It was a snowy day, I was walking down to the park where there was full of snow. I sat down on the bench and looked at the snow which it reminds me of you.who left me in dark. You promised that you will come back to me soon. 4 years past, you still don't come to me. I know you're not a liar, i don't blame you for anything, I know you.... but I need you, please come back to me.
Suddenly, I heard a familiar voice of a man making me look around the park. I stood up from the bench and looked for the familiar voice that I heard but I stopped when I saw something I didn't expect. I still clearly remember how your voice cackled in air when you laugh, you always wonder how I recognise you by how you walk, i can smell the fragrance, it's your cologne, the one still lingering in my heart, you are with a woman beside you while your arms are around the woman's waist.
My dear Aries, if you told meย "Eda I can't love you anymore, I hate you", I still would be okay with that! But darling you are in love. But it's not me. I can see your blue ocean eyes, there I used notice your love for me, there now I can see love for that woman next to you. It hurts. I just numb with shocked when you both stopped infront of me & she asked to me....
"Do you know where is Goldberg's street?"
I was nervous, you looked at her, still your hand on her waist, now even more tighter. When you back to me, you looked at me like I'm a stranger.
"It's 3hours long way, whether is not pleasent, you should take shelter first"
I noticed you hide something. Something you're pulling back.
"Are you new here?" She asked.
My heart aches, breath becoming heavier, world blures, snow keeps falling.
"๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐....๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐!" I whispered unknowingly.
You freezed. With shock? I don't know! The girl followed your gaze, confusion flickering on her face. She asked you, "Aries, are you okay?"
But your eyes are lost somewhere else, in our past? Or you forget everything? Can you remember? The promises, the tears, the love, the autumn....
"Eda...."
My name leaves on your lips like an apology! I want to scream, i want cry, I want to hurt you .....but.....
"Aries, who is she? Do you know her?"
She is asking you. The question hangs in air, the snowflakes falling quietly. The wind become so chilling like it can moving our bones.....
"She wasโฆ someone I used to know."
The words slice through me before the chill can.
๐ผ๐๐๐ ๐๐.
Once upon a time.
I looks at you โ really look at you โ to your deep green forest like eyes, in those ocean eyes, I can see tides that no longer belong to me.
"Then I guess I should go before your past ruins your present."
I step back. The snow crunches under my boots โ every sound a goodbye. I lost your dear. But how? Why did you left me?
She's still looking at you, with confusion, lost of questions in her mind i know. But....
I turned back, walking away into the white blur, my burgundy scarf trailing behind me like the last thread of a dream unraveling.
For a moment, You tried to almost runs after me. Your fingers twitch โ but her hand tightens around your arm, anchoring you to a reality you chose, or maybe, one that chose you.