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Chapter 10 - Chapter 10

The lock on Kian's bedroom door clicked shut with the dull, heavy finality of a bank vault.

​He was in his sanctuary. But the intruder wasn't outside. It was in his head. It was on his hands. He could still feel the phantom-sensation of the lumpy, cheap ball, the humiliating, addictive pop of it leaving his fingertips. He could still hear Silas's laughing, horrified voice.

​Coach Kian!

​He was shaking. Not from fear. From a rage so pure, so total, it was indistinguishable from humiliation. He had been seen. He had been identified. Ren, with his cold, analytical eyes, had seen the "variable." He had seen the infection.

​Kian needed to cut it out.

​He walked to his desk. He opened his supply drawer, not grabbing the soft, dark charcoal he used for shadows, but the 8H pencil. It was the hardest, sharpest, most precise tool he owned. A surgical instrument. A scalpel.

​Then, he sat. He positioned his desk lamp, aiming it at the duffel bag on his floor. He unzipped it. He took it out.

​The basketball. The pristine, pro-leather, gold-embossed "gift."

​He placed it on his desk, in the center of the white-hot cone of light.

​And he began his exorcism.

​He didn't draw it. He dissected it. He mapped it. His hand, which had been shaking with rage, was now preternaturally still. The only sound in the room was the fine, scratching shhh-shhh of hard graphite on thick, toothed paper.

​This was not art. This was war.

​He was not his father's son. He was not a "coach." He was an artist. And an artist masters his subject. He does not become it.

​He rendered every pebble of the leather. He didn't just shade the seams; he drew the tiny, thread-count stitching that held them in place. He spent an hour—a full, silent, meticulous hour—on the "L" in the gold logo, on the way the light reflected off the "Official Game Ball" lettering.

​This thing was not a "gift." It was not magic. It was just... an object. It was leather and thread and ink and air. It was knowable. It was finite.

​And he... he... was the one in control. He was the one with the scalpel.

​He drew until his hand cramped, his knuckles white, his shoulder aching. He drew until the afternoon sun faded, leaving only the focused, artificial beam of his lamp.

​He drew until it was done.

​He put the pencil down. The shhh stopped, and the silence rushed back in, heavier this time.

​He looked at his work. The drawing was perfect. Hyper-realistic. It was a cold, flawless, anatomical study of a basketball. It was… lifeless.

​He looked at the ball itself. It was just a ball.

​He picked it up, and for the first time, it felt… neutral. It wasn't his father's curse. It wasn't his secret shame. It was just a… a thing.

​He felt… empty. But it was a clean empty. A controlled empty.

​He put the ball back in the duffel bag. He zipped it. He slid it back into the deep, dark corner of his closet. He had won. He had re-asserted his own mind over the "virus." He had contained the infection.

​He was Kian Vance. And he did not play.

​While Kian was performing his surgery, Silas and Ren were at the comic shop, but they weren't looking at comics. They were sitting in the back, at a table meant for D&D, just... staring.

​Silas finally broke the silence. "He made Ana cry, man."

​Ren nodded, pushing his glasses up. He was turning a 20-sided die over and over in his hand. "His behavior was... indefensible."

​"But... did you see him before that?" Silas leaned forward, his voice dropping. "When we first got there? He was... he wasn't our Kian. He wasn't 'Ice-Man.' He was... Coach Kian." Silas said the name, but this time, it wasn't a joke. It was a statement of fact.

​"He was... invested," Silas continued, his mind clearly blown. "He was sweating. He was... he was passionate. I've known the guy for three years, Ren, and I've never seen him passionate about anything except, like, the new issue of Saga or making a teacher feel stupid."

​"It's the 'father variable'," Ren said, his voice clinical. "We hypothesized Kian's 'problem' was his father. We were correct. But our hypothesis was incomplete."

​"What does that mean?"

​Ren stopped fiddling with the die. "We assumed Kian hated his father, and therefore hated the game. But that... that wasn't hate we saw. That was... fluency. He wasn't just playing, Silas. He was... speaking. It's a language. A language he's fluent in. And he hates himself for it."

​Silas slumped back, running his hands through his hair. "So... he's... possessed?"

