Only Zhang Qiling knew how difficult it was for him not to run and hug the man when he called his name in the hospital.
As much as he tried, he couldn't get a wink of sleep. He got up and strolled in his room, then walked outside and sat down on the bench in the big yard in front of their house. It was Fatty's idea to have a big yard in front of the house and it sure looked beautiful.
Qiling couldn't stop thinking about his love, Wu Xie. So getting the car keys, he left for the Xie Mansion.
It wasn't easy for anyone to trespass the Xie Mansion without getting caught. But for Zhang, it was a children's play. After parking his car at a distance, he walked and got inside the mansion.
It's not like Zhang hadn't been here before. But it was all in his previous lifetime. He knew exactly what was where, and to his surprise, even in this lifetime, the layout of the mansion was exactly the same. So it didn't take him long to find the private residence.
He got inside the room through the window and was happy to see the love of his life sleeping peacefully, unaware of the fact that Wu Xie was now awake.
Zhang Qiling got onto the bed and then lightly placed his one arm around Wu Xie's waist and pulled him close. And just then, he heard the younger call out his name just like he had in the hospital this afternoon.
"Xiao Ge..."
Zhang didn't say anything except a light 'hum'. Wu Xie turned around now facing the said man, without taking the arm off his waist.
The moonlight that penetrated the room through the window was enough for him to look straight in the eyes of the man holding him.
"Wu Xie..." Qiling called his name and he felt the younger's body tremble under his arm.
"Wu Xie, don't you remember me? Your Xiao Ge?" Qiling asked the younger and Wu Xie just shook his head.
"Do we know each other? Why don't I remember anything? Seeing you, hearing you call my name makes me feel that I've known you not just this lifetime, but even in my previous life. I don't know this feeling, I can't even express it in words but, when I hear you call my name, I feel hurt. My heart hurts and it seems like I've forgotten something very precious, wait, actually someone very precious." And this made Zhang pull the younger in his arms.
As Wu Xie's head hit Zhang's chest, he could feel that the other's heart was so calm like the oceans while his own was like a raging storm.
What was it that he had forgotten? Why was it that he felt so hurt, and for what did his heart ache so much for? Why did he feel so lost until now? And why did this particular man made him feel complete, safe, and relaxed? Why did this man's embrace make him feel like he had always belonged there?
A lot of questions flooded Wu Xie's heart and mind and unknown to him, he started crying. Hearing those soft sobs, Zhang Qiling got up and made Wu Xie sit up as well.
"It's okay, you don't have to force yourself. I didn't mean to pressurize you. I only came here because I missed you. I missed holding you in my arms, close to my heart. I missed your warmth, I missed touching you. I missed your smile, and every little thing about you. After you called my name in the hospital, I just couldn't hold myself back." Zhang explained and Wu Xie listened to him carefully.
"I went to your set this morning, and you won't believe, but merely hearing your name, all my memories came flooding to me. I remembered everything and first thing I wanted to do was run to you. But I couldn't, because I knew you didn't remember me. If you knew, you'd be first person to find me. After all, you're the only connection I have to this world." Zhang said further and every word that came out of his mouth made Wu Xie feel more and more close to this man.
Not minding what the older would feel or think about him, he suddenly placed a small kiss on Qiling's lips, who only watched him do it.
"Wu Xie, can I kiss you back?" Zhang Qiling asked and Wu Xie nodded.
The touch of Zhang's lips on his own made him melt into countless butterflies. Wu Xie put his arm around Zhang Qiling's neck and pulled him close. Qiling on the other hand flipped Wu Xie on the bed and was now on top of him, without leaving the kiss.
As they were both savouring each other, a faint memory of him kissing someone just like how he was doing it now on many different occassions, flashed in Wu Xie's mind and he couldn't grasp them at all.
Zhang fingers were in Wu Xie's hairs lightly tugging at his hairs or sometimes caressing them. Wu Xie was in some other world right now. The effect of this kiss was so strong that it tugged at his heart. The pull was so strong that he couldn't bring himself to stop.
Both were slowly feeling out of breath but the longing in the heart overpowered everything and every feeling right now. But when they couldn't, they both stopped, still their foreheads attached to each other and breathing heavily with eyes closed. Wu Xie felt drops of water fall on his own eyes.
When he opened his eyes, he realised they were tears. The man who had kissed him senseless just now was in tears. Zhang didn't open his eyes, rather he shut them tight and tried to supress every sob that threatened to come of his mouth. Wu Xie's heart pained at the sight in front of him.
Zhang suddenly got up and walked to the window. He finally let out the breath he realised he was holding for so long. It was true that Wu Xie had been and still was Zhang's only connection to this world. He himself hadm't realised uptil now how important this man was for him until he had gotten his memories back.
Zhang's train of thoughts was broken when a pair of hands went around his waist and a head rested on his back. His own head leaned at the side to rest upon the younger's head.
"Xiao Ge, I'm sorry I can't remember anything. But I will try. Will you help me? Because what our relation was, I know one thing for sure, it was unlike others. The force which pulls me to you is so strong that it all feels like we had been more than just partners. Even the kiss we shared felt so familiar." Wu Xie tried to comfort the older.
Noticing that the other didn't respond. Wu Xie went and stood in front of the man and held his face in both of his hands.
"I promise." Wu Xie said and they both kissed again while hugging each other.