Noxen wanted to run away,to anybody or anywhere but he couldn't,he doesn't have anybody he has friends but no friends that he can cry to or hang out with,his family hates him for being a teenager and he also can't go anywhere.
If he ran away,it would show him weak like the little boy he is.He wants to cry,to let it out,with each step to some where he feels safe,he has to hold it.
*If they know,if they realize it bothers me, they will pick on me.I have to stay strong, something I tried to he for years.I know you can do it my little darling.*
Noxan tried to calm his self he controlled his thoughts and his breathing but a heart filled with years of feeling nobody accepted was stronger.Noxan couldn't control his heart beat, nobody could, expect him,Sylas made his heartbeat rise and sink,even the day he would die his last beat would be for him.
Noxan Imagined him scratching the head of Shanox while talking to him "My honey pie come to me, I've been waiting for you,all these years I've waited for you to accept me in your heart, don't be shy Noxan I'm here with you now."
He felt his anger sinking,his panic liquefieng with in him.
Noxan finally spoke
"I'm a top,who my crush is not your business,I won't say anything more"
His voice was confident and strong,not naturally he forced it to signal to them that he has accepted himself.
He walked away slowly,heads up, with strong steps.People looked at him confused and whispered around
"Wasn't he just crying and now he's Confident?"
"He didn't answer all the questions?"
"Is he actually gay or is he just playing?"
"Why did he chose to be gay?"
"Since when did he knew it?"
In the next lesson, nobody cared about the Tasks, everybody tried to ask Noxan questions about him and his Sexuality.
Noxen didn't look at Sylas a single time in that day,he knew that they would now focus on who he looks the most to,he had to fake another love to protect his love,not just his feelings of love,but also the person he loves.
He knew thst they would bully him,if they knew it was Sylas,they would pick on him and make jokes ,they would ship us which would made him hate Noxan over everything.
Today was the first day,he didn't talk or look to Sylas even though he was in school.
A new phase of hiding started,he knew that,he felt that.It wasn't his Sexuality this time, now it was the soul,the look,the sun he loved.