping... knowing she has a boyfriend...
I'm still hoping she'd some dsy talk to me again.
What would happen if i jump from here?
If i died here... I'd probably not make her uncomfortable.
I'd probably stop having to see my little sister's angry face whenever she makes eye contact with me.
I wouldn't have to see my mother, who is so precious to me always neglect me while she dotes on my sister.
I... wouldn't have to worry about anything or cry myself to sleep thinking about the 1 women who i thought would take me out of this hell.
I thought... she would make me feel like there was a point in existing...
There was someone who i should continue living for...
but... who am i kidding?
I can't really kill myself, I don't have the courage.
I'm afraid of heights.
I'm afraid of death.
I'm not worried about making people sad.
I've read my fair share of manga and hoped there would actually be people on my side...
but, i have 0 friends.
Yes! 0.
So... that's why i come to the rooftop.
Stand on the ceiling as i look down.
Remember, my mother, sister, father, Horikita.
Realise... that i have nobody and resolve myself to jump.
And... i was too afraid.
I probably valued this worthless life of mine.
I probably hoped someone would come and make me think that jumping from there wasn't the right answer.
That there would be people who would genuinely like me.
That... i wouldn't be alone like this all my life...
It's suffocating.
I hate it! Every single bit of this...
I truly hate it to the core.
I wish... it was easier to give up on life.
...
I sat on the floor getting ready to have my lunch... When the door creaked open.
I just stole a glance and saw a blonde haired women.
Her hair swaying in the air and her tearful eyes as she looked down.
She started sobbing aggressively.
As she crouched down.
She than got up, as if resolving herself.
Deciding to jump.
No way... she's actually-
"What are you doing?"
I asekd as i got behind her.
"Aah!"
The blonde hair screamed as she slipped
I grabbed her hand and pulled her towards me.
Making sure she doesn't fall.
"You!! Are you crazy?"
She asked, genuinely pissed.
The moment i saw her face... i realised who she was.
Ear piercings, A modified uniform that showed her curves very well.
And a beautiful gyaru who would make any man's heart melt and any women's jealousy Buest.
Her name... was Hana Takahashi.
She... is a women... who is involved in school violance and bullying.
and yes! she did the bullying.
In simple words... she is a bully.
"You... aren't you ghat clown confessor?"
This shit refuses to die down doesn't it? I involuntarily cursed.
"Well... My name is-"
"And why should i care what your name is..."
She asked... i couldn't say anythibg back so i just shut up and gathered my thoughts.
As she was about to leave, i called her out.
"Doing that... won't help you."
I said...
"What, what do you even know? I ahve been cornered by the class and I've hit rock bottom. Teachers aren't looking at me favourably anymore."
She retorted, in anger and regret.
"Do you really have no reason to live?"
"... I don't."
"Than go ahead! Kill yourself."
"Huh?"
She seemed surprised but i didn't say anything else, sat back down and had my lunch.
She too didn't say anything and went to the ceiling.
"What are you thinking about?"
I asked her and she snapped.
"You bastard! are you that intent on getting rid of me!"
She asked, somewhat perplexed and angry
"I was genuinely asking!"
I said with a fake smile.
I was genuinely asking but... i wanted to smile to reassure her but... I've lost the ability to smile genuinely long ago.
all i can muster is an awkward fake smile.
"Are you mocking-"
"Tell me... who came to mind when you were about to jump?"
Was it your lover? was it Horikita?
Or maybe your friends?
"My Mother... and the women... i bullied."
"I see... It seems you have unresolved issues to take care of Takahashi."
"Huh? What are you-"
"What do you want to do? Takahaski, what do you genuinely wanna do?"