​"No," Ren said, sighing. "He's... conflicted. He's bifurcated. There are two of him. 'Kian the Artist' and... 'Kian the Coach.' And 'Kian the Artist' is terrified of the 'Coach.' He thinks he's a monster. A virus, as you said. And today... we were the ones who held up the mirror."

​"So... what do we do?" Silas asked. "He... he threatened us, Ren. 'You saw nothing.' I... I'm pretty sure he meant it. Do we... do we just... lie? Do we just pretend it never happened?"

​Ren looked at his friend. "Yes. That is exactly what we do. He's building a wall. He's... he's Kian. He's not going to 'talk about his feelings.' He's not going to 'process.' He's going to build a wall, and he's going to expect us to respect it."

​"So... we just... let him be this... this cold, angry guy?"

​"No," Ren said, standing up. "We let him be our cold, angry guy. We treat him like normal. We go to school on Monday. We ask him if he did the chem homework. We talk about the new Blade Runner movie. We... we collect more data. We wait."

​Silas stood up, too, looking unconvinced. "It just... it feels wrong, man. It feels... like we're lying to him."

​"We're not lying," Ren said, his voice sharp. "We are... honoring the terms of the social contract. He is our friend. He is... breaking. And he has asked us, in the only way he knows how, to give him the space to hold himself together. So we will. We say nothing. To him. To anyone. Especially... especially... to his brother."

​The Vance estate was a tomb.

​Saturday night, no one spoke. Sunday was a long, excruciating exercise in avoidance. Kian stayed in his room, the drawing done, his "control" re-established. Leo stayed in the gym, the muffled thump... thump... thump... of his left-handed dribbling the only heartbeat in the massive house.

​Alicia and Arthur, masters of this cold war, let the silence be.

​Sunday dinner was the flashpoint. The four of them, at the massive, ten-person dining table. Alicia. Arthur. Leo. Kian.

​The only sounds were the clink of silver on china.

​Kian was... miserable. The guilt from Friday night—"You're just like him"—was a physical weight. It was worse than the humiliation of the quarry. He had hurt Leo. He had seen it. And now... now he was hearing the proof of that hurt. That obsessive, punishing thump... thump... thump... from the gym.

​He had to fix it. He didn't know how. He couldn't... he couldn't apologize. He didn't have the words.

​Arthur, as always, saw him. He cleared his throat. "Well. This is... festive."

​Alicia shot him a look.

​Leo just kept eating, his eyes on his plate.

​Kian looked at his brother. At his hurt, stubborn, good brother.

​He had to use the only language he had. Not his father's language. His own. The language of analysis.

​Kian cleared his throat. His voice was a rough, quiet croak.

​"The... the new transfer. Dylan Riley."

​Leo froze, his fork halfway to his mouth. He slowly looked up. This was the last thing he expected.

​"He's fast," Kian continued, staring at his own fork. "He's... stupid fast. But... he has no left hand. At all. He... he can't go left."

​Leo was just... staring. His eyes were wide.

​"He's... he's a one-trick pony," Kian said, the words coming easier now. He was in his element. Analysis. "He... he drives right, and if you cut him off, he... he always spins back. Always. He... he telegraphs it. He... he drops his left shoulder a half-second before he spins. It's... it's a dead giveaway."

​Alicia and Arthur were watching this exchange as if it were a tennis match.

​Leo... Leo lowered his fork. He was listening.

​"And... and Sam," Kian said, pushing through, the guilt making him generous. "He's... he's not a... a bad shooter. He's just... he's a dumb shooter. He... he takes shots from... from the logo. And his form... it breaks down. His... his elbow flares out. It's a... a 'chicken wing'."

​He flamed at using the word. The word he had used on Milo. He felt the blood rush to his cheeks. But he didn't stop.

​"He... he has to shoot from... from his spots. From the... the corner, or the... the top of the key. But not from the logo. He's... he's killing your... your spacing."

​Silence.

​Kian had just... he had just given Leo a full, pro-level scouting report.

​Leo's face was... a mixture of shock, confusion, and... something else. Gratitude.

