chapter-2
kana's point of view -
Few days ago
It's a rainy day I saw on TV that the weather will be bad today, i'll take an umbrella with me.
ohh yes. It's time i should go to kanel's house so that we can go to school together. i get dressed and take a blue umbrella with some cute purple flowers on it.
I go out of the house. But the weather
have gotten worse, these raindrops are
cold and heavy. and because of this rain its cold even in summer.
I reach Kanel's home, i ring the doorbell and Kanel's mom open the door. She says. that he's sick and he will not go school with a cold look.
in this neighbourhood everyone hated me I am like a curse for everyone in this neighbourhood.
only because of kanel i was happy, he always treats me nice and he loves me but his mom and dad hate me for being so close to him.
I am like a curse the day i was born. I killed my mom and after a few months my dad died in an accident.
My aunty and uncle are taking care of me but they also hate me l am like a burden to them and my mother and father died because of me, everyone. thinks i am cursed even me, thats why everyone hates me.
my life was all dark until i met kanel he called me friend and cared for me he spent his time with me even though his parents always told him to stay away from me.
But he never listened to his parents. He always played with me and even helped me when someone tried to bully me in school.
he was the Best Person for me in my life and I loved him more than anything. he was the only one whom i can trust and whom i can love.
on my way to school he was in my mind "Is he okay?" he is sick because me? Why is he sick?because rain started this morning so how did he even get sick".
I wanted to meet him but it was impossible because of his mom. She will never let me meet him especially when he's sick.
I texted him "I want to meet you" he replied "I'll let you know when my mother will go out" after talking to him my heart was at peace even though I texted him at school time and he replied when i am going home. but he's sick that's why so i should not overthink.
I reached my home and started changing my clothes and took a shower then I started studying for tests, those tests were next week. but in the end i was not able to study because he was in my mind all the time.
I lay down in bed thinking about him and I didn't even realise when I fell asleep.
Next day was also a normal day I woke up, started to get dressed for school and spend most of day in school, but there was one thing diffrent, when I was going home Kanel texted me that his mom is out for shopping and I can meet him.
After seeing his text i was so happy I got to his home as fast as i can he opened the door. and he had a mask on his face.
we talked alot and after 20 minutes i had to leave because his mom can come home
anytime.
I left his home quietly and went to my home, after entering my room i just lay down on my bed.
I was happy that I got to meet him even if it's 20 mins it's still better than nothing.
i ate my dinner and studied for a few hours and went to sleep.
After that we didn't talk for a few days but after a few days he finally came to school.
when he's not in school, I don't want to go to school that's why i woke up late that day but i somehow made it In time and when i saw him in classroom I was so happy. i directly covered his eyes with my hands and asked him "tell me who i am" and he holded my hands with his and said its you Kana and he turned towards my direction he saw me smiling and he also started to smile looking at me.
we spent a lot of time in school and we ate our lunch together, i fed him with my hands and he did the same, today i was smiling the whole day.
but there is a saying "when you laugh a lot you will cry too."
when we were going home together. there was a thief coming our way running from other people Kanel tried to stop him but he shot him with his gun. Kanel fell on the ground, he was bleeding, after seeing him bleed i didn't even realise when tears started falling from my eyes.
No No No
you can't die please don't leave me, you'll stay with me right?
Please stay with me. Please don't leave me
i am begging you. People called an ambulance and he was sent to the hospital. but he was already dead...
I was with him in ambulance he was taken in emergency room, they called his parents before they arrived doctor came to me and sat next to me
"are you both siblings?" He asked me
I said "No" my voice was shaking and face was covered with tears
"Is he your boyfriend?" He asked
"Yes" i replied
He put his hand on my head and said
"Sorry dear we couldn't save him"
After hearing that i stopped hearing
But he kept on trying to cheer me up,
After some time his parents arrived but mom went to doctor and after talking to him she went to see kanel after sometime she came out with tears
She came to me and slapped me multiple times
"You killed him"
"You did this"
"You already killed your mother and father was that not enough? Why did you have to take my son as well"
She started crying but still yelling at me
I was crying all the time.
I guess she is right i am cursed because every one who cared for me died and I am all alone again. and if someone comes close to me they will also die.
It was raining again and I left the hospital. I was going home and I forgot my umbrella at that place where kanel died.
I reached home and my uncle and aunty were waiting for me. First they yelled at me , and after that I was beaten badly by my aunty.
they were mad at me because when everyone got to know that kanel died because of me everyone in my neighbourhood. forced my uncle and aunty to move to another place with me.
Of course they dont want me in this area
any more.
that night i cried and cried and kept on crying
Kanel why did you leave me I'm lonely, I'm missing you please comeback i want to see you, I want to be with you please come back, or have you already forgotten about me, are happy without me? Are you happy in heaven without me?
i am not happy, I want to see you
Kanel please come to me please,I start to hit my head on the wall of the room
"Right if i kill myself i might be able to see you again"
Even if there is 1% of chance I'll take it
I don't wanna live in world where you don't exist
If you die i die
I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you
Kana goes in the kitchen and grabs a knife
She starts to cut her hand with shaking hands after some cuts she gets more strength
And she starts to stab herself in her chest, hands, legs everywhere and at the end
"Kanel your kana is coming to you just wait for me"
She jumps from the window
Kana loved kanel till her last breath and to meet him, she even killed herself.
Because of all the depression and sadness
She KILLED herself.