​Kian had just said, in the only way he possibly could, 'I'm sorry. I was watching. I'm... I'm on your side.'

​Leo nodded. Once. A small, slow, acknowledging nod.

​"Yeah," Leo said, his voice rough. "Yeah. I... I saw the spin. But... not... not the shoulder. A... a 'chicken wing'. Yeah. That's... that's right."

​The tension in the room... it didn't break. But it... it eased. It was the first, fragile thread of a bridge.

​Kian looked down. "I'm... I'm done. I have homework."

​He stood up and left the room, his plate barely touched.

​Leo watched him go. And for the first time since Friday, the hurt in his eyes was replaced by... thought.

​Monday.

​Kian, Silas, and Ren met at the bike racks.

​"Hey," Kian said, his voice flat.

​"Hey," Silas replied, his voice... normal. "Did you... did you finish the chem homework? That... that titration problem was... was a killer."

​"It was... it was easy," Kian said. "You... you just... you forgot to convert to... to moles."

​"Oh," Silas said. "Yeah. Moles. Right. C'mon, let's go."

​They walked in. They were... normal. Ren was quiet, but he was always quiet. They were honoring the contract. Kian felt a small, strange, cold sense of relief. The wall was holding.

​He forced himself to take the route past the quarry. He had to. He had to reclaim it. He had to see it empty, to prove that his... his outburst... had worked.

​He rode. He got to the overlook.

​He stopped.

​His heart... sank.

​They were there.

​The kids. Milo. Ana. Timmy.

​They were back.

​But... they were hiding. They were in the bushes, peeking at the court. As if... as if they were waiting.

​Kian froze.

​Milo saw him. He didn't run. He didn't... he didn't look scared anymore. He looked... defiant. He looked... hopeful. He just... stared at Kian.

​Kian... Kian was furious. But he was also... confounded.

​His roar hadn't worked. His anger... hadn't been enough. Their need... their desire... it was stronger than their fear of him.

​He... he didn't know what to do.

​He just... he just rode away, his head spinning.

​Crestwood High. "The Nest."

​Practice.

​Leo was vibrating. He had his brother's voice in his head. He telegraphs it. Chicken wing. No left.

​"Alright!" Coach Miller yelled. "1-on-1s! Heart of the team! Vance! You're on Dylan! Let's go!"

​Leo nodded. He took his stance.

​Dylan "Flash" Riley grinned. He'd blown past Leo three times on Friday.

​He drove hard. To his right.

​He always goes right.

​Leo didn't try to beat him to the spot. He just... stayed with him, his feet a blur of work. He cut off the baseline.

​Dylan, as predicted, stopped. He planted his foot. His left shoulder... dipped.

​The tell!

​Dylan spun...

​...directly into Leo's chest.

​Leo was already there. He hadn't reacted. He had anticipated. He just... stood, his hands up, a legal guarding position. Dylan, spinning at full speed, slammed into the unmovable object.

​The thud was sickening. Dylan fell. The ball... Leo just... plucked it. A clean, perfect, Kian-style steal.

​The gym went dead silent.

​Dylan Riley, the "Flash," the star transfer, was on the ground, looking up at Leo.

​Coach Miller's whistle shrieked. "AGAIN! GET UP! DO IT AGAIN!"

​Dylan was... furious. He got the ball. He wasn't going to be embarrassed. He was going to... humiliate Leo.

​He drove left.

​He drove hard into Leo's weak side.

​But... Leo's weak side... wasn't weak.

​Thump... thump... thump...

​Leo's feet... they moved. They were... solid. He'd spent all weekend... thump... thump... thump...

​Dylan, who had no left, was forced to use his left. He threw up a wild, desperate, off-balance layup.

​Leo just... contested it. He didn't even have to jump.

​CLANG.

​The ball hit the back of the rim. It was a brick.

​Julian Hayes, on the sideline, watching, let out a slow, impressed laugh. "Well, damn."

​Leo didn'ltaunt. He didn't celebrate. He just... stood. He was panting. He wasn't his father. He wasn't Kian. He was... Leo.

​He had the work.

​And, for today... he had the data.

​He was... for the first time... ready.

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